Wednesday, December 29, 2010

You might not feel what i feel...
You might take me totally just as a friend…
But you have to know..
You have to know how I feel truly..
You have to be told about how I feel deep inside my heart..
I actually have fallen in love with you…
I actually really feel that you’re the one..
But I think you won’t care..
I think you would never feel the same…
I think you would think that all this are just a joke..
Or you might think that I would get over this feeling just as you count the days..
But even I don’t know when will I get over you…
Even I don’t know when will I start to take you as a friend only 100%..
You might not care about me..
But I really do care for you A LOT…
You might never think about me…
But I never stop remembering about you ALL THE TIME..
And now even the fireworks can’t totally cheer me up…
Being alone by the pool doesn’t help me anymore..
And now, maybe you’re having fun and being happy with the one you love..
While I type this thing over the sea…
I know I should never avoid you…
Cuz however you’re still a friend of mine…
But sorry….
I don’t know until when can I stand this…
I’m not strong enough to see you while knowing that you have no special feelings towards me…
I’ve drank and drank and drank…
But even when I got drunk, I still can’t let myself forget about you…
I know this is not your fault…
This is my own fault by falling in love with you…
The person who I haven’t known for too long…
But somehow I feel you’re the one…
I feel like you’re the person who’s gonna love me truly..
From the deepest part of your heart..
But I guess I’m wrong..
I guess you’re not the one..
I guess you won’t be the one who loves me truly…
And now I think a lot…
About my “love life”…
And I realizes, maybe I’m rejected because I’m so unimportant for everyone…
Maybe I’m rejected because people never need me truly…
Maybe I don’t deserved to be loved…
Well..
They’re just maybe’s..
But sometimes, those maybe’s can be right..
Those maybe’s might be the fact…
To be honest, I’m afraid they’re the facts…
I’m afraid those maybe’s are right…
But I afraid more for knowing that you’re not the one..
I’m more afraid when I imagine you’ll walk in front of me with other girl that you love more…
So what should I do now??
I really don’t have any idea..
Can anyone tell me???

Friday, December 24, 2010

simple writing about my complicated mind.

i might have written hundreds and hundreds of love poems...
and i know it sounds weird when i say those things to many different people..
makes me sounds like i can fall in love so easily...
but i don't care about it..
cuz this blog was made so i can pour out my feelings in the form of words..

like now,when i feel so rejected,so useless,so unimportant..
especially for that guy..

maybe people say that i should make myself think that it's his loss..not mine..
but somehow i feel unwanted now..
i feel like i might don't deserved to be loved...
and i still can't believe that i'm that bad and useless that no one had ever loved me truly..
and when i think i've found someone that could love me truly,,
he didn't even love me..
he just takes me as a friend..
nothing else..

now there's millions of questions that i want to ask to the Almighty..
cuz even though i know He always gives everyone the best that they need, not what they want,
but still, i can't really see His plan for me now..
i'm totally lost in my own life..
not knowing what to do next..
especially when i see that this guy is actually preferred my best friend instead of me..
i'm not sure anymore about what to do..
should i keep struggling and try to get him?
or should i let go, back off, and stop all this?

God,
if You're really there, all i want for this Christmas is just an answer for all of this..
i won't deny that i want him to love me truly..
but if it's just not the way You want it,
please Lord, let me know why and what should i do...
cuz i'm tired enough of being so lost in my own life..

Monday, November 29, 2010

Deep and Meaningless - Rooster

I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

Chorus:
If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
(Damn that's sad)

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me

goodbye my angel...

now i'm here,
alone again..
with no one accompanies me in the middle of this rain..
without you by my side..
and i guess you'll never be by my side anymore starting from today..
i can't handle this anymore..
i can't handle the pain..
the pain of being the third wheel..

i'm sorry for denying the promise..
the promise we shared before..
now i've got to let you go..
now i can't stand the pain anymore..

even though i really do want you,
but i'm too scared of the karma that would happen if i continue this..
i'm afraid you'll do the same thing to me..
and i know, if that happen, i will be so damn hurt..

so sorry dear..
i have to do this..
but believe in one thing,
i really do love you very much...

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

2nd of November :')

02.11.09
it's the date i would never forget..
the day that one of my bestfriends left this world and moved to the Lord's kingdom...
the day that made me really sad that i cried so loudly at the gym..

i remembered that day..
i was at the gym..
i just finished my combat class...
i was laughing loudly looking at the silliness of my friends..
then i suddenly felt so lonely and weird at that time..
and when i checked my cellphone,
there was a lot of missed calls from Tasha..
then suddenly she called me again..
crying so loudly and said, "RJ has left us..."
i thought she was joking..
but then she cried and cried and cried..
then i realized that she's serious..
without thinking, i screamed to Arlene and said what Tasha just said to me...

i suddenly felt empty, frozen, lonely..
i just realized that the best guy in the class, the best leader that had ever lived, the best daddy of the class, had left..
i can do nothing..
i only felt that the time suddenly stopped..
then suddenly i couldn't contain myself, and i cried...
i cried so loudly..
cuz the person i truly believed, the person who never judged me, the person who's very meaningful for me had to come back to the Almighty's kingdom..

and now, it's 02.11.10..
i'm sitting here alone at this coffee shop..
thinking about that silly guy that has left the world and moved to heaven...
missing him so much that i might cry in this very second..
craving for his matureness and his gentleness..

but i started to realize that God must have plans so that He pulled RJ in a such young age..
plans for him, plans for us, plans for everyone..
and i realize that i shouldn't cry for him anymore..
cuz he's happy now up there..
and i bet he doesn't want us to be sad all the time anymore..

