tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18951075571177948302024-03-14T03:03:14.425+07:00teenyweeny townLi'l space for me write about what should be spokenLaurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.comBlogger139125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-48662325019663271042014-01-06T05:34:00.002+07:002014-01-06T05:37:02.418+07:00I used to be so desperate for a boyfriend<div>
Used to believe everything that was said by those men</div>
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But all the lies, the heartbreaks and all those cheating I've been through,</div>
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Gave me better eyes and feelings to know which are fake, which are true</div>
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My heart became numb towards them after a while</div>
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Thinking nobody and nothing could make me live my life</div>
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I shut new people out, keep my distance with even my loved ones,</div>
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Tried to make an invisible wall that was impossible to fall</div>
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I thought my wall was concrete</div>
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I thought no more hole was on it</div>
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But I don't know what you do</div>
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You somehow break it through</div>
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You found that smallest hole in my surrounding wall</div>
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And through that hole you break it all</div>
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You made me weak, touched me into my soul</div>
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Thought I'm hopeless, can't move, yet you helped me roll</div>
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You gave me new spirit to live, you give me chance to rise</div>
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When life is killing me, you heal me from the inside</div>
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You made me trust you, believe that love still exists</div>
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They might be hard to be seen, but I know yours is real.</div>
Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-3476817106104500932014-01-02T04:50:00.000+07:002014-01-06T05:37:02.417+07:00This is (not) Our GoodbyeThe light of the sky-flowers just passed,<br />
People are still clinking their glass<br />
The shouts and sounds of trumpets just dropped,<br />
The joy are freshly felt around the world.<br />
<br />
But here we let our heads bow down,<br />
staying in our our rooms, doesn't do around.<br />
Hugging ourselves, wiping our tears,<br />
while people outside saying Happy New Year.<br />
<br />
I know I promise not to stop fighting.<br />
But we can't force what we want for everything.<br />
Even though we might have to go separate ways this time,<br />
But I believe when it is right, we will unite.<br />
So no matter how hard, no matter how tough<br />
We should never give up for the sake of our love.Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-62213037887500974102013-10-06T04:21:00.002+07:002013-10-06T04:21:32.552+07:00Hey you..<br />
I'm sorry I've got to do it this way...I might seem so selfish, might seem like I'm such a coward..<br />
But don't hate me bcs I just wanted our last day being together to be nice and memorable for you..and I can't say it face-to-face bcs I know I'll retreat and stop myself from leaving..<br />
I know I will regret this decision...I know I'll fall to a very very deep hole...but it would be a thousand times better than seeing you suffer,hurt,or even just having more bad times than what you actually deserve..<br />
I'm sorry for lying in your face in the car..saying that I won't go away and we're just gonna lose the status...I know you won't agree with my decision..but please trust me when I say that THIS IS NOT bcs I don't love u...but it's bcs I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH to be an obstacle for you...your mom might be right..I AM a bad influence for you...even when I don't do it directly by doing bad stuff that u might copy, but with me, you can't focus most of the time..everytime my sickness kick in,we fight,and it'll end up with you crying and just can't focus with anything...<br />
As people say, there's always goodbyes after hellos..and I guess this is our time to say bye...it seemed like a very short encounter between us...but I honestly say that this has been the best relationship I've ever been..and I hope you enjoyed it as much as I do...but I won't blame you anyway if you wanted to hate me...cuz maybe I deserve it...<br />
Anyway,thank you for being the most perfect lover...for being an awesome guy..for being someone that completes me 100%...<br />
I might not be the right person for you, but trust me when I say I love you even more than my life..<br />
I'm sorry the last day must be filled by lies..but all the things about my feelings towards you,all my love for you,it's all true...<br />
I hope you'll have a better future without me....a future that you deserve, a future that would be filled with all the best things in life...and remember that you promised me, whatever happens, you'll never change and you'll still be the same YOU I've always known....<br />
