teenyweeny town

the busy big road and the simple small alley

2012-01-12T13:42:00.003+07:00

here in this city lots of roads i can find

there are big boulevards that are neatly made

but other than that there are alleys too

alleys that are small and messy

the big roads might seemed secure and safe

but those roads are usually too crowded and it makes it stuck

while the alleys are small and unexpectedly smooth

because not many people know where it goes and are familiar with it

just like you are

you might be messy, unorganized and seemed like nothing

but for people that already knew you,

you have your own special value

and now i realized that i've found it

and it makes you be that dead end alley that i can't turn back from

always does, always will

2011-11-30T01:38:00.003+07:00

my mind might says no...

but my heart always says yes..

my friends might forbid me to love you..

but i won't even bother to listen to any of their sayings..

the whole world might scold me

all people i know might leave me alone

but it doesn't matter for me

and you might be wondering and ask me why

so let me answer your question..

that's because i want no one but you

i need no one but you

having you in my life is all i ever wanted

i love you more than i've ever loved anyone else..

and i want you to stay for my whole life..

cuz you are my love..

always does, always will..

people ask when will i stop loving

i answer them without thinking

i will stop when the sun stops shining..

i will stop when the earth stop spinning..

dilemmatic letter for you..

2011-11-28T00:11:00.002+07:00

a part of my heart says i should always be with you..

another part of me says i should stay away and listen to my friends..

you said i should listen to my heart and stop listening to the others..

you said i should follow my heart cuz it never lies..

but how can i follow it if i can't even hear it..

how can i decide when my heart is having a dilemma too..

i don't want to leave you..

but i can't stand this anymore..

i want to stand by you through this..

but i don't know when will my logics start to work..

and i know if it works,and you're not healed yet,

it means i won't be there for you anymore..

i'm sorry i can't fulfill my promises to you,

to always be with you in your hardest time..

i know i'm not a good girlfriend if i do that..

i'm mean and i don't deserve you..

but i can't handle this anymore..

dear RJ..

2011-11-02T13:08:00.003+07:00

hey J..

how are you up there??

it's been 2 years now since we last met you here...

we all really miss you..

and personally, i still can't erase the memories i've had with you...

the fun things we've done together,

the ways you've done to cheer me up everytime i have problems,

and all the stuffs you've done for me...

even though i'm fine now, but still, i miss the jokes you've made and all the silly stuffs you've done...

well, i know that we weren't supposed to be sad right now cuz you're happy now..

but i bet you know how it feels to miss someone, especially when you know you won't see them anymore...

anyways, i believe that you're now watching us from up there..guarding each and every one of your best friends from the heaven..

we love you J...

2011-10-25T15:16:00.003+07:00

this version of Wedding Dress (which was originally sang by Tae Yang) really sounds like the voice of my heart...it's saying the words that i want to say...

even though he's not married yet, but this is how i would feel when he gets married one day...

i really wish that i could get my second chance...

well anyways, here's a video from a youtube account called babyjennuine..hope she doesn't mind that i copied her video url and pasted it here..enjoy.. :)

url : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zh6fNiJS4xc&feature=related

Lyrics:

Should of never let you go
Should of told you how I felt
should of never let my pride get in our way
Should of kept you by my side
when I, I had the chance
But I let you slip away
My worst mistake was on that day
And it's been five years
since the day we grew apart
Though we have someone new
my heart just won't let go of you
And now it's too late
cause I'm tryna turn the pages back
when you're just skipping ahead of our story

baby do you still have a place in your heart for me
cause i've been thinking lately
that you're the one that makes my heart complete
and i don't wanna see you down the aisle with nobody else but me
Even though she's walking through that door
with my dreams and taking my place
with that wedding dress (dress dress)
in my wedding dress (dress dress)
with that wedding dress (dress dress)
in my wedding dress (dress dress)
in my wedding dress..

Baby just stop for a moment
Baby look into my eyes
Can't you see the lies behind this smile of mine
though I said congratulations
I I'm happy for you
Can't you see this love was only made just for you and I
Everytime that I try
something keeps pulling me back
From telling you the truth
That I never moved on from you
And now it's too late
Cause I'm still stuck here in our past
while you're moving ahead with your story

here comes the bride
all dressed in white
and it's a damn shame the bride isn't me

Happily ever after
that's how all fairytale ends with
So why am I with the crowd
Watching you devote your life
but not with me

Wedding Dress - Tae Yang

2011-10-25T14:55:00.000+07:00

니가 그와 다투고
niga geuwa datugo
때론 그 땜에 울고
ttaeron geu ttaeme ulgo
힘들어 할 때면 난 희망을 느끼고
himdeureo hal ttaemyeon nan huimangeul neukkigo
아무도 모르게 맘 아-아-아프고
amudo moreuge mam a-a-apeugo
니작은 미소면 또 담담해지고
nijageun misomyeon tto damdamhaejigo

니가 혹시나 내 마음을 알게 될까봐
niga hoksina nae maeumeul alge doelkkabwa
알아버리면 우리 멀어지게 될까봐
arabeorimyeon uri meoreojige doelkkabwa
난 숨을 죽여
nan sumeul jug yeo
또 입술을 깨물어
tto ipsureul kkaemureo
제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길
jebal geureul tteona naege ogil

Baby 제발 그의 손을 잡지마
Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima
Cuz you should be my Lady
오랜 시간 기다려온 날 돌아봐줘
oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo

노래가 울리면 이제 너는
noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun
그와 평생을 함께하죠
geuwa pyeongsaengeul hamkkehajyo
오늘이 오지 않기를
oneuri oji ankireul
그렇게 나 매일 밤 기도했는데
geureoke na maeil bam gidohaenneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

내 맘을 몰라줬던
nae mameul mollajwotdeon
네가 너무 미워서
nega neomu miwoseo
가끔은 네가 불행하길 난 바랬어
gakkeumeun nega bulhaenghagil nan baraesseo
이미 내 눈물은 다 마 마 마르고
imi nae nunmureun da ma ma mareugo
버릇처럼 혼자 너에게 말하고
beoreutcheoreom honja neoege malhago

매일 밤 그렇게 불안했던걸 보면 난
maeil bam geureoke buranhaetdeongeol bomyeon nan
이렇게 될꺼란 건 알았는지도 몰라
ireoke doelkkeoran geon aranneunjido molla
난 눈을 감아
nan nuneul gama
끝이 없는 꿈을 꿔
kkeuchi eomneun kkumeul kkwo
제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길
jebal geureul tteona naege ogil

Baby 제발 그의 손을 잡지마
Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima
Cuz you should be my Lady
오랜 시간 기다려온 날 돌아봐줘
oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

부디 그와 행복해
budi geuwa haengbokhae
너를 잊을 수 있게
neoreul ijeul su itge
내 초라했던 모습들은 다 잊어줘
nae chorahaetdeon moseupdeureun da ijeojwo
비록 한동안은
birok handonganeun  no oh
나 죽을 만큼 힘이 들겠지만
na jugeul mankeum himi deulgetjiman no oh

너무 오랜 시간을 착각 속에
neomu oraen siganeul chakgak soge
홀로 바보처럼 살았죠
hollo babocheoreom saratjyo
아직도 내 그녀는 날 보고
ajikdo nae geunyeoneun nal bogo
새 하얗게 웃고 있는데
sae hayake utgo inneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

TRANSLATIONS

I would argue
Then you would cry
As you’re struggling, I would only get stronger
My heartaches behind these shadows
My face brightens up as I see your smile
I worry that you might notice my feelings
And I get scared that the gap between us would widen
I hold my breath
Then I bite my lips
Then I pray that she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

You, who never understood my feelings
Because of that, I ended up despising you
Then I wished a misfortune upon you
But now, my eyes are dry
I try to talk to you but I realized that I’m alone
Every night, I would look back and think
If I already knew the results
Then I close my eyes
Then I dream an endless dream
Then I pray she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

By all means, be happy with him
So I can move on
Please erase me out of your heart
Although I tried my best but, no oh~

I’ve been living the lies for too long
Yet, she would look at me and smile.

Who You Are - Jessie J

2011-10-18T14:15:00.000+07:00

I stare at my reflection in the mirror:
"Why am I doing this to myself?"
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf.
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
(who you are [x11])

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeah!
The more I try the less it's working, yeah
'Cause everything inside me screams
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!

Yes, no's, egos, fake shows, like WHOA!
Just go, and leave me alone!
Real talk, real life, good love, goodnight,
With a smile, that's my home!
That's my home, no...

No, no, no, no, no...
Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
Yeah yeah yeah

2011-10-06T00:39:00.003+07:00

at the beginning, no one would ever guess that he could change my heart.

and so do i.

we knew each other for a very long time, but never thought of being a couple.

at the beginning, i was so afraid of falling in love, flying so high, and being dropped from such a height.

but in 2 short weeks he changed it all.

he melted my cold heart and fill it with the warmth from his love.

he succeeded to make me love someone truly again.

maybe this will sound so cheesy and stuff,

but now i feel that my heart is healed.

my heart is fully recovered and my other part of wings is found.

and now, i reached the part where i'm afraid to lose him.

the part where people start to say that i'm stupid and i still do it for him.

and if you read this, babe i just want you to know that i really do love you..

i might not show it directly, but you are my life now.

you are the air that i breathe, the sun of my world, and the last person who i want to love.

2011-09-30T18:43:00.003+07:00

you came into my life

out of nowhere you just showed up

you were a friend to me,

but now you're a lot more than that.

you might not be perfect for the world,

but you are perfect to me..

well i hope it's not for these times only..

cuz i'm glad i found you..

you are my love now..

and i hope it'll last forever..

cuz true love doesn't have happy endings,

it simply never ends...

One Man (Han Namja)- Kim Jong Kook + translation

2011-09-16T10:32:00.001+07:00

참 오래됐나봐 이 말조차 무색할 만큼
니 눈빛만 봐도 널 훤히 다 아는
니 친구처럼 너의 그림자 처럼

늘 함께 했나봐 니가 힘들때나 슬플때
외로워 할때도 더 이별 안고서
아파할때도 니 눈물 닦아줄

한남자가 있어 널 너무 사랑한
한남자가 있어 사랑해 말도 못하는
니 곁에 손 내밀며 꼭 닿을거리에
자신보다 아끼는 널 같이 내가 있어

너를 웃게 하는 일 마치 그것만 생각하고
언제어디서나 너를 바라보고 널 그리워 하고 니 걱정만 하는

한남자가 있어 널 너무 사랑한
한남자가 있어 사랑해 말도 못하는
니 곁에 손 내밀며 꼭 다을거리에
자신보다 아끼는 널 같이 내가 있어

천번쯤 삼키고 또 만번쯤 추스려 보지만
말하고 싶어 미칠것 같은데 널 와락 난 안고 싶은데

한여자가있어 이런날 모르는
사랑받으면서 사랑인줄 도 모르는
나만큼 꼭 바보같은 슬픈 널 두고
이순간도 눈물이 나지만 행복한걸
니가 곁에 있기 때문이야

Translation

It must've been a long time. Long enough for these words to become colorless.
Even if I just see your eyes, I know everything,
Like your friend, like your shadow.

We must've been together always. When you're having hard time and you are sad,
even when you're lonley. Holding onto seperation a bit longer,
Even when I'm hurting to wipe away your tears..

There's a man. Who loves you so much.
There's a man. Who can't even say I love you.
By your side I put my hand out and
at a path were you can always reach me
I, who cherishes you more than myself, am with you.

To make you laugh, I think of only that and
When and where ever you are I'm watching you and missing you.
And who worries of only you,

There's a man. Who loves you so much.
There's a man. Who can't even say I love you.
By your side I put my hand out and
at a path were you can always reach me
I, who cherishes you more than myeslf, am with you.