Lord,
please take care of RJ up there..
and also open our eyes, God..
so that we won't cry for him anymore..
cuz i bet he doesn't want the people he loves keep crying for him..
that's all i want to ask from You, Lord..

p.s.
RJ, WE ALL MISS YOU SO MUCH! wait for us up there okayy...
then we can do silly things and have fun again up there..
love you "daddyy"!!!

Xs and Os,
the gembelers!

Friday, October 29, 2010

dear RJ

dear RJ,
hey there daddy..
how are you up there?
it's almost a year since you left..
we all miss you like crazy here..
do you miss us like we missed you???

in this one year,we all thought a lot about you...
we also talked about you too.. (well,i bet you know...)
but sadly most of those conversation ended with tears though...

i know you're happy now up there..
and i know you must be happier if your friends are happy too here..
but still,i can't lie to myself that i miss you so damn much man!
it's hard for me to stop crying for you when i remembered about you...
cuz you're one of the best guy friend that i've ever had...

but however,
i wrote this just to remind you that we all still remember you..
not just now i hope..
but forever...
i hope the "gembelers" will always remember you as the best leader that had ever led us..
love you J...

Xs and Os,
shilla :')

Thursday, October 28, 2010

you

when you're around, i can't stop laughing..
i can't stop smiling..
i can't deny that i always feel happy..

you always act the way you are..
you never pretend to be anyone else when you're with me..
i can always see the real you..

i know you're not mine..
i know you don't love me the way i do..
i know you love her so much..
but it's okay dear..
cuz i believe,
someday i can be yours and you'll be mine..
forever and ever..

p.s. even if it doesn't happen, i'm still okay...
cuz when you're happy, i can feel that happiness too.. :)
iluimuinu tikus jelek! :)

Saturday, October 23, 2010

we started as friends..
we had a lot of great times since then..
but then you left without saying anything to me..

now you suddenly show up again..
fill my life with all those happiness and laughs again..
my days seemed so clear and fun again..

now i have this "feeling" towards you..
but you have that girl that you've committed to..
and i can't force you to love me too..
it's okay for me..
cuz even by being your friend, i can still feel your love towards me..
even though not as your girl, but i believe you care and love me too..

thank God that i finally can find you again..
it makes my days mean a lot to me..
even physically i'm not yours,
but trust me dear, my heart is yours..

i might take other person as my boyfriend later on..
but you will always be the guy who fills my heart with all your love...
you are my friend, my special one, my everything..

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

i know this is wrong..
showing your love to someone that is already in a relationship..
but i can't lie to myself..
my heart can't deny it..
i can't tell myself to avoid you..
cause i love you too much to do that..

too bad the timing is not right..
it's always been like that since long ago..
i don't know what HE meant by reuniting us again like this..
especially in this condition..
when you have that special girl in your heart and life..

well now all i can do is just be your bestfriend..
all i can do is just not letting you go again..
i want to learn to love 100%..
i want to learn to be happy when you're happy..
cause i believe that love doesn't mean i have to have you..

By My Side - David Choi

I'm just listening to the clock go ticking,
I am waiting as the time goes by.
I think of you with every breath I take,
I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine.
You're all I see, in everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

All the fears you feel inside,
and all the tears you cry,
they're ending right here.
I'll heal your heart and soul;
I'll keep you oh so close.
Don't worry; I'll never let you go.
You're all I need, you're everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

No one else will ever do.
I got a stubborn heart for you.
Call me crazy, but its true; I love you.
I didn't think that it would be,
you have made it clear to me.
You're all I need.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

Monday, October 11, 2010

hanging out free your mind!! :D
everything that i thought won't go off my mind,
disappear in a snap when i'm hanging out with my pals..
so if you have this problem or anything bad you have in mind,
just hang out with your friends..
try to refresh you mind...
friends,cigs,coffee,laptop.
those things definitely free my mind. :D

second chance :)

second chance..
it's something you should earn.
it's not something that you an get in a click..
you have to fight for it..
just like i've fought for a second chance from him..

it's actually pretty hard to get..
but finally i can get it after a month of hard work..
for a month i've been trying to earn your trust and your love again..
and i finally did it..

thank you for this chance dear...
i promise not to disappoint you again..
i promise i won't let you down again..
love you dearr!!! :D

Thursday, July 22, 2010

moving on

people say moving on is not as hard as it seems..
and i believed them..
but now i started to doubt it..
it as been 3 months..
and i still can't really move on from you..
it's so hard for me not to think about you anymore..
i can't distract my mind to other people most of the time..
all i can think about is only you...

maybe i can pretend in front of my friends..
i can pretend that i'm over you already..
but actually i'm wearing this thick mask so people wouldn't know..
i'm acting this way so people won't think that i'm weak..
i want them to see me as a tough girl..
but now i can't stand it anymore..
i love you..
i still do..

my immortal - evanescence

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase


When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

true friends?

people say friends are easy to find..
i agree with them..
but how many of you really have true friends and sure about it?

to be honest, now i can't really trust some of my friends..
i feel that they are actually just friends who are not true friends...
they are all false friends...
and too bad, most of them are the people who i thought are my best friends...
they were never there when i need them..
they come and go just in a click..

how can i trust more people now when even my "best friends" leave me just in a snap?
aren't true friends should always be there when you need them?