I LOVED YOU, I LOVE YOU, AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.. *sounds cheesy,I know..but even if one day I marry someone other than you,trust me that you've owned my heart.. :')Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-65328351254999970912012-12-22T05:17:00.003+07:002012-12-22T05:17:54.064+07:0030 people<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;">Can you name 30 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 30 people. No cheating!<br /><br />1. batak<br />2. agai<br />3. SJ<br />4. SB<br />5. kaki<br />6. elysa<br />7. prisca<br />8. dani<br />9. dad<br />10. mom<br />11. stefi<br />12. keti<br />13. mokmok<br />14. felix<br />15. rico<br />16. ko DC<br />17. tiff<br />18. adhit<br />19. gope<br />20. keket<br />21. rampang<br />22. ponnie<br />23. vee<br />24. fiona<br />25. nita<br />26. amira<br />27. ka eigo<br />28. ka vicky<br />29. wiedhy<br />30. mandha<br /><br />THE QUESTIONS:<br />• How did you meet 10?<br />- ARLENE took me to his class. :D<br /><br />• What would you do if you had never met 6?<br />- i won't ever come to any class during semester 1 and 2<br /><br />• What would you do if 5 and 15 dated?<br />- OMAGAH! SERIOUSLY?! JINJJA?!<br /><br />• If you could marry between 6 and 14 who will it be?<br />- errr..... none?<br /><br />• Did you ever like 26?<br />- yes~! :P<br /><br />• Have you ever seen 4 cry?<br />- nope. hahahaha.<br /><br />• Would 4 and 27 make a good couple?<br />- OF COURSE NOT!<br /><br />• Would number 22 and 2 make a good couple?<br />- err... no? :P<br /><br />• Describe 8:<br />- awesome guitarist, funny, an awesome friend, DAEBAK~!<br /><br />• Do you like 12?<br />- as my sister? HELL YEAH!<br /><br />• Tell me something about 17:<br />- she has a super straight and grumpy look.<br /><br />• What's 7's favorite color?<br />- err... not sure..<br /><br />• What would you do if 1 just confessed they liked you?<br />- I'll laugh so hard and 100% sure that he's joking.<br /><br />• When was the last time you talked to number 15?<br />- last week-ish?<br /><br />• How do you think 19 feels about you?<br />- I'm a great friend. B) right, gop?<br /><br />• What languages does 13 speak?<br />- aigoo... korean, english, indo?<br /><br />• Who is 2 going out with?:<br />- ME! *MODUS!<br /><br />• What grade is 16 in?<br />- he graduated recently! YEAY!<br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;">•</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;"> What is 2's favorite songs now?</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;">- i'm not sure... >_<<br /><br />• Would you ever date 3?<br />- haha. what a coincidence... *i mean the question. :')<br /><br />• Is 11 single?<br />- yes?<br /><br />• What is 10s last name?<br />- Laluw :)<br /><br />• Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 18?<br />- no.<br /><br />• Where does 23 live?<br />- errr......<br /><br />• What do you think about 20?<br />- awesome friend. awesome mom. awesome!<br /><br />• What is the best thing about 4?<br />- he's super duper funny<br /><br />• Is 21 hard-working?<br />- yes?<br /><br />• What would you like to tell 14 right now?<br />- i cried again lix... :(<br /><br />• How did you meet 9?<br />- again, ARLENE took me to his class.<br /><br />• What is the best and worst thing about 2?<br />- best : such a great person who always supports you to do good things and prevent you to do bad things.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 16px;">- worst : too much work that makes him ignorant of his own health. >:(<br /><br />• Are you going to know 3 forever?<br />- probably. but i don't think so...<br /><br />• How long have you known 26?<br />- errr.... 4 months?<br /><br />• Who is 24?<br />- my "jerapo-bebeb" :p<br /><br />• Are you or did you ever date 28?<br />- nope.<br /><br />• Do you have a crush on 27?<br />- HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!<br /><br />• Would you kiss 25?<br />- aniyoooo!!!!!!<br /><br />• Have you hugged/kissed 22?<br />- yes ;;)<br /><br />• Is 29 your bff?<br />- just a good friend of mine :)<br /><br />• What do you hate about 23?<br />- i haven't found any. :D<br /><br />• What's your relationship with 30?<br />- a good friend :)</span><br />
Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-70353372127286724452012-12-22T04:52:00.004+07:002014-01-06T05:43:07.227+07:00a new lesson about love. FOR ME.love.<br />
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what is love?</div>
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love sometimes doesn't come from the outside.</div>
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sometimes love doesn't always mean relationships between a girl and a guy.</div>
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sometimes even love doesn't come from your parents.</div>
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but there are things that are certain about love.</div>
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<br /></div>
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love gives happiness.</div>
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love gives you supports.</div>
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love gives you passion.</div>
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love gives your dark world a light that shines like the sun never stop shining the world.</div>
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<br /></div>
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and if you think deeper,</div>
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you need people around you to give you love.</div>
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but that's not the only source where you can get love.</div>
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the main source you can get love is always there for you ALL THE TIME.</div>
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the main source you can get love is actually REALLY REALLY CLOSE with you.</div>
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because the main source of love for you is YOURSELF!</div>
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<br /></div>
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when you love yourself deeply,</div>
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when you love yourself purely,</div>