For the thousandth time I swallow and again for ten thousandth time I try to set

Don't Be Good To Me - Kim Jong Kook + translation

2011-08-31T01:31:00.000+07:00

자꾸 잘해 주지 마요 더는 잘해 주지 마요

차라리 차가운 게 오히려 나을 텐데
아님 무관심 한 게 오히려 나을 텐데

옷자락 끝에 묻은 먼지를 떼주는 일
무심코 웃으면서 어깨에 기대는 일

그냥 버릇 일 꺼야 지워보고 바쁘게 하룰 보내봐도
눈에 찍힌 사진처럼 또 생각나고 생각나

*. 자꾸 잘해 주지 마요 더는 잘해 주지 마요 또 다시
사랑 앞에 무릎 꿇고 아파할 자신 없네요

혹시 다른 맘이라면 나완 다른 맘이라면 누군가
물어보면 소개해요 그냥 아는 사람 이라고 담담하게

며칠 전 내게 했던 늦은 밤 그 전화는
못 받은 게 아니라 받을 수 없었어요

혹시 술에 취해서 생각 없이 외로운 맘에 보고 싶다
말할까 봐 아침이면 다 아닌 일이 될까 봐

*.Repeat

사랑 그 하나만으로 세상 모든 걸 가졌던 그때로
그리워도 돌아가는 길을 찾을 수 없어서
혹시 같은 맘 일까 봐 나와 같은 맘 일 까봐
또 다시 기대하고 또 기다리죠 사랑 앞에서 나 오늘도 바보처럼

그대 앞에 또 서성이죠 바보처럼

TRANSLATION:

Stop being good to me
Don't be good to me anymore

It might be better to be cold to me
Or ignoring me might be better for me
Brushing off the dust on my collar
Carelessly laughing and leaning on my shoulder

I let it go, telling myself that its just a habit and busy my day
But I think about ti again and again as if I took a picture

Stop being good to me
Don't be good to me anymore
I don't have the confidence to kneel my knees and be hurt by love
If you have other thoughts than me, if you have different thoughts than me.
If somebody asks you who I am, nonchantly introduce me as just someone you know

The phone call a couple of days ago at night, that call...
it's not that I didn't wat to answer, but I couldnt
Just in case I tell you I miss you when I'm drunk
because in the morning, I'll regret it

Stop being good to me
Don't be good to me anymore
I don't have the confidence to kneel my knees and be hurt by love
Although I had the whole world because of love
Although i miss it, I'm unable to find the way

Just in case you have the same thoughts as me,
if you happen to have the same thoughts of me
I wait again and again.
I am a fool infront of love again.
I cling to you again, like a fool.

Stop being good to me
Don't be good to me anymore

LOVE YOU GUYS! A LOT!

2011-08-31T00:58:00.003+07:00

OH HOW I MISS YOU TWO A LOT!

i miss the times we spent in the class, when we hang out, when we're sad, or even when everything is just ALIZWEL!!!

and you guys,

even though i meet you almost everyday,

but i'm never bored of you guys...

you always make me laugh and forget about all my problems when i'm with you guys..

dear my "mom", "dad", Keti, Stefi, Prisca and Elysa,

i wish nothing will ever set us apart...

you guys are the best people who i know will always support me and stop me when i'm gonna do something wrong... *hugs!

2011-08-31T00:48:00.002+07:00

AUG, 30 2011

my besties made my day!

Love You Bawangs :*

Anggie "Daddy" Kristantio, Aldie "Mommy" Jacob, Danissa "Keti" Paramita, Stefanus "Stefi"

another letter for you..

2011-08-31T00:25:00.002+07:00

dear schatje,

lately,

i think about you A LOT..

just like i used to..

but i guess you're not feeling the same way anymore..

maybe you've moved on to someone else..

maybe your heart isn't feeling the same way as i am anymore..

and i definitely know that is not our fault..

i was the one who made that stupid mistake

and i was the one who hurt you so badly..

but i want you to know that i am truly sorry about it..

and now, i'll show you that i mean it..

i won't stop loving you even if someday i date someone else..

cuz even though you are not perfect for the world,

but you are the perfect one for me..

Just A Dream - Nelly

2011-08-28T02:05:00.000+07:00

I was thinkin about her
thinkin about me
thinkin about us
where we gunna be
open my eyes...
it was only just a dream

so i travel back down that road
wish you'd come back
no one knows
i realize, it was only just a dream

i was at the top
now its like i'm in the basement
number 1 spot
now shes finding a replacement
i swear now i cant take it
knowing somebodys got my baby

now you aint around, baby i cant think
i should put it down, shoulda got that ring
cuz i can still feel it in the air
see your pretty face
run my fingers through her hair

my love
my life
my shorty
my wife
she left me, i'm tight
cuz i knew that it just aint right

i was thinkin about her
thinkin about me
thinkin about us
where we gunna be
open my eyes...
it was only just a dream

so i travel back down that road
wish you'd come back
no one knows
i realize, it was only just a dream

and i be ridin
and i swear i see your face at every turn
i try to get my usher on but i cant let it burn
and i just hope that she notice she the only one i yearn for
no more sooner will i learn

didn't give her all my love
i guess now i got my payback
now i'm in the club thinking all about my baby
hey
she was so easy to love
but wait, i guess that love wasnt enough
i'm goin through it every time that i'm alone
now i'm wishing she would just pick up the phone
but she made a decision that she wanted to move on
cuz i was wrong

i was thinkin about her
thinkin about me
thinkin about us
where we gunna be
open my eyes...
it was only just a dream

so i travel back down that road
wish you'd come back
no one knows
i realize, it was only just a dream

if you ever loved somebody put your hands up x2
and now theyre gone and you wish you could give them everything (x2)

i was thinkin about her
thinkin about me
thinkin about us
where we gunna be
open my eyes...
it was only just a dream

so i travel back down that road
wish you come back
no one knows
i realize, it was only just a dream

Thinking Of You - Katy Perry

2011-08-28T01:53:00.000+07:00

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed

You said move on, where do I go?
I guess second best is all I will know

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian Summer in the middle of winter
Like a hard candy with a surprise center
How do I get better once I've had the best?
You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test

He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth, oh!
(Taste your mouth)
He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into

You're the best, and yes, I do regret
How I could let myself let you go
Now, now the lesson's learned
I touched it, I was burned
Oh, I think you should know!

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your, your eyes
Looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes

Oh, won't you walk through?
And bust in the door and take me away?
Oh, no more mistakes
'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay

the past tense,present,and maybe future.. :'(

2011-08-28T01:41:00.002+07:00

i was so happy back then..

but i was too stupid and insensitive..

that i didn't realize that you truly love me

and i didn't know that it's very precious..

now you're gone,

and i'm the one who's feeling the lost..

you're the drop of water in a desert for me..

and i can really tell now..

i might dated a guy or two,

but what you don't know is that i never take them seriously..

all i'm thinking of is you..every time..

since then, until now...

love you schat..

i really do.. :'(

one year and three months

2011-08-23T14:26:00.004+07:00

may 2010..

the month where it all ended..

the month where i lost the best guy i might have..

he was so perfectly perfect..

and i was very ungrateful of what i've had..

i left him for something that is uncertain..

and i ended up with nothing..

now it's august 2011..

i'm still remembering about him..

that very patient, understanding, lovable guy..

still wishing that he would take me back..

even though i know that it's not possible,

but still, in the depth of my heart that wish still appears almost every night and day..

and now, i really regret my decision of leaving him..

because just after i left you then i realized how perfect he is..

so, dear you,

i don't know your feelings towards me now..

maybe you're totally disgusted of me now..

but if i have a chance, i would definitely ask you now,

would you come and take me back as your girl again?

dear RJ..

2011-08-23T14:07:00.002+07:00

when people die,

where do they go?

some people say they might go to hell or maybe heaven..

other people say they stay in this world, but we just can't see them..

but no matter where they go,

i believe that they actually stay between us..

in our heart.

and i believe that also goes to you,RJ..

maybe now we can't see you..

maybe we can't really play with you anymore..

but i believe you're listening to each and everyone of us, your friends..

i believe that you'll try to help us with your own different way..

we do miss you..

but we're not sad anymore..

because we know that you're happy now..

wherever you are..

WE miss YOU J..

*hugs

2011-07-28T04:48:00.002+07:00

you were just a friend
but it was all back then
now i feel totally different to you
and i thought you feel it too

but then i told my friend about it
and she told me a fact that really hits
she said you already have a girl in your life
and it really made me realize

that you're a really nice guy
who treats everyone in a really great way
and even though i can't be the one who fills your heart,
i won't bother to be your friend either
but after the pain fly away

they might see you as the bad guy
for not telling me the fact right away
but i still think that you are a nice guy
cuz you still pick your girl and choose to stay
and for me it really do shows..

now even it hurts me much,
even it makes me really disappointed,
but it also makes me proud..
proud of having a great friend like you,
a real great and loyal person..

don't wait

2011-07-21T06:21:00.001+07:00

when you feel like you love someone, don't you ever wait to say it

even if you don't really know them..

when you love someone,

it doesn't matter how long have you know them

it doesn't matter where did you know them

what matters is just you love the way they are as you know them.

because if you wait, that person might just go away and get lost in a blink of an eye..

and when they're gone, all you can do is wait and regret..

you might think that you can replace them with someone else..

but everything will be different...

it'll be different from what you love from the former person..

if you're lucky, you might find someone who can really replace them..

but if you're not, you won't be able to love the new person as much as you loved the long gone person...

so don't wait!

2011-07-16T18:45:00.000+07:00

Baby eagles can’t fly and keeps on falling down
Caterpillars can only stays in the ground
But both of them will grow
Both of them will turn into something greater
And when the time has come,
Grown-up eagles fly so high and fast without any chance of falling
And butterflies fly around in a gorgeous way
And so does love
In the beginning, it might be hard, ugly and tough
But at the end,
They’ll turn into a pretty, strong relationship that we had never imagined.

who doesn't love PACMAN???

2011-07-02T17:10:00.002+07:00

i love this gameee!!!! anyone still has it?

My Top 20 Galau Songlist

2011-07-01T01:42:00.007+07:00

> Deep and Meaningless - Rooster

> My Immortal - Evanescence

> Talking to the Moon - Bruno Mars

> Don't Go Away - Oasis

> The Man Who Can't be Moved - The Script

> Takkan Terganti - Marcell

> Percayalah - Ecoutez!

> Blue Sky Collapse - Adhitia Sofyan

> When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne

> Officially Missing You - Tamia

> I'm Yours - The Script

> Kejujuran Hati - Kerispatih

> Because of You - Kelly Clarkson

> Need You Now - Lady Antebellum

> Dicintai 'tuk Disakiti - Ari

> Dead Man Walking - The Script

> Grenade - Bruno Mars

> The Second You Sleep - Saybia

> A Little Too Not Over You - David Archuletta

and surprisingly....

> BY MY SIDE - DAVID CHOI

Beastly

2011-06-28T01:54:00.004+07:00

"Love is Never Ugly"
is that true?
well, for me somehow it's true.
because even though you had lots of bad memories in every love stories you have, but still, the good memories also remains in your head and makes you smile every time you remember them. right?
and there's a saying which says, don't love someone because they're pretty. but they're pretty because you love them.
so don't ever feel not confident about yourself. because a true love will see you not from your looks, but from what's inside...or better yet, they'll accept you just for who you are...

Bruises - Chairlift

2011-05-18T14:45:00.002+07:00

I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do headstands for you
Everytime I fell on you, yeah, everytime I fell
I tried to do handstands for you
But everytime I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you.