Saturday, June 12, 2010

graduation - vitamin c

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excitedand we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1]
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
From whatever
We will still be
Friends Foreve
r

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Thursday, June 3, 2010

at last i told him the truth that i like him..
he said nothing and shows no difference..
but somehow i can feel that something is different..
he tried to comfort me and tried to make me feel alright..
but honestly i really feel awkward...

i can't act the same as i used to be..
i have known that he's in love with my own friend..
but somehow, this time it feels different..

to be honest i'm afraid that he won't tell anything to me again..
i'm afraid he'll start to keep a distance with me..
i'm afraid he'll see me as a backstabber..

it's okay for me if he just takes me as a friend..
it's okay for me if he still tell stories about her to me..
but i don't want him to keep a distance or worse...
:'(

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

selfish or hurt yourself?

be selfish or hurt yourself..
if you are in this position,what will you choose?
someone told me that being selfish is sometimes fun..
but you also have to know which one is the best..
i know we should never be selfish to our besties..
cuz true friends are hard to find..
but what if your decision will hurt you?
what if you decide to give what you want and it makes you sad?
will you give that to your friend,or will you be selfish and just take it?

Thursday, May 27, 2010


the silliest but also the best people i've ever known..
up left - down left:
dewi budiono . willy edwin nugroho . shilla budiarto (me!) . dominica levina . abigail tiffany tandry . david ali . felix manuel . pramana pangestu
LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

if you love and it hurts, love more...
if it still hurts, love even more...
cuz you have to love 'til it hurts no more...
then it's called loving.. :')
I MISS YOU!
I NEED YOU!
I WANNA GET BACK WITH YOU!!!!
i love you too much to forget about you..
why can't you feel it???

cure me please, mein schatje..

i feel these days are so dull
i feel these days are not the same as it used to be...
i feel my heart is still broken, still torn into pieces..
i know that i have to move on and fix my own heart..
but you are the only one who can cure my heart..

now you have moved on and found another girl..
you have found another special girl who can replace my spot in your heart..
but why can't i do that to you too?
why can't i move on and stop thinking about you?

maybe i fell too deeply in love with you..
so deep that i can't get out of that feeling..
and in this deep hole of love,it's too dark..
so dark that i can't see anyone but you...
you've made my heart so numb..
so numb 'til i can't feel love from others anymore..

i need you to repair my heart, my dear..
i need you to lead me to get out of this darkness..
i need you to cure me who is now numb...
i can't feel any love except it came from you..
i can't be as comfort as i was so comfortable when i was with you...
i miss you mein schatje..

can't imagine if i was in her position... :'(

A Boyfriend gave a challenge to his Girlfriend to live a day without him. No communications at all and said if she passed it, he will love her forever. The Girlfriend agreed. She did not text or call him the whole day.
Without knowing that her Boyfriend has only 24 hours to live because he's suffering from cancer.
She excitedly went to her Boyfriend's house the next day.
Tears fall as she saw her Boyfriend lying on the coffin with a note on the side. " you did it baby, can u do it everyday?
I LOVE YOU"..

repost from abbigail elizabeth's blog

Sunday, May 23, 2010

in this silent night,
i am alone
remembering those invisible memories
memories about you and me

i thought by burning those things i can burn your image inside my heart
but it seems like i was wrong..
i still remember about you and all things about us

why can't i get you out of my mind?
why can't i get rid of that story about us?
that story has ended
but my feelings towards you are endless..

Saturday, May 22, 2010

hang out.have fun.stop thinking about problems
it makes my world seems better..
even though i still think about you,
even though my world still sounds quiet
and i still feel lonely because you're not around,
but my friends can always cheer me up..
thx for always being here for me..
even though you guys can't replace him,
but you guys can cheer me up..
love you guys! :)

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Don't Love You No More - Craig David

For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this drag on so long
(i wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly games
(silly games)
Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you inner state
(inner state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl *boy* you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

the shooting star

i wish there's a shooting star tonight...
cuz shooting stars are believed can make wishes come true...
and i have this one special wish..
and this wish is just for you...

I LOVE YOU SCHATJE
and i hope i love you all my life.. :D

aku disini untuk kamu..

malam ini hening..cuma ditemenin sama tetesan air dari AC yang bocor..
aku masih aja inget2 kamu..
kamu yang pernah ada di hati,pikiran,bahkan binder aku..
kamu yang pernah ngisi hari2 aku dengan tawa,senyum,tangis,dan segala macem ekspresi dari yang normal ampe yang abnormal..
aku kangen kamu..
sama aja kayak anak kucing yang gabisa hidup tanpa induknya..
aku juga kayak gitu ke kamu...