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when you love yourself a 100%,</div>
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then other people will definitely love you eventually.</div>
Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-22693936828706894692012-11-08T08:55:00.003+07:002014-01-06T05:43:07.217+07:00inspired by TAEYANG a.k.a SOL a.k.a YB oppa :3<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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“Include me in her PRAYER every night”</div>
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“a girl who would LOOK ONLY AT ME and no one else”</div>
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A million girls would do those wishes just for you</div>
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<br /></div>
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I know this is such a huge and impossible dream,</div>
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To wish that you could know who I am</div>
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To wish that you would even notice who I am.</div>
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To wish that one day you’ll say “this is MY GIRL”</div>
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<br /></div>
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I might not know WHERE U AT right now</div>
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Or what are you doing now.</div>
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Even when you don’t even know who I am</div>
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<br /></div>
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This simple poem I made is just another way</div>
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A simple way for you just to notice me</div>
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Cuz I never imagine that I would be your bride</div>
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And wear that WEDDING DRESS we picked together</div>
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For me, just knowing that you notice me, know who I am,</div>
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That would make my world seems brighter and better.</div>
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People say love at first sight doesn’t exist</div>
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I didn’t know what does it means</div>
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I didn’t realize that you’re the one who made my day</div>
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I wasn’t planning to fall for you</div>
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You fill my heart and mind since then</div>
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You stay in my dreams every time I sleep</div>
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You make my days even when I just see you from a distance</div>
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I have fallen deeply in love with you</div>
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Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-15963911583665071592012-07-20T03:51:00.001+07:002012-07-20T03:52:19.334+07:00you were one of the most important person in my life<br />
and i was also one of them in yours too<br />
but i decided to leave and forget<br />
leave from your life and forget about us<br />
<br />
2 years later,<br />
i thought i forgot and moved on from you<br />
then you showed up out of the air<br />
and i realized, i never truly forget<br />
and worst, i always keep inside my heart that i regret..<br />
regret everything i said, everything i did to you..<br />
<br />
now you're single but not available you say<br />
and you say since then you take me as a sister<br />
but please i wanna say the truth about my feelings<br />
that i truly miss and love you since then<br />
and it hasn't changed until this very second..<br />
<br />
will you ever give me a second chance?<br />
will you trust that i'm capable and much more mature now?<br />
will you love me back as you did back then?Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-3098372579010676432012-06-07T01:25:00.000+07:002012-06-07T01:25:15.159+07:00you came at the most unexpected time<div>
and your entrance was so surprising </div>
<div>
that even yourself didn't see it coming</div>
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and you made me feel that everything is so right</div>
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<br /></div>
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you impressed me</div>
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you impressed my family</div>
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but after all the fineness you showed,</div>
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you made me fall from such height</div>
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that fall doesn't killed me</div>
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but it makes me injured so bad</div>
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<br /></div>
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maybe physically i look so fine</div>
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i look like nothing really happened</div>
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i smile, i laughed, i fool around like i usually am</div>
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but deep inside in my heart i'm dying</div>
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i cry, i scream, i'm so badly torn</div>
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<br /></div>
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my brain told me to stop</div>
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told me to let you go</div>
