Friday, October 29, 2010

dear RJ

dear RJ,
hey there daddy..
how are you up there?
it's almost a year since you left..
we all miss you like crazy here..
do you miss us like we missed you???

in this one year,we all thought a lot about you...
we also talked about you too.. (well,i bet you know...)
but sadly most of those conversation ended with tears though...

i know you're happy now up there..
and i know you must be happier if your friends are happy too here..
but still,i can't lie to myself that i miss you so damn much man!
it's hard for me to stop crying for you when i remembered about you...
cuz you're one of the best guy friend that i've ever had...

but however,
i wrote this just to remind you that we all still remember you..
not just now i hope..
but forever...
i hope the "gembelers" will always remember you as the best leader that had ever led us..
love you J...

Xs and Os,
shilla :')

Thursday, October 28, 2010

you

when you're around, i can't stop laughing..
i can't stop smiling..
i can't deny that i always feel happy..

you always act the way you are..
you never pretend to be anyone else when you're with me..
i can always see the real you..

i know you're not mine..
i know you don't love me the way i do..
i know you love her so much..
but it's okay dear..
cuz i believe,
someday i can be yours and you'll be mine..
forever and ever..

p.s. even if it doesn't happen, i'm still okay...
cuz when you're happy, i can feel that happiness too.. :)
iluimuinu tikus jelek! :)

Saturday, October 23, 2010

we started as friends..
we had a lot of great times since then..
but then you left without saying anything to me..

now you suddenly show up again..
fill my life with all those happiness and laughs again..
my days seemed so clear and fun again..

now i have this "feeling" towards you..
but you have that girl that you've committed to..
and i can't force you to love me too..
it's okay for me..
cuz even by being your friend, i can still feel your love towards me..
even though not as your girl, but i believe you care and love me too..

thank God that i finally can find you again..
it makes my days mean a lot to me..
even physically i'm not yours,
but trust me dear, my heart is yours..

i might take other person as my boyfriend later on..
but you will always be the guy who fills my heart with all your love...
you are my friend, my special one, my everything..

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

i know this is wrong..
showing your love to someone that is already in a relationship..
but i can't lie to myself..
my heart can't deny it..
i can't tell myself to avoid you..
cause i love you too much to do that..

too bad the timing is not right..
it's always been like that since long ago..
i don't know what HE meant by reuniting us again like this..
especially in this condition..
when you have that special girl in your heart and life..

well now all i can do is just be your bestfriend..
all i can do is just not letting you go again..
i want to learn to love 100%..
i want to learn to be happy when you're happy..
cause i believe that love doesn't mean i have to have you..

By My Side - David Choi

I'm just listening to the clock go ticking,
I am waiting as the time goes by.
I think of you with every breath I take,
I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine.
You're all I see, in everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

All the fears you feel inside,
and all the tears you cry,
they're ending right here.
I'll heal your heart and soul;
I'll keep you oh so close.
Don't worry; I'll never let you go.
You're all I need, you're everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

No one else will ever do.
I got a stubborn heart for you.
Call me crazy, but its true; I love you.
I didn't think that it would be,
you have made it clear to me.
You're all I need.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

Monday, October 11, 2010

hanging out free your mind!! :D
everything that i thought won't go off my mind,
disappear in a snap when i'm hanging out with my pals..
so if you have this problem or anything bad you have in mind,
just hang out with your friends..
try to refresh you mind...
friends,cigs,coffee,laptop.
those things definitely free my mind. :D

second chance :)

second chance..
it's something you should earn.
it's not something that you an get in a click..
you have to fight for it..
just like i've fought for a second chance from him..

it's actually pretty hard to get..
but finally i can get it after a month of hard work..
for a month i've been trying to earn your trust and your love again..
and i finally did it..

thank you for this chance dear...
i promise not to disappoint you again..
i promise i won't let you down again..
love you dearr!!! :D