aneh emang...
kalo anak kucing ama induknya kan jelas,
induk kucing yang ngasih makan anaknya..
nah kalo aku ke kamu?
kamu yang ngasih kebahagiaan setelah si br*ngs*k satu itu nyakitin aku..
kamu yang bisa ngebikin aku lupa sama dia..
dan sekarang aku di taro di posisi dimana aku harus ngelupain kamu...
susah banget..
sakit banget..
apalagi pas tau kamu udah sayang sama cewe lain sekarang..
rasanya ngenes nyelekit sakit banget...

kamu udah bisa move on dari aku..
kamu udah bisa nemuin cewe yang bisa ngegantiin posisi aku di hati kamu..
sedangkan aku?
aku masih nangis2 kayak anak kecil ilang di mall..
bedanya aku ilang di hati aku sendiri..
hati aku jangan2 ada labirinnya..
labirin yang berbentuk kamu..

aku gak tau sampai kapan aku bakal jadi orang tolol dan terus2an jadi kayak cewe gak laku dengan nungguin kamu terus dan nangisin kamu terus disini...
emang sakit..
tapi daripada aku harus nyakitin orang lain lagi dengan jadian ama orang itu tanpa ngerasa sayang ke dia,malah sayang sama kamu..

jadi yang harus kamu inget sekarang,
di saat kamu butuh orang buat nemenin kamu,
di saat kamu butuh orang buat nenangin kamu,
di saat kamu butuh orang buat dukung kamu,
aku bakal selalu ada disini..
even kalo kamu udah ngejar seseorang,dan kamu ga dapetin dia,
kamu harus inget kalo aku masih ada disini,
nungguin kamu..
aku sayang banget sama kamu..
dan aku ga akan ninggalin kamu.. :')

Sunday, May 16, 2010

If You're Not the One - Daniel Bedingfield

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know life so far away
But I know that its just a trip
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I'Ve build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Saturday, May 15, 2010

i'm waiting for you...

being heartbroken sucks..
all you can think about is just that man and that man only..
and when you see his eyes and you only can see a usual stare,
that proves that he's not thinking about you anymore..
it hurts so much to see that directly..
and it's what i feel right now..
he's now just who he was..
he's different now..

now he falls for someone else..
someone he knows longer...
all you can do just wait for him and say nothing..
and that's what i can do right now..
i just can wait and nothing else..

boy,i just want you to know..
i love you even more than you know..
i need you more than everything..
and i don't care how much longer i have to wait for you,
but i'll be here..
waiting for you..
not gonna move or go anywhere..
just stay in this special corner and wait til you come back...
wait until you'll love me again..
just like you used to love me..

i love you dear schatje..
and i'm not gonna leave...
i promise..

one last cry - brian mcknight

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands, standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess Im' down to my last cry

Cry......

I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on

And on.....

I'm gonna dry my eyes
Right after I had my
One last cry

Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you outta my mind for the very last time
Been living a lie
I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down...
To my last cry...


p.s even though i've stopped crying, i want you to remember that i'm still waiting for you..
even if it means i have to wait forever...
i promise...
I LOVE YOU SCHATJE

Thursday, May 13, 2010

stupidness of me..

i has been almost a month since we end this thing..
but somehow my feeling towards you hasn't ended yet..
i know i did a stupid thing by ending it..
it's stupid how a girl who still loves a boy ended it just like a click..

i can't forget how you used to brought so much happiness for me..
i can't leave all the memories we have been through..
i can't get rid of my feelings towards you..
i can't let you get off my mind even just for a second..

i was stupid by breaking up with you..
and even i was more stupid by date someone who i didn't love..
even though it feels right at that time,
but now i know that it's not..
it's actually was never right..
i should have known it..
so i would have never have this regret and had this feeling of losing someone i love..

i wish you would love me back again..
i wish you would take me back again..
i swear i'll do ANYTHING so you'll take me back again..
even if i have to stop anything i love,
if that guarantees will make you get back to me again,
i'll absolutely do it...
cuz 1 thing i know for sure,
i love you and i never want to lose you...
please i beg you to take me back...
please get back..

PITBULL'S CONCERT LIVE IN JAKARTA!!! 12-05-2010

pitbull's concert rocked!!!
i didn't even realized that the crowd was sooooooo crowded..
i was at the front with dewi wulandari budiono, nadya nathan, and their friend, jenni..
it was really cool to watch him live..
for you guys who want to see the videos and pics,
here are the links:
How Low (Ludacris Remix) : http://bit.ly/dcqgin
Krazy (THIS IS A MUST-WATCH VIDEO!) : http://bit.ly/aJgiM0
picture of THE CROWD : http://tweetphoto.com/22189185

enjoy!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

i want you back mein schatje..

i can't smile without you
i can't laugh without you
i can't enjoy my life without you
i can't even focus without you
my life suck without you

i feel so dumb that i broke up with you
i feel so stupid deciding to live my life without you
you are the one who makes me enjoy my life..
but now you're gone from my life
now i have to live my life on my own

you might be there to support me
you might be there to back me up
you might also be there to cheer me up
but at this time,before all this,
you made me cry and feel down so badly..

i know you didn't mean to
i know you never mean to make me feel like this
this is all my fault..
i know it is..
i'm so sorry but i want you back..
even when you won't take me back,
i will still love you and i wish you do too..