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told me to find someone who really sees how worthy i am</div>
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but my heart can't lie</div>
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it has fallen into you</div>
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fallen too deeply that it can't find it's way back to the surface</div>Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-32991852575769357822012-03-25T00:19:00.005+07:002012-03-25T00:28:01.325+07:00easy to fall for a person.<div>yeap. that's me.</div><div>and i kinda hate that part of me.</div><div>it makes me fall for you,</div><div>even though i don't know you that well.</div><div>there are actually lots of difference that i should have thought before.</div><div>you're a lot older than me.</div><div>and the worst,</div><div>you've found your "soulmate" and marry her.</div><div>even though i don't really know your relationship with her now.</div><div>but to be honest, i'm afraid.</div><div>afraid of falling in love with you.</div><div>afraid you've been lying to me about her.</div><div>afraid all that i thought about you are wrong.</div><div>and if i was wrong,</div><div>it means i'm repeating my own mistake.</div><div>and i don't want that.</div><div><br /></div><div>on the other side,</div><div>i can't lie that i've fallen for you.</div><div>i can't lie that i feel very comfortable with you.</div><div>and i can't lie that i actually don't want to lose you.</div><div>at least for now.</div>Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-90037532102423603952012-01-12T13:42:00.003+07:002012-01-12T13:56:44.883+07:00the busy big road and the simple small alleyhere in this city lots of roads i can find<div>there are big boulevards that are neatly made</div><div>but other than that there are alleys too</div><div>alleys that are small and messy</div><div><br /></div><div>the big roads might seemed secure and safe</div><div>but those roads are usually too crowded and it makes it stuck</div><div>while the alleys are small and unexpectedly smooth</div><div>because not many people know where it goes and are familiar with it</div><div><br /></div><div>just like you are</div><div>you might be messy, unorganized and seemed like nothing</div><div>but for people that already knew you,</div><div>you have your own special value</div><div>and now i realized that i've found it</div><div>and it makes you be that dead end alley that i can't turn back from</div>Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-26618570347437263532011-11-30T01:38:00.003+07:002011-11-30T01:58:00.902+07:00always does, always willmy mind might says no...<div>but my heart always says yes..</div><div>my friends might forbid me to love you..</div><div>but i won't even bother to listen to any of their sayings..</div><div><br /></div><div>the whole world might scold me</div><div>all people i know might leave me alone</div><div>but it doesn't matter for me</div><div>and you might be wondering and ask me why</div><div>so let me answer your question..</div><div><br /></div><div>that's because i want no one but you</div><div>i need no one but you</div><div>having you in my life is all i ever wanted</div><div>i love you more than i've ever loved anyone else..</div><div>and i want you to stay for my whole life..</div><div>cuz you are my love..</div><div>always does, always will..</div><div><br /></div><div>people ask when will i stop loving</div><div>i answer them without thinking</div><div>i will stop when the sun stops shining..</div><div>i will stop when the earth stop spinning..</div>Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-25213074220876021222011-11-28T00:11:00.002+07:002011-11-28T00:21:05.824+07:00dilemmatic letter for you..a part of my heart says i should always be with you..<div>another part of me says i should stay away and listen to my friends..</div><div>you said i should listen to my heart and stop listening to the others..</div><div>you said i should follow my heart cuz it never lies..</div><div>but how can i follow it if i can't even hear it..</div><div>how can i decide when my heart is having a dilemma too..</div><div><br /></div><div>i don't want to leave you..</div><div>but i can't stand this anymore..</div><div>i want to stand by you through this..</div><div>but i don't know when will my logics start to work..</div><div>and i know if it works,and you're not healed yet,</div><div>it means i won't be there for you anymore..</div><div>i'm sorry i can't fulfill my promises to you,</div><div>to always be with you in your hardest time..</div><div>i know i'm not a good girlfriend if i do that..</div><div>i'm mean and i don't deserve you..</div><div>but i can't handle this anymore..</div>Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-32753400279312760802011-11-02T13:08:00.003+07:002011-11-02T15:00:07.124+07:00dear RJ..hey J..<div>how are you up there??</div><div>it's been 2 years now since we last met you here...</div><div>we all really miss you..</div><div>and personally, i still can't erase the memories i've had with you...</div><div>the fun things we've done together,</div><div>the ways you've done to cheer me up everytime i have problems,</div><div>and all the stuffs you've done for me...</div><div>even though i'm fine now, but still, i miss the jokes you've made and all the silly stuffs you've done...</div><div>well, i know that we weren't supposed to be sad right now cuz you're happy now..</div><div>but i bet you know how it feels to miss someone, especially when you know you won't see them anymore...</div><div>anyways, i believe that you're now watching us from up there..guarding each and every one of your best friends from the heaven..</div><div>we love you J...</div>Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-67881215179614347502011-10-25T15:16:00.003+07:002011-10-25T15:29:13.191+07:00this version of Wedding Dress (which was originally sang by Tae Yang) really sounds like the voice of my heart...it's saying the words that i want to say...