I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do handstands for you
Everytime I fell on you, yeah, everytime I fell
I tried to do handstands for you but everytime I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you-ooh-ooh-ooh

For you-ooh-ooh-ooh
So black and blue-ooh-ooh-ooh
For you-ooh-ooh-ooh.

I grabbed some frozen strawberries so I could ice your bruising knees
But frozen things they all unfreeze and now I taste like....
All those frozen strawberries I used to chill your bruising knees,
Hot July ain't good to me
I'm pink and black and blue for you.

I got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue

Got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue for you-ooh-ooh-ooh

For you-ooh-ooh-ooh
So black and blue-ooh-ooh-ooh
For you-ooh-ooh-ooh

Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo

S and R

2011-05-12T01:43:00.001+07:00

Have you ever feel like you’re meant for someone, but after some period of time you realize that you’re wrong. You realized that the person you thought right were actually not right at all. That person was just playing you around and never takes you seriously. That person just needs something or someone to get over their boringness of something else. And when you realize it, it was all too late. You have fallen too deep into their charm and start to actually fall for that person. If you do, then you will definitely understand this story.

There’s a girl, who lives happily with her friends and her boyfriend. Everything seems so perfect and she was really enjoying her life. Then one day, she went to the mall with her boyfriend. Then he saw his friends were sitting near the place that Stella and her boyfriend were sitting. So they go to where his friends were sitting. It turns out, his friends were laughing at one of themselves. That guy was drunk and kept on doing silly things. And when Stella reached her boyfriend’s friends, that drunken guy suddenly talked to Stella and started to introduce himself. He said that his name was Ryan. Then he asked what’s her name. Stella smiled. And just when Stella wants to say her name, that guy suddenly laughed and said that her name was smiley. Stella also laughed then says that her name is Stella. But the guy was too drunk to remember it. And so was it, a simple, weird, but memorable introduction between Stella and Ryan.

After that meeting, Stella and Ryan keep on meeting up. And after several meetings, Ryan told Stella why was he drunk at that time. It turns out that he had just broke up with his girlfriend and he was really stressed out. Stella starts to put some sympathy into him and cheer him up. Then without they realized, they start to get to trust and comforted by each other. And what Stella didn’t realize too is that she started to fall in love with that guy. But she didn’t have the guts to tell Ryan about the truth. Other than that, Stella was also still in a relationship with her boyfriend. So she kept the feeling in herself and started to reduce the intensity of meeting Ryan.

But then, after few months of meeting each other for almost everyday, suddenly Ryan never showed up again. Stella was panicked at the first few days. But slowly she started to forget about Ryan and start to concentrate on her boyfriend only.

2 years later, Stella gets into university. And she suddenly sees a guy that she could ever forget. She saw Ryan waiting for the elevator with her. And when she called him, he looks shocked. Stella thought that Ryan has forgotten her. But then Ryan says no. He says that he remembered her, but all he can remember is only smiley. Not her real name. Stella laughed and says that she is smiley. And there it is, another simple coincidence that make them meet again after the long 2 years.

After the coincidence in the elevator, Stella and Ryan started to eat lunch together, go to campus together, and go home together, just like they were dating. But then Ryan told Stella that he has a girlfriend already. And Stella was fine about it because she just wants to be friends with him. At least that’s what she thought at first. Because after spending time together like they used to, Stella’s feelings that she has successfully kept in her heart suddenly came out of nowhere. And at the same time, Ryan also admitted that he had actually liked Stella since the day the met. So they decided to be friends. But anyhow, they can’t really keep their feelings after they both know that they actually like each other. And Stella started to feel that the way they act is way too far from what friends should do. So Stella decided to back off. But Ryan didn’t give up that easily. He said that he wants to kiss Stella for the first and the last time. And Stella lets him. But then, when they were about to split up, Stella suddenly cried and Ryan saw it. So Ryan tried to calm her down by saying that being friends would be better because they can stay friends forever. While if they’re dating, he was afraid that they would broke up and stop having fun like they used to had. So then Stella agreed to be best friends with Ryan just like they used to be before Ryan gone away to God-knows-where. And things were just going the way they want it to be.

But after few weeks, Stella starts to realize that best friends shouldn’t do stuff that they did. But this time Stella enjoys it and stop thinking about Ryan’s girlfriend. Especially because Ryan also told her that he loves her more than her girlfriend. So it goes on.

After few months, Stella met another guy. This guy is as fun as Ryan and even cuter. So she decided to try to move on from Ryan and try to approach this guy. And she told Ryan about it. And Ryan said that he is happy for her and will let her go. And he did. But it turns out that Stella failed. She failed to get over her feelings towards Ryan. So she gave up and tried to get back with Ryan. But then, Ryan has also changed. He was so cold to Stella and started to back off from her. When Stella asked him about the things that he said before, he said that it was just jokes. Stella was hurt so deeply. And now Ryan never contacts her anymore. They even don’t meet up and talk anymore. They are barely friends now. And Stella? She is left behind alone with her heart broken, depression and lots of things to think and regret.

Breakeven - The Script

2011-05-12T01:41:00.000+07:00

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just praying to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven... even... no

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no

What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces
One still in love while the other one's leaving
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm try'na make sense of what little remains ooh
'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break
No it don't break
No it don't break even no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
(Oh glad your okay now)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(Oh I'm glad your okay)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no

2011-04-16T22:26:00.003+07:00

work out

eat out

laugh out

definitely the way to spend your weekends with your best mates..

at least that's what we thought.

cuz we can burn fat,

we can stay healthy,

and we can get to know each other well.. :)

learn from your mistakes!

2011-04-14T16:37:00.003+07:00

sometimes mistakes you made can make you learn something big from the effect.

just like it helps me to learn a lot.

like for instance, i learned that you should never trust a man who wants to cheat on his girlfriend..it doesn't matter even if you love him like a lot more than his girlfriend does..cuz it's might be wrong..because no matter how much you love him, how much love he tried to show you, how hard he tried to say that he love you more than his girlfriend, they can be lies all along..it's all just because he was bored with the habit he usually does with his girlfriend AT THAT TIME..but when he's bored of you, he'll leave you like in no time! and then you're the one who'll be hurt at the end..so don't ever say yes when a guy ask you out even though he already has a girlfriend..and don't even trust what he says...cuz when someone lies to his or her couple, they can definitely lie to you too!

2011-04-04T00:25:00.002+07:00

it has been a pretty long time since the last time i felt this..

and i don't know why it started to reappear these few days..

the feeling of being alone,being rejected,being sad...

even though i wasn't being rejected by anyone,

but this feeling that i used to feel keeps on showing up..

i don't want to be sad anymore

i don't want to be the girl who i used to be

i don't want to be that fragile and mushy girl anymore..

bitter 17..

2011-02-23T21:45:00.002+07:00

sweet 17?

i can't pretty much say that my experience of being seventeen can be told as sweet..

it's pretty much bitter and better not to be remembered..

this year's birthday hurts me so bad..

the special person for me doesn't even say happy birthday to me..

i had a big fight with that two-faced person.. *well, i don't really regret this one though..*

and there's nothing special that i can count as a memorable thing...

hurts me?

A LOT...

makes me sad?

SO BADLY...

but however i can't say or do anything anymore now that the day has passed..

and the days keep on going for me, sadly...

2011-02-01T06:12:00.004+07:00

good-bye January..

the beginning, month full of tears!

HELLO FEBRUARY!

the month that (should be) full of love and wealth! ♥ ♥ ♥

i am 92.16% obsessed with music

2011-01-30T04:15:00.002+07:00

check the bands you've HEARD OF. Not just the ones you like.

Be honest people! If you really have never heard of them. Don't mark it. it just makes you look fake.

ALTERNATIVE:
[ ] Breaking Benjamin
[x] Paramore
[x] Panic! At The Disco
[x] Linkin Park
[ ] The Academy Is...
[x] Coldplay
[ ] Three Days Grace
[x] Yellowcard
[x]30 Seconds to Mars
[ ] Chevelle

TOTAL SO FAR = 6

COUNTRY:
[x] Rascal Flatts
[x] Carrie Underwood
[ ] Leanne Rhymes
[ ] Garth Brooks
[x] Dixie Chicks
[ ] Kenny Chesney
[ ] Tim McGraw
[x] Faith Hill
[x] Shania Twain
[x] Johnny Cash

TOTAL SO FAR = 12

EMO:
[ ] Hawthorne Heights
[ ] Chiodos
[ ] Forgive Durden
[ ] Amber Pacific
[x] The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
[ ] From First to Last
[ ] Senses Fail
[ ] Underoath
[ ] Something Corporate
[ ] Hit The Lights
[ ] Dear Whoever

TOTAL SO FAR = 13

INDIE:
[ ] The Hush Sound
[ ] Eisley
[ ] Death Cab for Cutie
[x] Dashboard Confessional
[x] The Killers
[x] Yeah Yeah Yeahs
[ ] Hot Hot Heat
[x] Gym Class Heroes
[x] Franz Ferdinand
[ ] Modest Mouse

TOTAL SO FAR = 18

METAL:
[x] Slipknot
[x] System of a Down
[ ] Disturbed
[ ] Metallica
[x] Guns n' Roses
[x] Lamb of God
[ ] Slayer
[ ] Hatebreed
[ ] Killswitch Engage

TOTAL SO FAR = 22

POP:
[ ] Teddy Geiger
[x] Ashlee Simpson
[x] Kelly Clarkson
[x] Jesse McCartney
[x] Avril Lavigne
[x] Pink
[x] The Veronicas
[x] Daniel Powter
[x] James Blunt
[x] Natasha Bedingfield
[x] Ryan Carbrera

TOTAL SO FAR = 31

POWERPOP/PUNK:
[x] Hellogoodbye
[x] Cute is What We Aim for
[ ] Cartel
[x] The Click Five
[x] Fall Out Boy
[ ] Rise Against
[x] Good Charlotte
[x] Bowling for Soup
[ ] Relient K
[ ] Anti - Flag
[x] Simple Plan

TOTAL SO FAR= 38

RAP:
[x] Ying Yang Twins
[ ] T.I.
[x] Eminem
[ ] 2pac
[x] Jamie Foxx
[x] Ludacris
[x] Lil' Jon
[x] Outkast
[x] 50 Cent
[x] Kanye West
[ ] Notorious B.I.G
[ ] Young Jeezy

TOTAL SO FAR = 46

SKA:
[ ] reel big fish
[ ] The Specials
[ ] MAD Caddies
[ ] Rancid
[ ] The Aquabats
[ ] Sublime
[x] No Doubt
[ ] Madness
[ ] Operation Ivy
[x] Bob Marley

TOTAL SO FAR= 48

ROCK:
[ ] Taking Back Sunday
[x] All American Rejects
[x] Motion City Soundtrack
[x] Avenged Sevenfold
[x] Angels and Airwaves
[x] Evanescence
[x] My Chemical Romance
[ ] Drowning Pool
[x] Green Day
[x] Blink 182
[ ] Madina Lake

TOTAL SO FAR = 56

CLASSIC ROCK:
[x] The Beatles
[x] Led Zeppelin
[x] The Rolling Stones
[x] The Cure
[ ] The Who
[x] Pink Floyd
[x] Jimi Hendrix
[x] Queen
[ ] Van Halen
[ ] Poison
[x] ACDC

TOTAL = 64

multiply your answer by 144
and then divide it by 100
Post it as I'm_% obsessed with music
then repost with: I am % obsessed with music