Monday, May 10, 2010

being single and just have fun with friends are sometimes the best ways to enjoy your life..
you don't have to think too much..
you don't have to focus on one person only..
you can flirt and play around..

i'm sorry for hurting you this way..
but i think it's better for us to stay this way..
at least for now,i can't focus on you..
and i don't want to hurt you more...

thanks for all you've done and given to me..
it all means a lot..

Saturday, May 8, 2010

i miss being called "schat" or "schatje"...
cuz i miss you mein schatje!

Big Big World - Emilia

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*V1*
I can see the first leafs falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside

*Chorus*
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*V2*
Outside it's no raining
And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end

*Chorus*
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*V3*
I have your arms around me
Warm like fire
But when I open my eyes......
Your gone

*Chorus*
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*Chorus*

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing
If u leave me
But I do
Feel I will
Miss u much
miss u much

not 100% yours...

we start this in a very short term of time..
but it all feel pretty well..
then suddenly i realize that i'm not really sure about my feeling..
i'm not sure about how i feel deep inside my heart..
i know i love you..
but i realize that the love that i feel is pretty unsure..
now i realize,
i don't know whether i love you as my lover,my brother,or just a special friend...

this might be too late for you..
this might hurt you..
i've tried my best not to hurt you..
but i think i'm failing..
i can't lie to myself..
i can't lie that i'm still in love with him..
i can't lie that he's still in my heart..
i can't lie that he's almost impossible to be replaced..
no matter how hard i tried to forget him,
no matter how hard i tried to let him go,
i can't let this feeling disappear...

sorry for letting you down,
sorry for hurting you so much,
i've tried to love you and take you as my boy..
but to be honest,
my heart is not 100% yours...

Monday, April 26, 2010

Another untitled love poem

It was quiet and silent at that night
I was doing nothing and I started to feel alone...
But then you come,
You started to text and talk with me..
And it feels just alright..

We talked and chat and laugh together
And it all feels alright
But suddenly I felt this thing
And when I realized it, it's already too late..
I feel this thing is already too deep..
Too deep to be pulled off..

It's all because I'm in love with you..
So deeply in love that I can see no one but you..
Without you I feel so lonely..
Cuz you treat me just like a princess..
And a princess won't be complete without a prince..
But I think I'm complete now..
Cuz I've found my prince..
And my prince is YOU!

Saturday, April 24, 2010

white horse - taylor swift

Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now
But it's too late for you and your white horse
It's too late for you and your white horse to catch me now..

Monday, April 19, 2010

lonesome sadness

my eyes are filled with tears..
my heart is filled by unbearable sadness..
why is this keep happening to me?
this torturing loneliness that keeps on attacking me..
why can't i live in the crowd that hold me off the lonesome life..
i thought he can help me through..
but i just realized that i was wrong..
i am still alone in this enormous,silent world..

could somebody help me,or at least accompany me here?
could somebody finally pull me out of this excruciating silence?
could somebody at last make my world go round again?
not just for a minute or two,
or just a year or a decade..
but forever and ever...

i wish somebody can at last be there for me whenever i need them..
i wish somebody can hold my hand through this dark,lucent world...
i wish i can have somebody i can count on..
it doesn't have to be someone who is perfect and inevitably faultless..
but i just want to have someone that i can count and rely on...

thank you mr. incredible.. :D

he came to me like a ghost in the dark..
at first i can't feel a thing..
maybe because i'm not that sensitive to my surroundings..
but then i feel this weird feeling..
i feel like i'm in need of him..
i feel like i can't let myself go through this cruel life without him..
but then i get it..
i get that i need him as a friend only..
not more than that..
and luckily he feel the same way too...

thanks for being a person that has filled my days...
even i felt in love with you before,
but now i found somebody that is more suitable for me and understands me more than you..
and i thank God for it..
we might be a great team,
but i know that we're not suitable to be more than friends..
i love you though..
as a friend..
thank you mr. incredible..
you'll always be in my heart.. :)

Thursday, April 15, 2010

another "RJ" poem.. :'(

you filled my days with laughter..
you helped me to go through my problems..
you helped all of us in your own ways...
but now all of them are gone together with your presence..
now you're not here anymore to cheer us up when we are sad..
you had left and won't ever come back..
we all have to get used to it..
cuz you are not here and won't be here anymore..
and when we started to get used to it..

but all in a sudden,we miss you so much..
and i am missing you too right now..
you were such a great joker..
you were such a great leader..
you were such a perfect friend..
and you are always here in our heart...

we miss you ARNEIL JOSEPH A. CARAS..

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

If a girl cries in front of u,
it means that she couldn’t take it anymore.
If u take her hand,
she would stay with u 4 the rest of ur life
If u let her go,
she couldn’t go back 2 being herself
anymore.
A girl won’t cry easily,
except in front of the person who she love the most
she becomes weak..
A girl won’t cry easily,
only when she love u the most,
she put down her ego..
Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of u,
please hold her hands firmly,
she’s the one who would stay with u 4 the rest of ur life
Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of u,
please don’t give her up,
maybe bcoz of ur decision, u ruin her life.
When she cry right in front of u,
When she cry bcoz of u,
Look into her eyes,
Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she’s feeling?
Think…
Which other girl have cried with pure,sincerity,
Infront of u,
And bcoz of u?
She cry not because she is weak,
She cry not bcoz she want sympathy or pity
She cry,
Because crying silently is no longer possible,
Guys,
Think about it,
If a girl cry her heart out 2 u,
And all because of u,
Its time 2 look back on what u have done to her,
Only u will know the answer..
Do consider it,
Coz one day,
It maybe 2 late 4 regrets,
It maybe 2 late 2 say “I’m sorry”

re-post from dominicalevina@blogspot.com

untitled love poem

i was alone and lonely..
i was down like i was trapped in a very deep, dark hole..
i feel like no one wants me and care about me..
but you suddenly came into my life and changed it all..

