true friends?

people say friends are easy to find..
i agree with them..
but how many of you really have true friends and sure about it?

to be honest, now i can't really trust some of my friends..
i feel that they are actually just friends who are not true friends...
they are all false friends...
and too bad, most of them are the people who i thought are my best friends...
they were never there when i need them..
they come and go just in a click..

how can i trust more people now when even my "best friends" leave me just in a snap?
aren't true friends should always be there when you need them?

graduation - vitamin c

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excitedand we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1]
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
From whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

at last i told him the truth that i like him..
he said nothing and shows no difference..
but somehow i can feel that something is different..
he tried to comfort me and tried to make me feel alright..
but honestly i really feel awkward...

i can't act the same as i used to be..
i have known that he's in love with my own friend..
but somehow, this time it feels different..

to be honest i'm afraid that he won't tell anything to me again..
i'm afraid he'll start to keep a distance with me..
i'm afraid he'll see me as a backstabber..

it's okay for me if he just takes me as a friend..
it's okay for me if he still tell stories about her to me..
but i don't want him to keep a distance or worse...
:'(

selfish or hurt yourself?

be selfish or hurt yourself..
if you are in this position,what will you choose?
someone told me that being selfish is sometimes fun..
but you also have to know which one is the best..
i know we should never be selfish to our besties..
cuz true friends are hard to find..
but what if your decision will hurt you?
what if you decide to give what you want and it makes you sad?
will you give that to your friend,or will you be selfish and just take it?