64 X 144 = 9216
9216 / 100 = 92.16%

boyish or girlish? well.. almost even.. :D

2011-01-30T04:08:00.003+07:00

MY BOY SIDE
[x] You love hoodies
[x] You love jeans
[x] Dogs are better than cats
[ ] Its hilarious when people get hurt
[x] You've played with boys on a team
[ ] Shopping is torture
[ ] Sad movies suck
[ ] You own a XBOX
[x] You played with Hot Wheels as a little kid
[ ] At some point in your life you wanted to be a firefighter
[x] You own a DS PS2 or SEGA
[x] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
[ ] You watch sports on TV
[ ] Gory movies are cool
[x] Sometimes you go to your dad for advice
[x] You own like a trillion baseball hats
[ ] You used to/do collect pokemon
[ ] Baggy sweat pants are nice to wear
[ ] Its kind of weird to sleepovers with a bunch of people
[x] Green, black, red, blue or silver are one of your favourite colours
[x] Sports are fun
[x] You sometimes talk with food in your mouth
[ ] You sleep at night with your socks on
[x] You have fished at least once
TOTAL= 13

MY GIRL SIDE
[x] You like to shop
[x] You wear eyeliner
[x] You wear the color pink
[ ] Sometimes you go to your mum for advice
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport
[ ] You hate wearing all black
[x] You like going to the mall
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures
[x] You cried watching The Notebook
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe
[x] Shopping is one of your favourite hobbies
[ ] You've seen Star Wars and don't like some of it
[x] You do/did gymnastics
[ ] It takes you around one hour to shower and get dressed
[x] You smile a lot more than you should
[x] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes
[ ] You care about what you look like majority of the time
[ ] You like wearing dresses whenever you can
[x] You like dancing/do dancing
[x] You like high heel shoes
[x] You used to play with dolls as a kid
[x] You like putting makeup on others
[x] You like being the star of almost everything
[x] Pink is one of your favourite colours
TOTAL= 15

Multiply by 4 to get the percentage:
Boyish: 13 x 4 = 52%
Girly: 15 x 4 = 60%

Happy Birthday my dear brother from another mother! :P

2011-01-30T04:02:00.002+07:00

this poem by Joanna Fuchs reminds me of you instantly!

A BIRTHDAY WORKOUT

Hike across green Ireland;
Bike the USA;
Backpack through New Zealand,
But don’t call it a day…
Do yoga in lovely Paris;
Jump rope in Katmandu;
Avoid Italian pasta,
(Well, maybe taste, but don’t you chew!)
Climb atop Mt. Everest;
Do aerobics on China’s Wall;
Lift weights on Mexican Beaches;
And honey, that’s not all…
Shake your booty with native dances
In Fiji and Bora Bora;
Move your body and exercise
Like you’ve never done befora.
Okay; that’s good; you’re finished;
Now you can take a break;
You’ve finally burned enough calories
To have your birthday cake!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ko Anggie! WYATB!!
wish u like the surprise too!! :D
take care n GBU! *hey! it rhymes! too and you! :D*

feelings

2011-01-29T00:08:00.002+07:00

this feeling keeps coming every night

the feeling that makes me want to cry all the time

the feeling that i also don't know where did it come from

or even why do i feel this feeling

i feel hurt like there's a huge wound in my heart

like there's a big rock that is kept being thrown to it

like there's a million knifes that keep on stabbing it

does it just another usual mellow night that is caused by nothing

or does it all because of that incident where i broke my heart into pieces

in this night where all i can hear is only the songs that i played

i feel so alone and friendless

so that only myself that knows about my feelings

i wanted to share, but i don't know how and who would listen and understand

oh God please take my heart

so that i can't feel anything anymore

people might say that i'm not a person

cuz i can't feel any feelings anymore

but i guess it's better

a lot better than smiling on the outside but aching in the inside

30 people, many questions!

2011-01-28T05:44:00.003+07:00

Can you name 30 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 30 people. No cheating!

1. prisca
2. daniel
3. elysa
4. kyo
5. yunus
6. robert
7. idunk
8. ui
9. ko anggie
10. AJ
11. ce adit
12. ce tink
13. toge
14. ce tiff
15. floren
16. audie
17. mamat
18. rangga
19. ari
20. molyse
21. nessa
22. arlene
23. tasha
24. icha
25. narae
26. vero
27. debby
28. juju
29. nadia
30. daniss

THE QUESTIONS:
• How did you meet 10?
- in his hiphop class at gold's gym :D

• What would you do if you had never met 6?
- i would never be a third wheel!

• What would you do if 5 and 15 dated?
- HAH???? yauda sih gapapa juga..HAHA.

• If you could marry between 6 and 14 who will it be?
- 6-lah yaa...secara 14 is a girl... =="

• Did you ever like 26?
- i'm straight. thank you.

• Have you ever seen 4 cry?
- yes

• Would 4 and 27 make a good couple?
- BEH! dipenggal 3 ntarr...

• Would number 22 and 2 make a good couple?
- maybe..but i hope whey won't...

• Describe 8:
- idk her very well..but she has a good voice and seemed pretty nice.. :)

• Do you like 12?
- iya donggg.... *kedip2*

• Tell me something about 17:
- kocak!bae!gambarnya SABIIII!!!!

• What's 7's favorite color?
- apaan dunk??idk..hahahaha.

• What would you do if 1 just confessed they liked you?
- astagaaaa....jgn nginep di rumh gue lagi lu! hus2! HAHAHAHAHA.

• When was the last time you talked to number 15?
- sudah lama sekaliiii

• How do you think 19 feels about you?
- entaahh...

• What languages does 13 speak?
- INGGRIS!!!! BUAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAKAAK.

• Who is 2 going out with?:
- gatauu....gapernah crita2 si dani iniii...

• What grade is 16 in?
- semester 1

- What is 2's favorite songs now?
- alamak...matilah...terakhir sih dia nyuruh gue ngedengerin please don't go - mike posner...

• Would you ever date 3?
- mau ga el?? *kedip2*

• Is 11 single?
- AHAYY!!!! single en epeilebel!!! (y)

• What is 10s last name?
- laluuuwwww!!! :D

• Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 18?
- emohh!!!maunya ama nomorrr...... *kedip2 centil*

• Where does 23 live?
- taman beverly golf :D

• What do you think about 20?
- tomboy.suka breakdance

• What is the best thing about 4?
- pintar mengulik2 orang..sensitive..loving my bestie truly... (y)

• Is 21 hard-working?
- tampaknya bgitu...

• What would you like to tell 14 right now?
- ceceeehhh!!!!! aku potong rambut 55rb bagus loh!!! :P

• How did you meet 9?
- di combat class at gold's juga...hahahahaha.

• What is the best and worst thing about 2?
- best : great guitarist, worst : becandaannya ngeselin!

• Are you going to know 3 forever?
- of courseee!!!! we're soulmates!

• How long have you known 26?
- since grade 9

• Who is 24?
- teman yang kukenal gara2 keseringan nongkrong di bengsol... LOL

• Are you or did you ever date 28?
- astaganaga...GAMAUUU!!!!!!

• Do you have a crush on 27?
- no-laaahhhh....i'm STRAIGHT!

• Would you kiss 25?
- depends dimananya..klo lips,NO!

• Have you hugged/kissed 22?
- yes

• Is 29 your bff?
- one of my bffs! :D

• What do you hate about 23?
- klo udh nngs susah brentinya...

• What's your relationship with 30?
- friends donggg.... :)

50 first reactions

2011-01-28T05:37:00.003+07:00

1. beer : carlsberg
2. food : sushi
3. relationship : love?
4. crush : D.G
5. power ranger : kuning!
6. life : rempongg
7. the president : SBY!
8. yummy : eat
9. car : sirion
10. movie : salt?
11. halloween : candies
12. sex : vincent! LOL
13. religion : catholic
14. hate : love
15. fear : heights
16. marriage : white
17. blondes : dumb? (SORRY!!!)
18. slippers : havaianas
19. shoes : black
20. asians : chinese
21. past time : better
22. one night stand : WHAT?!
23. my cell phone : charged!
24. smoke : need one!
25. fantasy : twilight (why?)
26. high school life : short
27. pyjamas : bananas in pyjamas!!
28. stars : meteor garden (HAH??)
29. center : science
30. alcohol : chung! :P
31. the word LOVE : el-o-el-o-el-o-vi-i
32. friends : love!
33. money : need it
34. heartache : me now!
35. time : of my lifeee~
36. divorce : heartbroken?
37. dogs : goldie!
38. undies : simple
39. parents : annoying sometimes!
40. babies : chubby
41. ex- : boyfriend?
42. songs : iTunes
43. color : green
44. wedding : pretty ;)
45. pizza : laper..
46. hangout : fun
47. rest : home
48. goal : casillas
49. inspiration : my besties
50. fail : used to it..lalalalaa~ LOL

CrushCrushCrush

2011-01-28T05:17:00.002+07:00

Let The Songs Answer It!

Put your Ipod in shuffle mode. Answer these questions according to the song that appear at that time. Doesn’t matter how silly it will be, just write it down.

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
speed - atari teenage riot (iyaloooohhh)

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
what do you want from me - adam lambert (jadi maksudnya suka2 org describenya??)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
i'll give you all my love - PIU (aww...mau dong dikasi all his love....)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
disenchanted - MCR (amit2!!!!)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
tomorrow will be better - ATT9 (???)

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
I KNOW YOU WANT ME - PITBULL (HAHAHA.PERFECT MOTTO BABEEEHH)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Please don't go - Mike Posner (Y)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Break Free - Hillsong (i know they knew that i wanna break freee!! HAHA)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
cinta terindah - umbu (sapa yaaaa???? :S)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
nyanyian sahabat - liquor band

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT LOVE?
sudnay morning - maroon 5 (my love di sunday morning doang? ngga ah...)

WHAT IS 2+2?
magic - B.O.B (hah??jelas2 empat gituu..apanya yang magical???)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
C.I.N.T.A - D'Bagindaz (cinta mulu???yg nyanyi bagindaz pula...astagaaa....)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
welcoming the sophomore - PWG (hmm...)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
use somebody - kings of leon (aaaaa!!!!! malu ahhh....gamau ngmg... :P)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
one last cry - brian mcknight (i hope that cry is a happy tear)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
tidal wave - owl city (maksudnya??)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
if we ever meet again - timbaland ft. katy perry (hah????ga ngertiiii)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
talking to the moon - bruno mars (i am scared of this song sih...makes me cry all the time)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
bring me to life - evanescence (brarti sbnrnya saya is det gitu??ALAMAAAKKK.....)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST DREAM?
buttons - PCD (hah???biggest dreamnya tombol2 doang??ckckckck)

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
marry you - bruno mars (mau sih marry dia...NGGA SEKARANG JUGA TAPIII.....)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
kimi ga suki dato sakebitai - BAAD (artinya sih aku mencintaimu dan menangis..and i do love my friends til i cry sometimes)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO SAY RIGHT NOW?
aloha - cool (aloha disini artinya i love you... and i really do wanna say I LOVE YOU!!)

WHAT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING FOR YOU?
love drunk - boys like girls (hah??masa mabok cinta paling penting?? nolaaahh...)

WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
russian roulette - rihanna (well...it's one of the worst thing sih..amit2 gue ikut2an russian roulette..)

WHAT IS THE SPECIAL SONG FOR YOUR BF / GF?
wait a minute -PCD (hahaha.brarti disuruh nunggu yak?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT YOUR CRUSH RIGHT NOW?
billionaire - travie mccoy ft. bruno mars (hahahaha.he is a billionaire for meeeee!!! *bisaan aja nih..hahaha*)

WHAT IS THE SONG THAT YOU LIKE THE MOST?
dakota - stereophonics (SABIIII)

HOW YOU DESCRIBE YOUR LAST EX?
single ladies - beyonce (ebuseeeeet....my last ex was a guy kok...sumpah!)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
CrushCrushCrush - Paramore

100 truths

2011-01-28T05:01:00.002+07:00

RULE!
- Tell 100 Truths

1. Last beverage = mineral water
2. Last phone call = Elysa Munster
3. Last text message = Sam
4. Last song you listened to = Hot and Cold
5. Last time you cried = 2 days ago?