you came and accompany me..
you even lifted me from that dark hole..
you make me feel like a princess..
a princess with a prince that is always ready to save her from loneliness..

my life isn't dark and lonely anymore..
my life is colorful and fun now..
after i found you,everything change..
even though i still have to deal with some problems,
but it's alright..
cuz i have you that will always support me..
you can be a friend,a brother and a lover at the same time..
and i wish that'll never end..

thank you for everything babe..
you will always have this special spot in my heart..
i love you Ratama Magyar Hutagalung..

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

shilla loves ♥♥♥

- elysa adriana munster - prisca aninditya - rio bayu pratama - daniel effraim ganx - dominica levina - abigail tiffany tandry - ratama 'agai' magyar hutagalung - dicky 'toge' juniarto - ignatius roberto rama - dewi wulandari budiono - felix manuel - pramana pangestu - margaretha aurelia yulia - julia oetomo risachandra - icha ibrahim - kiki aditya - steven gozali - fransisca lauw - stephanie valentina ricci - anggie kristantio - fransisca natasha sutarna - arlene clarissa - nadia dannielle - abbigail 'bigel' elizabeth - debby cynthia - na-rae park - veronica chandrawati - sherlyn tjahyadi - bagas yoga danara - gregorius rivaldo - darren baharrizky - filbert anson - christine djoharsyah - aditya sunendra - aldie jacob - suvia tio - jane komaladi - calvin susanto - devis haspri - anni gunawan - hery khouw - ribka stefanie - vania yesica - joice samuely - joy benaya samuely - winnie lunardi - selvia djafar - benbiko gigir - raphael reyner - adela rinadi - karl nartates - chino nartates - karina mandala - elisa kuswari - brian valdez bombasi - paul adrian anatalio - bobby hartanto halim - priska pratiwi - edward wardoyo - nico tandias - richie tandias - gabriel 'bebep' rinadi - andreas kuswari - jeffri januar - david kumala arsanh - xaverius arsanh - cynthia erica - tertia erica - devita arianti - brigitta anastasia - dian mariana - michelle putri salim - amadea sekar saraswati - stefani djunaedi - clarissa mulia - zahrah adira salim - clarencia lie - rama dinara widyanta - adrian 'AH' halimi - steven philip surya - marcia winata - gisella claresta - sheryl elaine - ivana tania - teresa rikiputri - sibylle avelena loe - victor effendi halim - jordy marsono - harrison juwono - rene conrad julienne - benaya stephen - natasha djuhandi - martin ardian umbul - markus widjaya - jason calvin - rico manuel -
and all of you!! :D
dance,games,friends,college,work..
those are the routine things you always do everyday..
sometimes i wish that you are not that busy..
cuz honestly sometimes i feel like you're not noticing me at all..
sometimes i feel like you don't have time for me..
even though i know that you never mean to do that to me..

but even though sometimes i feel you're just too busy,
i know that there'll always be time for me..
that's why no matter how busy you are,
i always remember that you still think about me..
and i want you to know that i don't care what those people say,
but i will still love you..
always...

Sunday, March 14, 2010

omg...
u're like my own kind of drug...
u made me addicted to your presence...
i love you schatje!

Friday, March 12, 2010

27 things we girls want guys to know

1. yes, most of us like dressing up and looking good, putting eyeliners and lipgloss and other shits, but it's not like we do it to attract YOU. sorry we don't put too much effort to get the guys we want. it's your job. we dress up because we just love doing it, as much as dressing up our dolls when we were kids

2. i totally agree with Cassey. we underestimate guys who watch porn. its really immature. dude it's either you get someone real to sleep with instead of fantasizing, or just do nothing at all. kok susah?

3. "we just wanna be loved. we know it sounds pretty cliche but yeah thats pretty much all we want. being understood is not our first priority. if you love us that much you wont cheat, you will listen, and you'll definitely get our love and attention back." -Diane Yuri

4. "we ADORE guys who love their moms. we predict the way you treat your future wife by the way you treat your mom. no, we definitely dont want a mama's boy; we just want someone who actually loves & appreciates his mom from the bottom of his heart."-Diane Yuri

5. "we are charmed by boys who know how to cry. nope, not crybabies or over-sensitive boys. guys who actually know how to express their deepest emotions in the right time in the right way are just..hard to find. yes you all could act all superman-ish toward us sometimes, but yknow, we'd love to see the sensitive side of you. we dont consider it a weakness"

6. We don't like being pushed to do something. Anything. It doesn't have to be something that we hate. We just don't like being pushed. Period. The more you push us, the more we wouldn't do it for you.