<div>even though he's not married yet, but this is how i would feel when he gets married one day...</div><div>i really wish that i could get my second chance...</div><div>well anyways, here's a video from a youtube account called babyjennuine..hope she doesn't mind that i copied her video url and pasted it here..enjoy.. :)</div><div><br /></div><div>url : <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zh6fNiJS4xc&feature=related">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zh6fNiJS4xc&feature=related</a></div><div><br /></div><div>Lyrics: </div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" line-height: 18px; font-family:arial, sans-serif;font-size:13px;">Should of never let you go<br />Should of told you how I felt<br />should of never let my pride get in our way<br />Should of kept you by my side<br />when I, I had the chance<br />But I let you slip away<br />My worst mistake was on that day<br />And it's been five years<br />since the day we grew apart<br />Though we have someone new<br />my heart just won't let go of you<br />And now it's too late<br />cause I'm tryna turn the pages back<br />when you're just skipping ahead of our story<br /><br />baby do you still have a place in your heart for me<br />cause i've been thinking lately<br />that you're the one that makes my heart complete<br />and i don't wanna see you down the aisle with nobody else but me<br />Even though she's walking through that door<br />with my dreams and taking my place<br />with that wedding dress (dress dress)<br />in my wedding dress (dress dress)<br />with that wedding dress (dress dress)<br />in my wedding dress (dress dress)<br />in my wedding dress..<br /><br />Baby just stop for a moment<br />Baby look into my eyes<br />Can't you see the lies behind this smile of mine<br />though I said congratulations<br />I I'm happy for you<br />Can't you see this love was only made just for you and I<br />Everytime that I try<br />something keeps pulling me back<br />From telling you the truth<br />That I never moved on from you<br />And now it's too late<br />Cause I'm still stuck here in our past<br />while you're moving ahead with your story<br /><br />here comes the bride<br />all dressed in white<br />and it's a damn shame the bride isn't me<br /><br />Happily ever after<br />that's how all fairytale ends with<br />So why am I with the crowd<br />Watching you devote your life<br />but not with me</span></div>Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-75294976898521592382011-10-25T14:55:00.000+07:002011-10-25T14:57:08.391+07:00Wedding Dress - Tae Yang<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; "><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">니가 그와 다투고<br />niga geuwa datugo<br />때론 그 땜에 울고<br />ttaeron geu ttaeme ulgo<br />힘들어 할 때면 난 희망을 느끼고<br />himdeureo hal ttaemyeon nan huimangeul neukkigo<br />아무도 모르게 맘 아-아-아프고<br />amudo moreuge mam a-a-apeugo<br />니작은 미소면 또 담담해지고<br />nijageun misomyeon tto damdamhaejigo</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">니가 혹시나 내 마음을 알게 될까봐<br />niga hoksina nae maeumeul alge doelkkabwa<br />알아버리면 우리 멀어지게 될까봐<br />arabeorimyeon uri meoreojige doelkkabwa<br />난 숨을 죽여<br />nan sumeul jug yeo<br />또 입술을 깨물어<br />tto ipsureul kkaemureo<br />제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길<br />jebal geureul tteona naege ogil</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">Baby 제발 그의 손을 잡지마<br />Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima<br />Cuz you should be my Lady<br />오랜 시간 기다려온 날 돌아봐줘<br />oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">노래가 울리면 이제 너는<br />noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun<br />그와 평생을 함께하죠<br />geuwa pyeongsaengeul hamkkehajyo<br />오늘이 오지 않기를<br />oneuri oji ankireul<br />그렇게 나 매일 밤 기도했는데<br />geureoke na maeil bam gidohaenneunde</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">네가 입은 웨딩드레스<br />nega ibeun wedingdeureseu<br />네가 입은 웨딩드레스<br />nega ibeun wedingdeureseu<br />네가 입은 웨딩드레스<br />nega ibeun wedingdeureseu</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">내 맘을 몰라줬던<br />nae mameul mollajwotdeon<br />네가 너무 미워서<br />nega neomu miwoseo<br />가끔은 네가 불행하길 난 바랬어<br />gakkeumeun nega bulhaenghagil nan baraesseo<br />이미 내 눈물은 다 마 마 마르고<br />imi nae nunmureun da ma ma mareugo<br />버릇처럼 혼자 너에게 말하고<br />beoreutcheoreom honja neoege malhago</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">매일 밤 그렇게 불안했던걸 보면 난<br />maeil bam geureoke buranhaetdeongeol bomyeon nan<br />이렇게 될꺼란 건 알았는지도 몰라<br />ireoke doelkkeoran geon aranneunjido molla<br />난 눈을 감아<br />nan nuneul gama<br />끝이 없는 꿈을 꿔<br />kkeuchi eomneun kkumeul kkwo<br />제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길<br />jebal geureul tteona naege ogil</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">Baby 제발 그의 손을 잡지마<br />Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima<br />Cuz you should be my Lady<br />오랜 시간 기다려온 날 돌아봐줘<br />oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">노래가 울리면 이제 너는<br />noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun<br />그와 평생을 함께하죠<br />geuwa pyeongsaengeul hamkkehajyo<br />오늘이 오지 않기를<br />oneuri oji ankireul<br />그렇게 나 매일 밤 기도했는데<br />geureoke na maeil bam gidohaenneunde</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">네가 입은 웨딩드레스<br />nega ibeun wedingdeureseu<br />네가 입은 웨딩드레스<br />nega ibeun wedingdeureseu<br />네가 입은 웨딩드레스<br />nega ibeun wedingdeureseu</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">부디 그와 행복해<br />budi geuwa haengbokhae<br />너를 잊을 수 있게<br />neoreul ijeul su itge<br />내 초라했던 모습들은 다 잊어줘<br />nae chorahaetdeon moseupdeureun da ijeojwo<br />비록 한동안은<br />birok handonganeun no oh<br />나 죽을 만큼 힘이 들겠지만<br />na jugeul mankeum himi deulgetjiman no oh</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">너무 오랜 시간을 착각 속에<br />neomu oraen siganeul chakgak soge<br />홀로 바보처럼 살았죠<br />hollo babocheoreom saratjyo<br />아직도 내 그녀는 날 보고<br />ajikdo nae geunyeoneun nal bogo<br />새 하얗게 웃고 있는데<br />sae hayake utgo inneunde</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">네가 입은 웨딩드레스<br />nega ibeun wedingdeureseu<br />네가 입은 웨딩드레스<br />nega ibeun wedingdeureseu<br />네가 입은 웨딩드레스<br />nega ibeun wedingdeureseu</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; "><br /></p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; "></p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; "><strong>TRANSLATIONS</strong></p><div id="post-14908520">I would argue<br />Then you would cry<br />As you’re struggling, I would only get stronger<br />My heartaches behind these shadows<br />My face brightens up as I see your smile<br />I worry that you might notice my feelings<br />And I get scared that the gap between us would widen<br />I hold my breath<br />Then I bite my lips<br />Then I pray that she would leave his side.