SIX HAVE YOU EVER’s:
1. Dated someone twice = yes
2. Been cheated on? = yes
3. Kissed someone & regretted it? = yes
4. Lost someone special? = yes
5. Been depressed? = yes
6. Been drunk and threw up? = yes

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
green.pink.black.white

HAVE YOU:
1. Made new friends = yes
2. Fallen out of love = yes
3. Laughed until you cried = yes
4. Met someone who changed you = yes
5. Found out who your true friends were = yes
6. Found out someone was talking about you = yes
7. Kissed anyone on your friend's list = yes
8. How many people on your friend's list do you know in real life = mostly
9. How many kids do you want to have = 1-2
10. Do you have any pets = yes
11. Do you want to change your name = no
12. What did you do for your last birthday = treat my friends
13. What time did you wake up today = 11 am
14. What were you doing at midnight last night = talked with Prisca Aninditya
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for = my sweet seventeen party! :D
17. One thing you wish you could change about your life = how easy for me to fall in love! X(
18. What are you listening to right now = Takkan Terganti - Marcell
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = yes
20. What's getting on your nerves right now? = nothing! i'm all relaxed now
21. Most visited webpage = twitter
ABOUT ME:
1. What's your name = Laurentia Shilla Budiarto Tjandrakesuma
2. Nicknames = shilla, budiarto, gendut, dek, cumi pari, buntel :S
3. Relationship Status = single
4. Zodiac sign = pisces
5. Male or female or transgendered = female
6. Elementary = St. Laurensia
7. Middle School = 7-8 St. Laurensia , 9 Stella Maris Int'l School
8. High school = 10 Stella Maris Int'l School
10. Hair color = brownish black
11. Long or short = short
16. Height = 175++
17. Do you have a crush on someone? = yes
18: What do you like about yourself? = almost everything
19. Piercings = yes
20. Tattoos = SOON!
21. Righty or lefty = righty

FIRSTS :
22. First surgery = none
23. First piercing = baby
24. First best friends = riska?
26. First sport you joined = swimming and basketball (almost at the same time! :D)
27. First pet = dogs
28. First vacation = California, USA
29. First concert = Black Eyed Peas!
30. First crush = MARCEL! LOL!!!

RIGHT NOW:
49. Eating = none
50. Drinking = none
52. I'm about to = smoke
53. Listening to = The Only Exception - Paramore
55. Waiting for = combat class

YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids? = yes
59. Want to get married? = yes
60. Careers in mind? = director? writer? something got to do with production house!

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
68. Lips or eyes = eyes
69. Hugs or kisses = hugs
70. Shorter or taller = taller
71. Older or Younger = older
72. Romantic or spontaneous = spontaneous
73. Nice stomach or nice arms = nice arms
74. Sensitive or loud = sensitive
75. Hook-up or relationship = relationship
77. Trouble maker or hesitant = kind of both?
HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger = yea
79. Drank hard liquor = yes
80. Lost glasses/contacts = yes
81. Sex on first date = no
82. Broken someone's heart = yes
83. Had your own heart broken = a lot
86. Turned someone down = yes
87. Cried when someone died = yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? = no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself = yes
90. Miracles = yes
91. Love at first sight = yes
92. Heaven = yes
93. Santa Clause = used to
95. Kiss on the first date? = yes
96. Angels = yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? yes (more than one actually)
98. Who is it? Elysa Munster . Rio 'Kyo' Bayu Pratama . Prisca Aninditya . Daniel Ganx . Nickelano Gunadi
99. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? yes
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? Yes

My Life According to Ne-Yo

2011-01-28T04:29:00.002+07:00

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST/BAND, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 15 people you like and include me. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "my life according to (band name)"

Pick your Artist:
Ne-Yo

Are you a male or female?
" Miss Independent "

Describe yourself:
" One In A Million "

What do people feel when they're around you?
" Addicted "

Describe where you currently live:
" Spotlight "

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
" Mirror "

Your favorite form of transportation:
" Leaving Tonight "

Your best friend is:
" Angel "

You and your best friends are:
" Crazy "

What's the weather like:
" A Little Space " *agak ga nyambung..*

Favorite time of day:
" I Ain't Gonna Tell You "

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
" Sexy Love "

What is life to you:
" TROUBLE "

How would you describe your previous relationship?
" So Sick "

Describe your current relationship.
" Go On Girl "

How do you feel about love?
" Irreplaceable "

Your fear:
" When You're Mad "

What is the best advice you have to give:
" Let Go "

Thought for the Day:
" Let Me Get This Right "

How I would like to die:
" Fade Into the Background "

My soul's present condition:
" MAD "

My motto:
" I'm Doing Okay "

What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
" Don't Fall In Love "

heartbroken = haircut !

2011-01-27T20:17:00.004+07:00

you know my habit after heartbroken, right?

and i've just gotten my heart broken again..

and now,

i cut my hair again!!!

people say this haircut suits me better..

what do you think??? :D

the life of an everyday actress

2011-01-27T17:50:00.002+07:00

if you call me now, maybe you can see that i've stopped crying..

if you see me now, i bet you'll think that i've get over you already..

but what you don't know is my heart is still crying..

what you don't know is my mind is still thinking about you everytime..

i might be a good actress,

it's because i don't want you to feel bad anymore..

i might look happy and laughing all the time now,

but actually my heart is screaming and crying still..

i want people to see me as a tough girl..

i want you to think that i'm not that childish little girl anymore..

i want to change my image in front of all of you..

but sorry to say, i still feel the same thing ever since..

the only difference now, i don't show it to the world like i used to..

how could i?

2011-01-21T02:17:00.004+07:00

you were always there when i need you

you were the one who rise up the sun when the darkness is all around

you made my mind full of you all the time

but now you're the one who breaks my heart

how could i stop my feelings?

how could i replace you with someone else?

how could i get over this feeling now that you're the one who made this appears?

how could i ever forget you???

people came and left in my life

i have felt heartbroken before..and i bet you know how bad is that..

i've get over this guy and that

but somehow this is different

and i feel scared to fall in love again

this world keeps spinning around

my life keeps on going

and people say the show must go on

but my heart does not know how to get over you

and move on

cuz my heart was broken into pieces

He's Just Not That Into You

2011-01-16T03:23:00.004+07:00

just watched the movie "He's Just Not That Into You"

and when i watch that movie, every time i see the character Gigi, i feel like seeing myself in different look, different age but the same condition.

and now i realize that maybe he's just not that into me. maybe it was all my imagination and dream to have him as someone who loves me more than just a friend. i keep expecting him to contact me first, but it never happens. and i just realize that when a guy doesn't contact you, it might just be that he just don't want to contact you. not that he's testing you or expecting you to contact him. as simple as that.

2011-01-02T18:37:00.003+07:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

2010 was a great year with lots of lessons that we get from the problems we had..

and i believe, 2011 is ready to "teach" us some more lessons with more problems ahead...

but don't be afraid or worried too much about them...

because however the situation is, mr.G will still always be there for us.. :)

new year, new chapter, new hope...

cheers! xoxo

2010-12-29T10:42:00.002+07:00

You might not feel what i feel...

You might take me totally just as a friend…
But you have to know..
You have to know how I feel truly..
You have to be told about how I feel deep inside my heart..
I actually have fallen in love with you…
I actually really feel that you’re the one..
But I think you won’t care..
I think you would never feel the same…
I think you would think that all this are just a joke..
Or you might think that I would get over this feeling just as you count the days..
But even I don’t know when will I get over you…
Even I don’t know when will I start to take you as a friend only 100%..
You might not care about me..
But I really do care for you A LOT…
You might never think about me…
But I never stop remembering about you ALL THE TIME..
And now even the fireworks can’t totally cheer me up…
Being alone by the pool doesn’t help me anymore..
And now, maybe you’re having fun and being happy with the one you love..
While I type this thing over the sea…
I know I should never avoid you…
Cuz however you’re still a friend of mine…
But sorry….
I don’t know until when can I stand this…
I’m not strong enough to see you while knowing that you have no special feelings towards me…
I’ve drank and drank and drank…
But even when I got drunk, I still can’t let myself forget about you…
I know this is not your fault…
This is my own fault by falling in love with you…
The person who I haven’t known for too long…
But somehow I feel you’re the one…
I feel like you’re the person who’s gonna love me truly..
From the deepest part of your heart..
But I guess I’m wrong..
I guess you’re not the one..
I guess you won’t be the one who loves me truly…
And now I think a lot…
About my “love life”…
And I realizes, maybe I’m rejected because I’m so unimportant for everyone…
Maybe I’m rejected because people never need me truly…
Maybe I don’t deserved to be loved…
Well..
They’re just maybe’s..
But sometimes, those maybe’s can be right..
Those maybe’s might be the fact…
To be honest, I’m afraid they’re the facts…
I’m afraid those maybe’s are right…
But I afraid more for knowing that you’re not the one..
I’m more afraid when I imagine you’ll walk in front of me with other girl that you love more…
So what should I do now??
I really don’t have any idea..
Can anyone tell me???

simple writing about my complicated mind.

2010-12-24T02:48:00.002+07:00

i might have written hundreds and hundreds of love poems...

and i know it sounds weird when i say those things to many different people..

makes me sounds like i can fall in love so easily...

but i don't care about it..

cuz this blog was made so i can pour out my feelings in the form of words..

like now,when i feel so rejected,so useless,so unimportant..

especially for that guy..

maybe people say that i should make myself think that it's his loss..not mine..

but somehow i feel unwanted now..

i feel like i might don't deserved to be loved...

and i still can't believe that i'm that bad and useless that no one had ever loved me truly..

and when i think i've found someone that could love me truly,,

he didn't even love me..

he just takes me as a friend..

nothing else..

now there's millions of questions that i want to ask to the Almighty..

cuz even though i know He always gives everyone the best that they need, not what they want,

but still, i can't really see His plan for me now..

i'm totally lost in my own life..

not knowing what to do next..

especially when i see that this guy is actually preferred my best friend instead of me..

i'm not sure anymore about what to do..

should i keep struggling and try to get him?

or should i let go, back off, and stop all this?

God,

if You're really there, all i want for this Christmas is just an answer for all of this..

i won't deny that i want him to love me truly..

but if it's just not the way You want it,

please Lord, let me know why and what should i do...

cuz i'm tired enough of being so lost in my own life..

Deep and Meaningless - Rooster

2010-11-29T13:24:00.000+07:00

I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

Chorus:
If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
(Damn that's sad)

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me

goodbye my angel...

2010-11-29T13:11:00.002+07:00

now i'm here,

alone again..

with no one accompanies me in the middle of this rain..

without you by my side..

and i guess you'll never be by my side anymore starting from today..

i can't handle this anymore..

i can't handle the pain..

the pain of being the third wheel..

i'm sorry for denying the promise..

the promise we shared before..

now i've got to let you go..

now i can't stand the pain anymore..

even though i really do want you,

but i'm too scared of the karma that would happen if i continue this..

i'm afraid you'll do the same thing to me..

and i know, if that happen, i will be so damn hurt..

so sorry dear..

i have to do this..

but believe in one thing,

i really do love you very much...