7. "Don't ask us for sex on our first week. And don't keep asking us over and over and over again like a hornbag. It's a major turn-off" -Natasha Cinta Vinski

8. Constantly talking about ME ME ME ME ME doesn't impress us much. Well it doesn't mean we are not interested in getting to know you, it's just that we don't really fancy guys who are more interested on himself instead of interested on us. It just shows that you're more of a self-absorbed guy. Once in a while is fine, just not constantly.

9. Hey, don't expect us to ask for your number or making the first move. The only thing we do is sit, and you do the rest. That's how it works. Don't let your girl make the first move.

10. We like sweet little surprises. It doesn't always mean that we're such materialistic spoiled brat. And it doesn't have to be anything that costs a lot. We like guys who make us feel special and love. You can always hug us from the back unexpectedly, and you can try cooking for us. Even if it's turns out to taste so bad, we still think it's sweet. And it wouldn't turn us off.

11. "Being teased can be funny at times (well depends on what you're making fun of, and depends on what our mood is), but please, don't repeat it OVER and OVER and OVER again. not only it is rude, it is SO BLOODY ANNOYING." -Natasha Cinta Vinski

12. For God sake checking out of other girls do not make us feel special. We want to be the only girl you see, okay? Or at least don't talk about it in front of us, it's inappropriate. Well this only work if you're trying to attract us.

13. We think it's sweet if you remember small details about us, ( e.g: like how we always touch our hair when we're nervous, or how we always clench our fingers when we're holding our bladder, or how we always order another glass with ice cubes when eating out) it's really sweet. It shows us that you care about us.

14. We hate guys who are trying to look cool. Like showing-off his physical abilities, or how he runs 500 miles a day to keep fit, or pretend to like bands that are in trend or bands that sound cool while he doesn't really like them, or how he's trying to drop hints that he is a player for the sake of looking cool. We hate it. Just act normal for the love of God. And no dropping hints to show-off please. We notice. We're totally fine if you like mushy mellow music, or if you are not a jerk, we love it.

15. DO NOT EVER EVER EVER COMPARE US TO OTHER GIRLS. If you find it that we're just at least the same as other girls, go find a girl that is totally the opposite of us then. We want you to be interested in us because you can see something different in us than the other girls. We don't like being played, nor we like being just another girl.

16. When you get busted by us being douchebags with your friends like one of your friend talked about when he ditched his date for a video-game, do NOT give us an excuse that "It is just a guy thing". it doesn't make you less of a jerk. As you may have known, we fucking hate jerks. It doesn't make you look any cooler.

17. Acting cute and nice to get girls to all girls you know is pathetic. And we consider that as an act of desperation. No it doesn't make us feel sorry. We laugh about it with our girls. You just don't know.

18. Your money do not attract girls who are not shallow. Well it's a different story if you're trying to attract shallow, stupid, incompetent, cheap girls.

19. Not all of us girls like sex. And when we say that we're not interested, we're not denying.

20. Pointing out the good things you've done for us when we're fighting is pathetic. It shows us that you weren't genuine when you did it, and the next time you're going to do it we're not going to let you do so.

21. A little phonecall from a guy we really like can make our most terrible day wonderful :) Vice versa if we think that the guy is a creep.

22. Fashion is for women. It's not for guys. Or at least straight guys. Don't wear complicated clothes, especially if it's even more complicated than our clothes. It doesn't mean you are free to look shitty and still having us interested. Just keep it simple and decent.

23. Guys, stay away from tucking in your t-shirt to your pants, cheap shoes, turtlenecks, and cargo-pants, jogging shoes, thin-framed glasses, and overly baggy or tight jeans and tops. And wearing pink makes you look gay. Hands down.

24. Guys with good manners and great sense of humor never fail to impress us.

25. We find it kind of retarded when you are SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO obsessed with videogames as if it is your hot sexi wife.

26. "STOP TELLING YOUR GIRL TO LOOK HOT. We're supposed to be beautiful in your eyes no matter how crappy we look if you really accept us for what we are" -Su Lyn Ng

27. You don't deserve us at our best if you can't handle us at our worst times.

re-post from Dominica Levina @facebook notes

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

i love you!!!! :)

i just read a story about a guy who sacrifices his life for the girl he loves..
he asks the girl to say that she loves him,
he asks the girl to hug him for one last time,
then he asks the girl to wear his helmet cuz he knows that his motorcycle brake is broken..
and that makes me realize,
how we should say how we love someone before it's all too late..
not only saying how we love someone though,
but also do all the things we want to do for someone..
cuz we don't know when will HE "call" us and tell us that our life in this world is over..

that's why,
through this post i want to say that i love you guys so much..
my family,my friends,my (ex)boyfriend..