<p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; "></p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">Baby, please don’t hold those hands<br />Cuz you should be my lady<br />Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.<br /><span id="more-20039"></span></p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever<br />I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come<br />The wedding dress you once wore<br />The wedding dress you once wore<br />The wedding dress you once wore</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">You, who never understood my feelings<br />Because of that, I ended up despising you<br />Then I wished a misfortune upon you<br />But now, my eyes are dry<br />I try to talk to you but I realized that I’m alone<br />Every night, I would look back and think<br />If I already knew the results<br />Then I close my eyes<br />Then I dream an endless dream<br />Then I pray she would leave his side.</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">Baby, please don’t hold those hands<br />Cuz you should be my lady<br />Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever<br />I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come<br />The wedding dress you once wore<br />The wedding dress you once wore<br />The wedding dress you once wore</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">By all means, be happy with him<br />So I can move on<br />Please erase me out of your heart<br />Although I tried my best but, no oh~</p><p style="margin-top: 1em; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 0px; ">I’ve been living the lies for too long<br />Yet, she would look at me and smile.</p></div><p></p></span>Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-24963005994545700562011-10-18T14:15:00.000+07:002011-10-18T14:16:52.746+07:00Who You Are - Jessie JI stare at my reflection in the mirror:<br />"Why am I doing this to myself?"<br />Losing my mind on a tiny error,<br />I nearly left the real me on the shelf.<br />No, no, no, no, no...<br /><br />Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!<br />Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,<br />It's okay not to be okay.<br />Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.<br />Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,<br />Just be true to who you are!<br />(who you are <i>[x11]</i>)<br /><br />Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?<br />I forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeah!<br />The more I try the less it's working, yeah<br />'Cause everything inside me screams<br />No, no, no, no, no...<br /><br />Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!<br />Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,<br />It's okay not to be okay.<br />Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.<br />But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,<br />There's nothing wrong with who you are!<br /><br />Yes, no's, egos, fake shows, like WHOA!<br />Just go, and leave me alone!<br />Real talk, real life, good love, goodnight,<br />With a smile, that's my home!<br />That's my home, no...<br /><br />No, no, no, no, no...<br />Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!<br />Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,<br />It's okay not to be okay...<br />Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.<br />Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,<br />Just be true to who you are!<br />Yeah yeah yeahLaurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-74879536564255657802011-10-06T00:39:00.003+07:002011-10-06T00:50:55.976+07:00at the beginning, no one would ever guess that he could change my heart.<div>and so do i.</div><div>we knew each other for a very long time, but never thought of being a couple.</div><div>at the beginning, i was so afraid of falling in love, flying so high, and being dropped from such a height.</div><div>but in 2 short weeks he changed it all.</div><div>he melted my cold heart and fill it with the warmth from his love.</div><div>he succeeded to make me love someone truly again.</div><div>maybe this will sound so cheesy and stuff,</div><div>but now i feel that my heart is healed.</div><div>my heart is fully recovered and my other part of wings is found.</div><div>and now, i reached the part where i'm afraid to lose him.</div><div>the part where people start to say that i'm stupid and i still do it for him.</div><div><br /></div><div>and if you read this, babe i just want you to know that i really do love you..</div><div>i might not show it directly, but you are my life now.</div><div>you are the air that i breathe, the sun of my world, and the last person who i want to love.</div>Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-79449214934584377092011-09-30T18:43:00.003+07:002011-09-30T18:48:23.735+07:00you came into my life<div>out of nowhere you just showed up</div><div>you were a friend to me,</div><div>but now you're a lot more than that.</div><div><br /></div><div>you might not be perfect for the world,</div><div>but you are perfect to me..