2nd of November :')

2010-11-02T14:03:00.003+07:00

02.11.09

it's the date i would never forget..

the day that one of my bestfriends left this world and moved to the Lord's kingdom...

the day that made me really sad that i cried so loudly at the gym..

i remembered that day..

i was at the gym..

i just finished my combat class...

i was laughing loudly looking at the silliness of my friends..

then i suddenly felt so lonely and weird at that time..

and when i checked my cellphone,

there was a lot of missed calls from Tasha..

then suddenly she called me again..

crying so loudly and said, "RJ has left us..."

i thought she was joking..

but then she cried and cried and cried..

then i realized that she's serious..

without thinking, i screamed to Arlene and said what Tasha just said to me...

i suddenly felt empty, frozen, lonely..

i just realized that the best guy in the class, the best leader that had ever lived, the best daddy of the class, had left..

i can do nothing..

i only felt that the time suddenly stopped..

then suddenly i couldn't contain myself, and i cried...

i cried so loudly..

cuz the person i truly believed, the person who never judged me, the person who's very meaningful for me had to come back to the Almighty's kingdom..

and now, it's 02.11.10..

i'm sitting here alone at this coffee shop..

thinking about that silly guy that has left the world and moved to heaven...

missing him so much that i might cry in this very second..

craving for his matureness and his gentleness..

but i started to realize that God must have plans so that He pulled RJ in a such young age..

plans for him, plans for us, plans for everyone..

and i realize that i shouldn't cry for him anymore..

cuz he's happy now up there..

and i bet he doesn't want us to be sad all the time anymore..

Lord,

please take care of RJ up there..

and also open our eyes, God..

so that we won't cry for him anymore..

cuz i bet he doesn't want the people he loves keep crying for him..

that's all i want to ask from You, Lord..

p.s.

RJ, WE ALL MISS YOU SO MUCH! wait for us up there okayy...

then we can do silly things and have fun again up there..

love you "daddyy"!!!

Xs and Os,

the gembelers!

dear RJ

2010-10-29T22:28:00.002+07:00

dear RJ,

hey there daddy..

how are you up there?

it's almost a year since you left..

we all miss you like crazy here..

do you miss us like we missed you???

in this one year,we all thought a lot about you...

we also talked about you too.. (well,i bet you know...)

but sadly most of those conversation ended with tears though...

i know you're happy now up there..

and i know you must be happier if your friends are happy too here..

but still,i can't lie to myself that i miss you so damn much man!

it's hard for me to stop crying for you when i remembered about you...

cuz you're one of the best guy friend that i've ever had...

but however,

i wrote this just to remind you that we all still remember you..

not just now i hope..

but forever...

i hope the "gembelers" will always remember you as the best leader that had ever led us..

love you J...

Xs and Os,

shilla :')

you

2010-10-28T13:21:00.004+07:00

when you're around, i can't stop laughing..

i can't stop smiling..

i can't deny that i always feel happy..

you always act the way you are..

you never pretend to be anyone else when you're with me..

i can always see the real you..

i know you're not mine..

i know you don't love me the way i do..

i know you love her so much..

but it's okay dear..

cuz i believe,

someday i can be yours and you'll be mine..

forever and ever..

p.s. even if it doesn't happen, i'm still okay...

cuz when you're happy, i can feel that happiness too.. :)

iluimuinu tikus jelek! :)

2010-10-23T23:28:00.003+07:00

we started as friends..

we had a lot of great times since then..

but then you left without saying anything to me..

now you suddenly show up again..

fill my life with all those happiness and laughs again..

my days seemed so clear and fun again..

now i have this "feeling" towards you..

but you have that girl that you've committed to..

and i can't force you to love me too..

it's okay for me..

cuz even by being your friend, i can still feel your love towards me..

even though not as your girl, but i believe you care and love me too..

thank God that i finally can find you again..

it makes my days mean a lot to me..

even physically i'm not yours,

but trust me dear, my heart is yours..

i might take other person as my boyfriend later on..

but you will always be the guy who fills my heart with all your love...

you are my friend, my special one, my everything..

2010-10-20T10:39:00.003+07:00

i know this is wrong..

showing your love to someone that is already in a relationship..

but i can't lie to myself..

my heart can't deny it..

i can't tell myself to avoid you..

cause i love you too much to do that..

too bad the timing is not right..

it's always been like that since long ago..

i don't know what HE meant by reuniting us again like this..

especially in this condition..

when you have that special girl in your heart and life..

well now all i can do is just be your bestfriend..

all i can do is just not letting you go again..

i want to learn to love 100%..

i want to learn to be happy when you're happy..

cause i believe that love doesn't mean i have to have you..

By My Side - David Choi

2010-10-20T10:38:00.000+07:00

I'm just listening to the clock go ticking,
I am waiting as the time goes by.
I think of you with every breath I take,
I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine.
You're all I see, in everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

All the fears you feel inside,
and all the tears you cry,
they're ending right here.
I'll heal your heart and soul;
I'll keep you oh so close.
Don't worry; I'll never let you go.
You're all I need, you're everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

No one else will ever do.
I got a stubborn heart for you.
Call me crazy, but its true; I love you.
I didn't think that it would be,
you have made it clear to me.
You're all I need.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

2010-10-11T14:23:00.002+07:00

hanging out free your mind!! :D

everything that i thought won't go off my mind,

disappear in a snap when i'm hanging out with my pals..

so if you have this problem or anything bad you have in mind,

just hang out with your friends..

try to refresh you mind...

friends,cigs,coffee,laptop.

those things definitely free my mind. :D

second chance :)

2010-10-11T13:56:00.004+07:00

second chance..

it's something you should earn.

it's not something that you an get in a click..

you have to fight for it..

just like i've fought for a second chance from him..

it's actually pretty hard to get..

but finally i can get it after a month of hard work..

for a month i've been trying to earn your trust and your love again..

and i finally did it..

thank you for this chance dear...

i promise not to disappoint you again..

i promise i won't let you down again..

love you dearr!!! :D

moving on

2010-07-22T01:25:00.002+07:00

people say moving on is not as hard as it seems..

and i believed them..

but now i started to doubt it..

it as been 3 months..

and i still can't really move on from you..

it's so hard for me not to think about you anymore..

i can't distract my mind to other people most of the time..

all i can think about is only you...

maybe i can pretend in front of my friends..

i can pretend that i'm over you already..

but actually i'm wearing this thick mask so people wouldn't know..

i'm acting this way so people won't think that i'm weak..

i want them to see me as a tough girl..

but now i can't stand it anymore..

i love you..

i still do..

my immortal - evanescence

2010-07-22T01:22:00.001+07:00

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

true friends?

2010-06-15T01:31:00.002+07:00

people say friends are easy to find..
i agree with them..
but how many of you really have true friends and sure about it?

to be honest, now i can't really trust some of my friends..
i feel that they are actually just friends who are not true friends...
they are all false friends...
and too bad, most of them are the people who i thought are my best friends...
they were never there when i need them..
they come and go just in a click..

how can i trust more people now when even my "best friends" leave me just in a snap?
aren't true friends should always be there when you need them?

graduation - vitamin c

2010-06-12T01:59:00.000+07:00

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excitedand we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1]
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
From whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

2010-06-03T23:10:00.002+07:00

at last i told him the truth that i like him..
he said nothing and shows no difference..
but somehow i can feel that something is different..
he tried to comfort me and tried to make me feel alright..
but honestly i really feel awkward...

i can't act the same as i used to be..
i have known that he's in love with my own friend..
but somehow, this time it feels different..

to be honest i'm afraid that he won't tell anything to me again..
i'm afraid he'll start to keep a distance with me..
i'm afraid he'll see me as a backstabber..

it's okay for me if he just takes me as a friend..
it's okay for me if he still tell stories about her to me..
but i don't want him to keep a distance or worse...
:'(

selfish or hurt yourself?

2010-06-02T16:54:00.002+07:00

be selfish or hurt yourself..
if you are in this position,what will you choose?
someone told me that being selfish is sometimes fun..
but you also have to know which one is the best..
i know we should never be selfish to our besties..
cuz true friends are hard to find..
but what if your decision will hurt you?
what if you decide to give what you want and it makes you sad?
will you give that to your friend,or will you be selfish and just take it?

2010-05-27T03:07:00.004+07:00

the silliest but also the best people i've ever known..
up left - down left:
dewi budiono . willy edwin nugroho . shilla budiarto (me!) . dominica levina . abigail tiffany tandry . david ali . felix manuel . pramana pangestu
LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

2010-05-26T16:23:00.002+07:00

if you love and it hurts, love more...
if it still hurts, love even more...
cuz you have to love 'til it hurts no more...
then it's called loving.. :')

2010-05-26T16:11:00.002+07:00

I MISS YOU!
I NEED YOU!
I WANNA GET BACK WITH YOU!!!!
i love you too much to forget about you..
why can't you feel it???

cure me please, mein schatje..

2010-05-26T15:26:00.003+07:00

i feel these days are so dull
i feel these days are not the same as it used to be...
i feel my heart is still broken, still torn into pieces..
i know that i have to move on and fix my own heart..
but you are the only one who can cure my heart..

now you have moved on and found another girl..
you have found another special girl who can replace my spot in your heart..
but why can't i do that to you too?
why can't i move on and stop thinking about you?

maybe i fell too deeply in love with you..
so deep that i can't get out of that feeling..
and in this deep hole of love,it's too dark..
so dark that i can't see anyone but you...
you've made my heart so numb..
so numb 'til i can't feel love from others anymore..

i need you to repair my heart, my dear..
i need you to lead me to get out of this darkness..
i need you to cure me who is now numb...
i can't feel any love except it came from you..
i can't be as comfort as i was so comfortable when i was with you...
i miss you mein schatje..

can't imagine if i was in her position... :'(

2010-05-26T15:24:00.001+07:00

A Boyfriend gave a challenge to his Girlfriend to live a day without him. No communications at all and said if she passed it, he will love her forever. The Girlfriend agreed. She did not text or call him the whole day.
Without knowing that her Boyfriend has only 24 hours to live because he's suffering from cancer.
She excitedly went to her Boyfriend's house the next day.
Tears fall as she saw her Boyfriend lying on the coffin with a note on the side. " you did it baby, can u do it everyday?
I LOVE YOU"..

repost from abbigail elizabeth's blog

2010-05-23T22:19:00.003+07:00

in this silent night,
i am alone
remembering those invisible memories
memories about you and me

i thought by burning those things i can burn your image inside my heart
but it seems like i was wrong..
i still remember about you and all things about us

why can't i get you out of my mind?
why can't i get rid of that story about us?
that story has ended
but my feelings towards you are endless..

2010-05-22T17:53:00.002+07:00

hang out.have fun.stop thinking about problems
it makes my world seems better..
even though i still think about you,
even though my world still sounds quiet
and i still feel lonely because you're not around,
but my friends can always cheer me up..
thx for always being here for me..
even though you guys can't replace him,
but you guys can cheer me up..
love you guys! :)

Don't Love You No More - Craig David

2010-05-19T23:28:00.003+07:00

For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this drag on so long
(i wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly games
(silly games)
Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you inner state
(inner state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl *boy* you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

the shooting star

2010-05-18T14:42:00.004+07:00

i wish there's a shooting star tonight...
cuz shooting stars are believed can make wishes come true...
and i have this one special wish..
and this wish is just for you...

I LOVE YOU SCHATJE
and i hope i love you all my life.. :D

aku disini untuk kamu..

