moving on

people say moving on is not as hard as it seems..

and i believed them..

but now i started to doubt it..

it as been 3 months..

and i still can't really move on from you..

it's so hard for me not to think about you anymore..

i can't distract my mind to other people most of the time..

all i can think about is only you...

maybe i can pretend in front of my friends..

i can pretend that i'm over you already..

but actually i'm wearing this thick mask so people wouldn't know..

i'm acting this way so people won't think that i'm weak..

i want them to see me as a tough girl..

but now i can't stand it anymore..

i love you..

i still do..

my immortal - evanescence

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me