</div><div>well i hope it's not for these times only..</div><div>cuz i'm glad i found you..</div><div>you are my love now..</div><div>and i hope it'll last forever..</div><div>cuz true love doesn't have happy endings,</div><div>it simply never ends...</div>Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-59460115832451817722011-09-16T10:32:00.001+07:002011-09-16T10:34:33.334+07:00One Man (Han Namja)- Kim Jong Kook + translation<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; color: rgb(102, 101, 97); line-height: 20px; ">참 오래됐나봐 이 말조차 무색할 만큼<br />니 눈빛만 봐도 널 훤히 다 아는<br />니 친구처럼 너의 그림자 처럼<br /><br />늘 함께 했나봐 니가 힘들때나 슬플때<br />외로워 할때도 더 이별 안고서<br />아파할때도 니 눈물 닦아줄<br /><br />한남자가 있어 널 너무 사랑한<br />한남자가 있어 사랑해 말도 못하는<br />니 곁에 손 내밀며 꼭 닿을거리에<br />자신보다 아끼는 널 같이 내가 있어<br /><br />너를 웃게 하는 일 마치 그것만 생각하고<br />언제어디서나 너를 바라보고 널 그리워 하고 니 걱정만 하는<br /><br />한남자가 있어 널 너무 사랑한<br />한남자가 있어 사랑해 말도 못하는<br />니 곁에 손 내밀며 꼭 다을거리에<br />자신보다 아끼는 널 같이 내가 있어<br /><br />천번쯤 삼키고 또 만번쯤 추스려 보지만<br />말하고 싶어 미칠것 같은데 널 와락 난 안고 싶은데<br /><br />한여자가있어 이런날 모르는<br />사랑받으면서 사랑인줄 도 모르는<br />나만큼 꼭 바보같은 슬픈 널 두고<br />이순간도 눈물이 나지만 행복한걸<br />니가 곁에 있기 때문이야</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; color: rgb(102, 101, 97); line-height: 20px; "><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; color: rgb(102, 101, 97); line-height: 20px; "><h2 style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; color: rgb(68, 68, 68); ">Translation</h2><br />It must've been a long time. Long enough for these words to become colorless.<br />Even if I just see your eyes, I know everything,<br />Like your friend, like your shadow.<br /><br />We must've been together always. When you're having hard time and you are sad,<br />even when you're lonley. Holding onto seperation a bit longer,<br />Even when I'm hurting to wipe away your tears..<br /><br />There's a man. Who loves you so much.<br />There's a man. Who can't even say I love you.<br />By your side I put my hand out and<br />at a path were you can always reach me<br />I, who cherishes you more than myself, am with you.<br /><br />To make you laugh, I think of only that and<br />When and where ever you are I'm watching you and missing you.<br />And who worries of only you,<br /><br />There's a man. Who loves you so much.<br />There's a man. Who can't even say I love you.<br />By your side I put my hand out and<br />at a path were you can always reach me<br />I, who cherishes you more than myeslf, am with you.<br /><br />For the thousandth time I swallow and again for ten thousandth time I try to set</span></div>Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-8927390818948735372011-08-31T01:31:00.000+07:002011-08-31T01:32:52.018+07:00Don't Be Good To Me - Kim Jong Kook + translation<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; color: rgb(102, 101, 97); line-height: 20px; ">자꾸 잘해 주지 마요 더는 잘해 주지 마요
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<br />차라리 차가운 게 오히려 나을 텐데
<br />아님 무관심 한 게 오히려 나을 텐데
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<br />옷자락 끝에 묻은 먼지를 떼주는 일
<br />무심코 웃으면서 어깨에 기대는 일
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<br />그냥 버릇 일 꺼야 지워보고 바쁘게 하룰 보내봐도
<br />눈에 찍힌 사진처럼 또 생각나고 생각나
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<br />*. 자꾸 잘해 주지 마요 더는 잘해 주지 마요 또 다시
<br />사랑 앞에 무릎 꿇고 아파할 자신 없네요
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<br />혹시 다른 맘이라면 나완 다른 맘이라면 누군가
<br />물어보면 소개해요 그냥 아는 사람 이라고 담담하게
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<br />며칠 전 내게 했던 늦은 밤 그 전화는
<br />못 받은 게 아니라 받을 수 없었어요
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<br />혹시 술에 취해서 생각 없이 외로운 맘에 보고 싶다
<br />말할까 봐 아침이면 다 아닌 일이 될까 봐
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<br />*.Repeat
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<br />사랑 그 하나만으로 세상 모든 걸 가졌던 그때로
<br />그리워도 돌아가는 길을 찾을 수 없어서
<br />혹시 같은 맘 일까 봐 나와 같은 맘 일 까봐
<br />또 다시 기대하고 또 기다리죠 사랑 앞에서 나 오늘도 바보처럼
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<br />그대 앞에 또 서성이죠 바보처럼</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; color: rgb(102, 101, 97); line-height: 20px; ">
<br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; color: rgb(102, 101, 97); line-height: 20px; ">TRANSLATION:</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; color: rgb(102, 101, 97); line-height: 20px; ">Stop being good to me
<br />Don't be good to me anymore
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<br />It might be better to be cold to me
<br />Or ignoring me might be better for me
<br />Brushing off the dust on my collar
<br />Carelessly laughing and leaning on my shoulder
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<br />I let it go, telling myself that its just a habit and busy my day
<br />But I think about ti again and again as if I took a picture
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<br />Stop being good to me
<br />Don't be good to me anymore
<br />I don't have the confidence to kneel my knees and be hurt by love
<br />If you have other thoughts than me, if you have different thoughts than me.
<br />If somebody asks you who I am, nonchantly introduce me as just someone you know
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<br />The phone call a couple of days ago at night, that call...
<br />it's not that I didn't wat to answer, but I couldnt
<br />Just in case I tell you I miss you when I'm drunk
<br />because in the morning, I'll regret it
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<br />Stop being good to me
<br />Don't be good to me anymore
<br />I don't have the confidence to kneel my knees and be hurt by love
<br />Although I had the whole world because of love
<br />Although i miss it, I'm unable to find the way
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<br />Just in case you have the same thoughts as me,
<br />if you happen to have the same thoughts of me
<br />I wait again and again.
<br />I am a fool infront of love again.
<br />I cling to you again, like a fool.