2010-05-18T02:30:00.003+07:00

malam ini hening..cuma ditemenin sama tetesan air dari AC yang bocor..

aku masih aja inget2 kamu..

kamu yang pernah ada di hati,pikiran,bahkan binder aku..

kamu yang pernah ngisi hari2 aku dengan tawa,senyum,tangis,dan segala macem ekspresi dari yang normal ampe yang abnormal..

aku kangen kamu..

sama aja kayak anak kucing yang gabisa hidup tanpa induknya..

aku juga kayak gitu ke kamu...

aneh emang...

kalo anak kucing ama induknya kan jelas,

induk kucing yang ngasih makan anaknya..

nah kalo aku ke kamu?

kamu yang ngasih kebahagiaan setelah si br*ngs*k satu itu nyakitin aku..

kamu yang bisa ngebikin aku lupa sama dia..

dan sekarang aku di taro di posisi dimana aku harus ngelupain kamu...

susah banget..

sakit banget..

apalagi pas tau kamu udah sayang sama cewe lain sekarang..

rasanya ngenes nyelekit sakit banget...

kamu udah bisa move on dari aku..

kamu udah bisa nemuin cewe yang bisa ngegantiin posisi aku di hati kamu..

sedangkan aku?

aku masih nangis2 kayak anak kecil ilang di mall..

bedanya aku ilang di hati aku sendiri..

hati aku jangan2 ada labirinnya..

labirin yang berbentuk kamu..

aku gak tau sampai kapan aku bakal jadi orang tolol dan terus2an jadi kayak cewe gak laku dengan nungguin kamu terus dan nangisin kamu terus disini...

emang sakit..

tapi daripada aku harus nyakitin orang lain lagi dengan jadian ama orang itu tanpa ngerasa sayang ke dia,malah sayang sama kamu..

jadi yang harus kamu inget sekarang,

di saat kamu butuh orang buat nemenin kamu,

di saat kamu butuh orang buat nenangin kamu,

di saat kamu butuh orang buat dukung kamu,

aku bakal selalu ada disini..

even kalo kamu udah ngejar seseorang,dan kamu ga dapetin dia,

kamu harus inget kalo aku masih ada disini,

nungguin kamu..

aku sayang banget sama kamu..

dan aku ga akan ninggalin kamu.. :')

If You're Not the One - Daniel Bedingfield

2010-05-16T03:13:00.003+07:00

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know life so far away
But I know that its just a trip
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I'Ve build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

i'm waiting for you...

2010-05-15T21:06:00.002+07:00

being heartbroken sucks..
all you can think about is just that man and that man only..
and when you see his eyes and you only can see a usual stare,
that proves that he's not thinking about you anymore..
it hurts so much to see that directly..
and it's what i feel right now..
he's now just who he was..
he's different now..

now he falls for someone else..
someone he knows longer...
all you can do just wait for him and say nothing..
and that's what i can do right now..
i just can wait and nothing else..

boy,i just want you to know..
i love you even more than you know..
i need you more than everything..
and i don't care how much longer i have to wait for you,
but i'll be here..
waiting for you..
not gonna move or go anywhere..
just stay in this special corner and wait til you come back...
wait until you'll love me again..
just like you used to love me..

i love you dear schatje..
and i'm not gonna leave...
i promise..

one last cry - brian mcknight

2010-05-15T01:12:00.003+07:00

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands, standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess Im' down to my last cry

Cry......

I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on
And on.....

I'm gonna dry my eyes
Right after I had my
One last cry

Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you outta my mind for the very last time
Been living a lie
I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down...
To my last cry...

p.s even though i've stopped crying, i want you to remember that i'm still waiting for you..

even if it means i have to wait forever...

i promise...

I LOVE YOU SCHATJE

stupidness of me..

2010-05-13T21:56:00.004+07:00

i has been almost a month since we end this thing..

but somehow my feeling towards you hasn't ended yet..

i know i did a stupid thing by ending it..

it's stupid how a girl who still loves a boy ended it just like a click..

i can't forget how you used to brought so much happiness for me..

i can't leave all the memories we have been through..

i can't get rid of my feelings towards you..

i can't let you get off my mind even just for a second..

i was stupid by breaking up with you..

and even i was more stupid by date someone who i didn't love..

even though it feels right at that time,

but now i know that it's not..

it's actually was never right..

i should have known it..

so i would have never have this regret and had this feeling of losing someone i love..

i wish you would love me back again..

i wish you would take me back again..

i swear i'll do ANYTHING so you'll take me back again..

even if i have to stop anything i love,

if that guarantees will make you get back to me again,

i'll absolutely do it...

cuz 1 thing i know for sure,

i love you and i never want to lose you...

please i beg you to take me back...

please get back..

PITBULL'S CONCERT LIVE IN JAKARTA!!! 12-05-2010

2010-05-13T21:42:00.004+07:00

pitbull's concert rocked!!!

i didn't even realized that the crowd was sooooooo crowded..

i was at the front with dewi wulandari budiono, nadya nathan, and their friend, jenni..

it was really cool to watch him live..

for you guys who want to see the videos and pics,

here are the links:

How Low (Ludacris Remix) : http://bit.ly/dcqgin

Krazy (THIS IS A MUST-WATCH VIDEO!) : http://bit.ly/aJgiM0

picture of THE CROWD : http://tweetphoto.com/22189185

enjoy!

i want you back mein schatje..

2010-05-11T03:35:00.002+07:00

i can't smile without you

i can't laugh without you

i can't enjoy my life without you

i can't even focus without you

my life suck without you

i feel so dumb that i broke up with you

i feel so stupid deciding to live my life without you

you are the one who makes me enjoy my life..

but now you're gone from my life

now i have to live my life on my own

you might be there to support me

you might be there to back me up

you might also be there to cheer me up

but at this time,before all this,

you made me cry and feel down so badly..

i know you didn't mean to

i know you never mean to make me feel like this

this is all my fault..

i know it is..

i'm so sorry but i want you back..

even when you won't take me back,

i will still love you and i wish you do too..

2010-05-10T14:58:00.002+07:00

being single and just have fun with friends are sometimes the best ways to enjoy your life..

you don't have to think too much..

you don't have to focus on one person only..

you can flirt and play around..

i'm sorry for hurting you this way..

but i think it's better for us to stay this way..

at least for now,i can't focus on you..

and i don't want to hurt you more...

thanks for all you've done and given to me..

it all means a lot..

2010-05-08T03:19:00.004+07:00

i miss being called "schat" or "schatje"...

cuz i miss you mein schatje!

Big Big World - Emilia

2010-05-08T02:54:00.001+07:00

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*V1*
I can see the first leafs falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside

*Chorus*
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*V2*
Outside it's no raining
And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end

*Chorus*
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*V3*
I have your arms around me
Warm like fire
But when I open my eyes......
Your gone

*Chorus*
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*Chorus*

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing
If u leave me
But I do
Feel I will
Miss u much
miss u much

not 100% yours...

2010-05-08T02:28:00.003+07:00

we start this in a very short term of time..

but it all feel pretty well..

then suddenly i realize that i'm not really sure about my feeling..

i'm not sure about how i feel deep inside my heart..

i know i love you..

but i realize that the love that i feel is pretty unsure..

now i realize,

i don't know whether i love you as my lover,my brother,or just a special friend...

this might be too late for you..

this might hurt you..

i've tried my best not to hurt you..

but i think i'm failing..

i can't lie to myself..

i can't lie that i'm still in love with him..

i can't lie that he's still in my heart..

i can't lie that he's almost impossible to be replaced..

no matter how hard i tried to forget him,

no matter how hard i tried to let him go,

i can't let this feeling disappear...

sorry for letting you down,

sorry for hurting you so much,

i've tried to love you and take you as my boy..

but to be honest,

my heart is not 100% yours...

Another untitled love poem

2010-04-26T02:06:00.002+07:00

It was quiet and silent at that night

I was doing nothing and I started to feel alone...

But then you come,

You started to text and talk with me..

And it feels just alright..

We talked and chat and laugh together

And it all feels alright

But suddenly I felt this thing

And when I realized it, it's already too late..

I feel this thing is already too deep..

Too deep to be pulled off..

It's all because I'm in love with you..

So deeply in love that I can see no one but you..

Without you I feel so lonely..

Cuz you treat me just like a princess..

And a princess won't be complete without a prince..

But I think I'm complete now..

Cuz I've found my prince..

And my prince is YOU!

white horse - taylor swift

2010-04-24T17:20:00.003+07:00

Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now

But it's too late for you and your white horse

It's too late for you and your white horse to catch me now..

lonesome sadness

2010-04-19T23:39:00.002+07:00

my eyes are filled with tears..

my heart is filled by unbearable sadness..

why is this keep happening to me?

this torturing loneliness that keeps on attacking me..

why can't i live in the crowd that hold me off the lonesome life..

i thought he can help me through..

but i just realized that i was wrong..

i am still alone in this enormous,silent world..

could somebody help me,or at least accompany me here?

could somebody finally pull me out of this excruciating silence?

could somebody at last make my world go round again?

not just for a minute or two,

or just a year or a decade..

but forever and ever...

i wish somebody can at last be there for me whenever i need them..

i wish somebody can hold my hand through this dark,lucent world...

i wish i can have somebody i can count on..

it doesn't have to be someone who is perfect and inevitably faultless..

but i just want to have someone that i can count and rely on...

thank you mr. incredible.. :D

2010-04-19T19:57:00.003+07:00

he came to me like a ghost in the dark..

at first i can't feel a thing..

maybe because i'm not that sensitive to my surroundings..

but then i feel this weird feeling..

i feel like i'm in need of him..

i feel like i can't let myself go through this cruel life without him..

but then i get it..

i get that i need him as a friend only..

not more than that..

and luckily he feel the same way too...

thanks for being a person that has filled my days...

even i felt in love with you before,

but now i found somebody that is more suitable for me and understands me more than you..

and i thank God for it..

we might be a great team,

but i know that we're not suitable to be more than friends..

i love you though..

as a friend..

thank you mr. incredible..

you'll always be in my heart.. :)

another "RJ" poem.. :'(

2010-04-15T18:36:00.002+07:00

you filled my days with laughter..

you helped me to go through my problems..

you helped all of us in your own ways...

but now all of them are gone together with your presence..

now you're not here anymore to cheer us up when we are sad..

you had left and won't ever come back..

we all have to get used to it..

cuz you are not here and won't be here anymore..

and when we started to get used to it..

but all in a sudden,we miss you so much..

and i am missing you too right now..

you were such a great joker..

you were such a great leader..

you were such a perfect friend..

and you are always here in our heart...

we miss you ARNEIL JOSEPH A. CARAS..

2010-04-13T18:44:00.000+07:00

If a girl cries in front of u,

it means that she couldn’t take it anymore.

If u take her hand,

she would stay with u 4 the rest of ur life

If u let her go,

she couldn’t go back 2 being herself

anymore.

A girl won’t cry easily,

except in front of the person who she love the most

she becomes weak..

A girl won’t cry easily,

only when she love u the most,

she put down her ego..

Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of u,

please hold her hands firmly,

she’s the one who would stay with u 4 the rest of ur life

Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of u,

please don’t give her up,

maybe bcoz of ur decision, u ruin her life.

When she cry right in front of u,

When she cry bcoz of u,

Look into her eyes,

Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she’s feeling?

Think…

Which other girl have cried with pure,sincerity,

Infront of u,

And bcoz of u?

She cry not because she is weak,

She cry not bcoz she want sympathy or pity

She cry,

Because crying silently is no longer possible,

Guys,

Think about it,

If a girl cry her heart out 2 u,

And all because of u,

Its time 2 look back on what u have done to her,

Only u will know the answer..