I LOVE YOU MOM, DAD, SIS, GRANNY, AGAI, SISCA, FANI, ANGGIE, LELE (both leles), NADYA, WINNIE, TIFFANY, TOGE, ICHA, KIKI, FELIX, PRAM, DEBBY, NA-RAE, NATASHA, BIGEL, BAGAS, MIMI, DEA, NONIE, ABENK, VERO, SHERLYN, ICHA, AND ALL OF YOU MY FRIENDS! smoochh!!!!! :*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENBIKO GIGIR!!!!!
CIEEEE YANG KEPALA DUAAA!!!!!!! :P
WISH YOU ALL THE BEST!!! :D

Monday, March 8, 2010

especially for you... :)

this is a new story about me and him..
but i don't know why it feels like it has happened for a long time..
i feel like we have travel this road of love for a long time..
i feel different this time..
i don't have to pretend to be someone else when i'm with him..
i can just be myself all the time..
so weird, but i love it..

he says he can't say "i love you" that easily..
but he says it lots of time when he's with me..
and i know that he means it..

he says he rarely loves a girl so much in such a short period of time..
but he says that he does love me so much since the day we start dating..
and i can feel it since then til now..

and now i just wanna say to you that
you are so different..
you're one in a million..
you mean a lot for me..
even though we haven't meet the problems in our relationship,
but i don't know how and why,
i feel like i'm ready for those problems..
cause i know that when those problems come, i will still have you right by my side..
i will still have you loving me..

and don't you worry..
i will also be here for you..
i will always be here when you need me..
i will be here when you're happy or sad..
i promise you that i will do anything that i can do for you...
doesn't matter whatever it costs me..
i will be here for you...

so don't you ever think about bad things about us..
don't you ever think that you don't worth me..
cause for me you are perfect..
even though i know that nobody's perfect,
but at least you're real close to perfect..
that makes me think that you are perfect for me...
so don't you ever think that you don't worth me..
cause sometimes i'm the one who can't believe that i can have you by my side..

i might not be that kind..
i might not be that pretty..
i might not be that perfect..
but i love you that much..

i love you Ratama Magyar Hutagalung..
now and i hope forever... :)

women's strengths :)

a woman has strengths that amaze men..
she can handle troubles and carry heavy burdens..
she holds happiness,love and opinions..
she smiles when she feels like screaming..
she sings when she feels like crying..
cries when she's happy and laughs when she's afraid..
her love is unconditional!
there's only one thing wrong with her,
she sometimes forgets what she is worth...

re-post from nadya nathan.

Friday, March 5, 2010

a letter from mein schatje,Agai

Really
I love you the way you are
Nobody's perfect
Let the past be the past
Let us begin a new life
And write a book, titled "our life and love"
or... "Agai and Shilla story" Hahahaha.
(ok..behave..)
Do not forget the past
But take that for our experience
I'll be a better man
And I hope you'll be a better woman for your family, me, and yourself
Especially GOD
There's nothing "impossible" for those who want to change
But you have to do some "sacrifice" if you want to change
it's hard isn't it?hehehehe.

Hmm...
Maybe it's too soon for us to begin this relationship
But I hope it'll last till death tear us apart
(serem yah..)
God Bless Our Relationship
I love you..

Monday, March 1, 2010

simple description about me and him..

new empty page the best way to describe the beginning of all this...
a sweet sentence was written as the first sentence in that page..
and it starts the story of a guy and a girl..
a simple,lovely,kind-hearted guy to be exact..
and a normal 16-year-old girl as his mate..

the pages before might be memorable for the girl,
but it doesn't mean that the new page is dull for her..
the new page is even more interesting and lovable for her..
it's filled with lots of fun,laughs,smiles,and of course love..
and all of them are caused by that simple guy..

the guy says lots of lovely things for her..
the guy does lots of great things for her..
even those are just so simple,but she loves it so much..
it's because he done that with his whole heart..
and it means a lot for her..

that page is actually about myself and Agai..
the simple,spontaneous,lovely,kind-hearted guys who made me fall..
fall so deeply in love with him to be exact..

and dear,those things are your best qualities..
and i don't want you to lose your confidence in yourself...
cuz i know that you're the best for me..
the best guy i can get.. :)

ik hou van jou.. :)

Saturday, February 27, 2010

my schatje.. :)

you understands me..
you care about me..
you are always honest to me..
and those three things are all i need..

you drop me home when you picked me up..
you hold my hand when i feel worry..
you never pretend to be someone else when you're with me..
and those three things are all i wanted for you to do..

you're such a gentleman..
you're a kind-hearted person..
you're a very easy-going person..
and the most important of all,
you love me with your whole heart and accept me the way i am..

those things has made me love you..
those things made me forget about all problems..
those things made me fall for you..
and i know you do too..

i love you my schatje..
and i hope this will stay forever,til death tear us apart... :)

Friday, February 19, 2010

Sahabat Sejati

Sahabat sejatiku, hilangkah dari ingatanmu
Di hari kita saling berbagi
Dengan kotak sejuta mimpi, aku datang menghampirimu
Kuperlihat semua hartaku 

Kita s’lalu berpendapat, kita ini yang terhebat
Kesombongan di masa muda yang indah 
Aku raja kaupun raja 
Aku hitam kaupun hitam 
Arti teman lebih dari sekedar materi   


Reff. Pegang pundakku, jangan pernah lepaskan 
Bila ku mulai lelah… lelah dan tak bersinar 
Remas sayapku, jangan pernah lepaskan 
Bila ku ingin terbang… terbang meninggalkanmu


Ku s’lalu membanggakanmu, kaupun s’lalu menyanjungku 
Aku dan kamu darah abadi 
Demi bermain bersama, kita duakan segalanya 
Merdeka kita, kita merdeka  


Tak pernah kita pikirkan ujung perjalanan ini            
Tak usah kita pikirkan akhir perjalanan ini


dedicated to My Besties... 
Love you guys... :)