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<br />Stop being good to me
<br />Don't be good to me anymore</span></div>Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-46317198666177073652011-08-31T00:58:00.003+07:002011-08-31T01:24:48.229+07:00LOVE YOU GUYS! A LOT!<div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-Twpcwhgg8Bc/Tl0py62nSDI/AAAAAAAAAD8/mWc3IvYdk7U/s1600/IMG_1679.JPG" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"></a><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-WlMgik7vzNM/Tl0lLCyaB7I/AAAAAAAAAD0/3gW6v4lGpCk/s1600/Photo%2Bon%2B2011-04-19%2Bat%2B23.10.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-WlMgik7vzNM/Tl0lLCyaB7I/AAAAAAAAAD0/3gW6v4lGpCk/s320/Photo%2Bon%2B2011-04-19%2Bat%2B23.10.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5646710379449550770" /></a><div style="text-align: center;">OH HOW I MISS YOU TWO <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF0000;">A LOT</span>!</div><div style="text-align: center;">i miss the times we spent in the class, when we hang out, when we're sad, or even when everything is just ALIZWEL!!!</div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 238); -webkit-text-decorations-in-effect: underline; "><img src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-Twpcwhgg8Bc/Tl0py62nSDI/AAAAAAAAAD8/mWc3IvYdk7U/s320/IMG_1679.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5646715462560991282" style="display: block; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: auto; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: auto; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 214px; " /></span><div style="text-align: center;">and you guys,</div><div style="text-align: center;">even though i meet you almost everyday,</div><div style="text-align: center;">but i'm never bored of you guys...</div><div style="text-align: center;">you always make me laugh and forget about all my problems when i'm with you guys..</div><div style="text-align: center;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">dear my "mom", "dad", Keti, Stefi, Prisca and Elysa,</div><div style="text-align: center;">i wish nothing will ever set us apart...</div><div style="text-align: center;">you guys are the best people who i know will always support me and stop me when i'm gonna do something wrong... *hugs!</div>Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-52859410774882799792011-08-31T00:48:00.002+07:002011-08-31T00:58:01.574+07:00<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-QXTvS9Hf39Y/Tl0j008Fz7I/AAAAAAAAADs/N9WNfAU9fqQ/s1600/IMG-20110830-00102.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 238px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-QXTvS9Hf39Y/Tl0j008Fz7I/AAAAAAAAADs/N9WNfAU9fqQ/s320/IMG-20110830-00102.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5646708898263322546" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#33CC00;">AUG, 30 2011</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF6666;">my besties made my day!</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF6666;">Love You Bawangs :*</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF6666;"></span>Anggie "Daddy" Kristantio, <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#3366FF;">Aldie "Mommy" Jacob, </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#6600CC;">Danissa "Keti" Paramita, </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CC0000;">Stefanus "Stefi"</span></div>Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-86865925101152744742011-08-31T00:25:00.002+07:002011-08-31T00:35:32.563+07:00another letter for you..<div>dear schatje,</div><div>
<br /></div><div>lately,</div>i think about you A LOT..<div>just like i used to..</div><div>but i guess you're not feeling the same way anymore..</div><div>
<br /></div><div>maybe you've moved on to someone else..</div><div>maybe your heart isn't feeling the same way as i am anymore..</div><div>and i definitely know that is not our fault..</div><div>i was the one who made that stupid mistake</div><div>and i was the one who hurt you so badly..</div><div>but i want you to know that i am truly sorry about it..</div><div>and now, i'll show you that i mean it..</div><div>i won't stop loving you even if someday i date someone else..</div><div>cuz even though you are not perfect for the world,</div><div>but you are the perfect one for me..</div>Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1895107557117794830.post-62120649634267260762011-08-28T02:05:00.000+07:002011-08-28T02:06:38.546+07:00Just A Dream - Nelly<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; border-collapse: collapse; "><p style="font-family: verdana; ">I was thinkin about her
<br />thinkin about me
<br />thinkin about us
<br />where we gunna be
<br />open my eyes...
<br />it was only just a dream
<br />
<br />so i travel back down that road
<br />wish you'd come back
<br />no one knows
<br />i realize, it was only just a dream
<br />
<br />i was at the top
<br />now its like i'm in the basement
<br />number 1 spot
<br />now shes finding a replacement
<br />i swear now i cant take it
<br />knowing somebodys got my baby
<br />
<br />now you aint around, baby i cant think
<br />i should put it down, shoulda got that ring
<br />cuz i can still feel it in the air
<br />see your pretty face
<br />run my fingers through her hair
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<br />my love
<br />my life
<br />my shorty
<br />my wife
<br />she left me, i'm tight
<br />cuz i knew that it just aint right
<br />
<br />i was thinkin about her
<br />thinkin about me
<br />thinkin about us
<br />where we gunna be
<br />open my eyes...
<br />it was only just a dream
<br />
<br />so i travel back down that road
<br />wish you'd come back
<br />no one knows
<br />i realize, it was only just a dream
<br />
<br />and i be ridin
<br />and i swear i see your face at every turn
<br />i try to get my usher on but i cant let it burn
<br />and i just hope that she notice she the only one i yearn for
<br />no more sooner will i learn
<br />
<br />didn't give her all my love
<br />i guess now i got my payback
<br />now i'm in the club thinking all about my baby
<br />hey
<br />she was so easy to love
<br />but wait, i guess that love wasnt enough
<br />i'm goin through it every time that i'm alone
<br />now i'm wishing she would just pick up the phone
<br />but she made a decision that she wanted to move on
<br />cuz i was wrong
<br />
<br />i was thinkin about her
<br />thinkin about me
<br />thinkin about us
<br />where we gunna be
<br />open my eyes...
<br />it was only just a dream
<br />
<br />so i travel back down that road
<br />wish you'd come back
<br />no one knows
<br />i realize, it was only just a dream
<br />
<br />if you ever loved somebody put your hands up x2
<br />and now theyre gone and you wish you could give them everything (x2)
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<br />i was thinkin about her
<br />thinkin about me
<br />thinkin about us
<br />where we gunna be
<br />open my eyes...
<br />it was only just a dream
<br />
<br />so i travel back down that road
<br />wish you come back
<br />no one knows
<br />i realize, it was only just a dream
<br /></p><div>
<br /></div></span>Laurentia Shilla Budiartohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03761691504628085356noreply@blogger.com0