Do consider it,

Coz one day,

It maybe 2 late 4 regrets,

It maybe 2 late 2 say “I’m sorry”

re-post from dominicalevina@blogspot.com

untitled love poem

2010-04-13T18:29:00.002+07:00

i was alone and lonely..

i was down like i was trapped in a very deep, dark hole..

i feel like no one wants me and care about me..

but you suddenly came into my life and changed it all..

you came and accompany me..

you even lifted me from that dark hole..

you make me feel like a princess..

a princess with a prince that is always ready to save her from loneliness..

my life isn't dark and lonely anymore..

my life is colorful and fun now..

after i found you,everything change..

even though i still have to deal with some problems,

but it's alright..

cuz i have you that will always support me..

you can be a friend,a brother and a lover at the same time..

and i wish that'll never end..

thank you for everything babe..

you will always have this special spot in my heart..

i love you Ratama Magyar Hutagalung..

shilla loves ♥♥♥

2010-04-06T01:53:00.024+07:00

- elysa adriana munster - prisca aninditya - rio bayu pratama - daniel effraim ganx - dominica levina - abigail tiffany tandry - ratama 'agai' magyar hutagalung - dicky 'toge' juniarto - ignatius roberto rama - dewi wulandari budiono - felix manuel - pramana pangestu - margaretha aurelia yulia - julia oetomo risachandra - icha ibrahim - kiki aditya - steven gozali - fransisca lauw - stephanie valentina ricci - anggie kristantio - fransisca natasha sutarna - arlene clarissa - nadia dannielle - abbigail 'bigel' elizabeth - debby cynthia - na-rae park - veronica chandrawati - sherlyn tjahyadi - bagas yoga danara - gregorius rivaldo - darren baharrizky - filbert anson - christine djoharsyah - aditya sunendra - aldie jacob - suvia tio - jane komaladi - calvin susanto - devis haspri - anni gunawan - hery khouw - ribka stefanie - vania yesica - joice samuely - joy benaya samuely - winnie lunardi - selvia djafar - benbiko gigir - raphael reyner - adela rinadi - karl nartates - chino nartates - karina mandala - elisa kuswari - brian valdez bombasi - paul adrian anatalio - bobby hartanto halim - priska pratiwi - edward wardoyo - nico tandias - richie tandias - gabriel 'bebep' rinadi - andreas kuswari - jeffri januar - david kumala arsanh - xaverius arsanh - cynthia erica - tertia erica - devita arianti - brigitta anastasia - dian mariana - michelle putri salim - amadea sekar saraswati - stefani djunaedi - clarissa mulia - zahrah adira salim - clarencia lie - rama dinara widyanta - adrian 'AH' halimi - steven philip surya - marcia winata - gisella claresta - sheryl elaine - ivana tania - teresa rikiputri - sibylle avelena loe - victor effendi halim - jordy marsono - harrison juwono - rene conrad julienne - benaya stephen - natasha djuhandi - martin ardian umbul - markus widjaya - jason calvin - rico manuel -

and all of you!! :D

2010-04-06T01:48:00.002+07:00

dance,games,friends,college,work..

those are the routine things you always do everyday..

sometimes i wish that you are not that busy..

cuz honestly sometimes i feel like you're not noticing me at all..

sometimes i feel like you don't have time for me..

even though i know that you never mean to do that to me..

but even though sometimes i feel you're just too busy,

i know that there'll always be time for me..

that's why no matter how busy you are,

i always remember that you still think about me..

and i want you to know that i don't care what those people say,

but i will still love you..

always...

2010-03-14T22:01:00.002+07:00

omg...

u're like my own kind of drug...

u made me addicted to your presence...

i love you schatje!

27 things we girls want guys to know

2010-03-12T23:12:00.002+07:00

1. yes, most of us like dressing up and looking good, putting eyeliners and lipgloss and other shits, but it's not like we do it to attract YOU. sorry we don't put too much effort to get the guys we want. it's your job. we dress up because we just love doing it, as much as dressing up our dolls when we were kids

2. i totally agree with Cassey. we underestimate guys who watch porn. its really immature. dude it's either you get someone real to sleep with instead of fantasizing, or just do nothing at all. kok susah?

3. "we just wanna be loved. we know it sounds pretty cliche but yeah thats pretty much all we want. being understood is not our first priority. if you love us that much you wont cheat, you will listen, and you'll definitely get our love and attention back." -Diane Yuri

4. "we ADORE guys who love their moms. we predict the way you treat your future wife by the way you treat your mom. no, we definitely dont want a mama's boy; we just want someone who actually loves & appreciates his mom from the bottom of his heart."-Diane Yuri

5. "we are charmed by boys who know how to cry. nope, not crybabies or over-sensitive boys. guys who actually know how to express their deepest emotions in the right time in the right way are just..hard to find. yes you all could act all superman-ish toward us sometimes, but yknow, we'd love to see the sensitive side of you. we dont consider it a weakness"

6. We don't like being pushed to do something. Anything. It doesn't have to be something that we hate. We just don't like being pushed. Period. The more you push us, the more we wouldn't do it for you.

7. "Don't ask us for sex on our first week. And don't keep asking us over and over and over again like a hornbag. It's a major turn-off" -Natasha Cinta Vinski

8. Constantly talking about ME ME ME ME ME doesn't impress us much. Well it doesn't mean we are not interested in getting to know you, it's just that we don't really fancy guys who are more interested on himself instead of interested on us. It just shows that you're more of a self-absorbed guy. Once in a while is fine, just not constantly.

9. Hey, don't expect us to ask for your number or making the first move. The only thing we do is sit, and you do the rest. That's how it works. Don't let your girl make the first move.

10. We like sweet little surprises. It doesn't always mean that we're such materialistic spoiled brat. And it doesn't have to be anything that costs a lot. We like guys who make us feel special and love. You can always hug us from the back unexpectedly, and you can try cooking for us. Even if it's turns out to taste so bad, we still think it's sweet. And it wouldn't turn us off.

11. "Being teased can be funny at times (well depends on what you're making fun of, and depends on what our mood is), but please, don't repeat it OVER and OVER and OVER again. not only it is rude, it is SO BLOODY ANNOYING." -Natasha Cinta Vinski

12. For God sake checking out of other girls do not make us feel special. We want to be the only girl you see, okay? Or at least don't talk about it in front of us, it's inappropriate. Well this only work if you're trying to attract us.

13. We think it's sweet if you remember small details about us, ( e.g: like how we always touch our hair when we're nervous, or how we always clench our fingers when we're holding our bladder, or how we always order another glass with ice cubes when eating out) it's really sweet. It shows us that you care about us.

14. We hate guys who are trying to look cool. Like showing-off his physical abilities, or how he runs 500 miles a day to keep fit, or pretend to like bands that are in trend or bands that sound cool while he doesn't really like them, or how he's trying to drop hints that he is a player for the sake of looking cool. We hate it. Just act normal for the love of God. And no dropping hints to show-off please. We notice. We're totally fine if you like mushy mellow music, or if you are not a jerk, we love it.

15. DO NOT EVER EVER EVER COMPARE US TO OTHER GIRLS. If you find it that we're just at least the same as other girls, go find a girl that is totally the opposite of us then. We want you to be interested in us because you can see something different in us than the other girls. We don't like being played, nor we like being just another girl.

16. When you get busted by us being douchebags with your friends like one of your friend talked about when he ditched his date for a video-game, do NOT give us an excuse that "It is just a guy thing". it doesn't make you less of a jerk. As you may have known, we fucking hate jerks. It doesn't make you look any cooler.

17. Acting cute and nice to get girls to all girls you know is pathetic. And we consider that as an act of desperation. No it doesn't make us feel sorry. We laugh about it with our girls. You just don't know.

18. Your money do not attract girls who are not shallow. Well it's a different story if you're trying to attract shallow, stupid, incompetent, cheap girls.

19. Not all of us girls like sex. And when we say that we're not interested, we're not denying.

20. Pointing out the good things you've done for us when we're fighting is pathetic. It shows us that you weren't genuine when you did it, and the next time you're going to do it we're not going to let you do so.

21. A little phonecall from a guy we really like can make our most terrible day wonderful :) Vice versa if we think that the guy is a creep.

22. Fashion is for women. It's not for guys. Or at least straight guys. Don't wear complicated clothes, especially if it's even more complicated than our clothes. It doesn't mean you are free to look shitty and still having us interested. Just keep it simple and decent.

23. Guys, stay away from tucking in your t-shirt to your pants, cheap shoes, turtlenecks, and cargo-pants, jogging shoes, thin-framed glasses, and overly baggy or tight jeans and tops. And wearing pink makes you look gay. Hands down.

24. Guys with good manners and great sense of humor never fail to impress us.

25. We find it kind of retarded when you are SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO obsessed with videogames as if it is your hot sexi wife.

26. "STOP TELLING YOUR GIRL TO LOOK HOT. We're supposed to be beautiful in your eyes no matter how crappy we look if you really accept us for what we are" -Su Lyn Ng

27. You don't deserve us at our best if you can't handle us at our worst times.

re-post from Dominica Levina @facebook notes

i love you!!!! :)

2010-03-09T23:42:00.006+07:00

i just read a story about a guy who sacrifices his life for the girl he loves..
he asks the girl to say that she loves him,
he asks the girl to hug him for one last time,
then he asks the girl to wear his helmet cuz he knows that his motorcycle brake is broken..
and that makes me realize,
how we should say how we love someone before it's all too late..
not only saying how we love someone though,
but also do all the things we want to do for someone..
cuz we don't know when will HE "call" us and tell us that our life in this world is over..

that's why,
through this post i want to say that i love you guys so much..
my family,my friends,my (ex)boyfriend..

I LOVE YOU MOM, DAD, SIS, GRANNY, AGAI, SISCA, FANI, ANGGIE, LELE (both leles), NADYA, WINNIE, TIFFANY, TOGE, ICHA, KIKI, FELIX, PRAM, DEBBY, NA-RAE, NATASHA, BIGEL, BAGAS, MIMI, DEA, NONIE, ABENK, VERO, SHERLYN, ICHA, AND ALL OF YOU MY FRIENDS! smoochh!!!!! :*

2010-03-09T00:05:00.001+07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENBIKO GIGIR!!!!!

CIEEEE YANG KEPALA DUAAA!!!!!!! :P

WISH YOU ALL THE BEST!!! :D

especially for you... :)

2010-03-08T23:23:00.002+07:00

this is a new story about me and him..

but i don't know why it feels like it has happened for a long time..

i feel like we have travel this road of love for a long time..

i feel different this time..

i don't have to pretend to be someone else when i'm with him..

i can just be myself all the time..

so weird, but i love it..

he says he can't say "i love you" that easily..

but he says it lots of time when he's with me..

and i know that he means it..

he says he rarely loves a girl so much in such a short period of time..

but he says that he does love me so much since the day we start dating..

and i can feel it since then til now..

and now i just wanna say to you that

you are so different..

you're one in a million..

you mean a lot for me..

even though we haven't meet the problems in our relationship,

but i don't know how and why,

i feel like i'm ready for those problems..

cause i know that when those problems come, i will still have you right by my side..

i will still have you loving me..

and don't you worry..

i will also be here for you..

i will always be here when you need me..

i will be here when you're happy or sad..

i promise you that i will do anything that i can do for you...

doesn't matter whatever it costs me..

i will be here for you...

so don't you ever think about bad things about us..

don't you ever think that you don't worth me..

cause for me you are perfect..

even though i know that nobody's perfect,

but at least you're real close to perfect..

that makes me think that you are perfect for me...

so don't you ever think that you don't worth me..

cause sometimes i'm the one who can't believe that i can have you by my side..

i might not be that kind..

i might not be that pretty..

i might not be that perfect..

but i love you that much..

i love you Ratama Magyar Hutagalung..

now and i hope forever... :)

women's strengths :)

2010-03-08T23:18:00.003+07:00

a woman has strengths that amaze men..

she can handle troubles and carry heavy burdens..

she holds happiness,love and opinions..

she smiles when she feels like screaming..

she sings when she feels like crying..

cries when she's happy and laughs when she's afraid..

her love is unconditional!

there's only one thing wrong with her,

she sometimes forgets what she is worth...

re-post from nadya nathan.