the silliest but also the best people i've ever known..
up left - down left:
dewi budiono . willy edwin nugroho . shilla budiarto (me!) . dominica levina . abigail tiffany tandry . david ali . felix manuel . pramana pangestu
LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

if you love and it hurts, love more...
if it still hurts, love even more...
cuz you have to love 'til it hurts no more...
then it's called loving.. :')

I MISS YOU!
I NEED YOU!
I WANNA GET BACK WITH YOU!!!!
i love you too much to forget about you..
why can't you feel it???

cure me please, mein schatje..

i feel these days are so dull
i feel these days are not the same as it used to be...
i feel my heart is still broken, still torn into pieces..
i know that i have to move on and fix my own heart..
but you are the only one who can cure my heart..

now you have moved on and found another girl..
you have found another special girl who can replace my spot in your heart..
but why can't i do that to you too?
why can't i move on and stop thinking about you?

maybe i fell too deeply in love with you..
so deep that i can't get out of that feeling..
and in this deep hole of love,it's too dark..
so dark that i can't see anyone but you...
you've made my heart so numb..
so numb 'til i can't feel love from others anymore..

i need you to repair my heart, my dear..
i need you to lead me to get out of this darkness..
i need you to cure me who is now numb...
i can't feel any love except it came from you..
i can't be as comfort as i was so comfortable when i was with you...
i miss you mein schatje..

can't imagine if i was in her position... :'(

A Boyfriend gave a challenge to his Girlfriend to live a day without him. No communications at all and said if she passed it, he will love her forever. The Girlfriend agreed. She did not text or call him the whole day.
Without knowing that her Boyfriend has only 24 hours to live because he's suffering from cancer.
She excitedly went to her Boyfriend's house the next day.
Tears fall as she saw her Boyfriend lying on the coffin with a note on the side. " you did it baby, can u do it everyday?
I LOVE YOU"..

repost from abbigail elizabeth's blog

in this silent night,
i am alone
remembering those invisible memories
memories about you and me

i thought by burning those things i can burn your image inside my heart
but it seems like i was wrong..
i still remember about you and all things about us

why can't i get you out of my mind?
why can't i get rid of that story about us?
that story has ended
but my feelings towards you are endless..

hang out.have fun.stop thinking about problems
it makes my world seems better..
even though i still think about you,
even though my world still sounds quiet
and i still feel lonely because you're not around,
but my friends can always cheer me up..
thx for always being here for me..
even though you guys can't replace him,
but you guys can cheer me up..
love you guys! :)

Don't Love You No More - Craig David

For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this drag on so long
(i wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly games
(silly games)
Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you inner state
(inner state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl *boy* you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

the shooting star

i wish there's a shooting star tonight...
cuz shooting stars are believed can make wishes come true...
and i have this one special wish..
and this wish is just for you...

I LOVE YOU SCHATJE
and i hope i love you all my life.. :D

aku disini untuk kamu..

malam ini hening..cuma ditemenin sama tetesan air dari AC yang bocor..

aku masih aja inget2 kamu..

kamu yang pernah ada di hati,pikiran,bahkan binder aku..

kamu yang pernah ngisi hari2 aku dengan tawa,senyum,tangis,dan segala macem ekspresi dari yang normal ampe yang abnormal..

aku kangen kamu..

sama aja kayak anak kucing yang gabisa hidup tanpa induknya..

aku juga kayak gitu ke kamu...

aneh emang...

kalo anak kucing ama induknya kan jelas,

induk kucing yang ngasih makan anaknya..

nah kalo aku ke kamu?

kamu yang ngasih kebahagiaan setelah si br*ngs*k satu itu nyakitin aku..

kamu yang bisa ngebikin aku lupa sama dia..

dan sekarang aku di taro di posisi dimana aku harus ngelupain kamu...

susah banget..

sakit banget..

apalagi pas tau kamu udah sayang sama cewe lain sekarang..

rasanya ngenes nyelekit sakit banget...

kamu udah bisa move on dari aku..

kamu udah bisa nemuin cewe yang bisa ngegantiin posisi aku di hati kamu..

sedangkan aku?

aku masih nangis2 kayak anak kecil ilang di mall..

bedanya aku ilang di hati aku sendiri..

hati aku jangan2 ada labirinnya..

labirin yang berbentuk kamu..

aku gak tau sampai kapan aku bakal jadi orang tolol dan terus2an jadi kayak cewe gak laku dengan nungguin kamu terus dan nangisin kamu terus disini...

emang sakit..

tapi daripada aku harus nyakitin orang lain lagi dengan jadian ama orang itu tanpa ngerasa sayang ke dia,malah sayang sama kamu..

jadi yang harus kamu inget sekarang,

di saat kamu butuh orang buat nemenin kamu,

di saat kamu butuh orang buat nenangin kamu,

di saat kamu butuh orang buat dukung kamu,

aku bakal selalu ada disini..

even kalo kamu udah ngejar seseorang,dan kamu ga dapetin dia,

kamu harus inget kalo aku masih ada disini,

nungguin kamu..

aku sayang banget sama kamu..

dan aku ga akan ninggalin kamu.. :')

If You're Not the One - Daniel Bedingfield

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know life so far away
But I know that its just a trip
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I'Ve build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

i'm waiting for you...

being heartbroken sucks..
all you can think about is just that man and that man only..
and when you see his eyes and you only can see a usual stare,
that proves that he's not thinking about you anymore..
it hurts so much to see that directly..
and it's what i feel right now..
he's now just who he was..
he's different now..

now he falls for someone else..
someone he knows longer...
all you can do just wait for him and say nothing..
and that's what i can do right now..
i just can wait and nothing else..

boy,i just want you to know..
i love you even more than you know..
i need you more than everything..
and i don't care how much longer i have to wait for you,
but i'll be here..
waiting for you..
not gonna move or go anywhere..
just stay in this special corner and wait til you come back...
wait until you'll love me again..
just like you used to love me..

i love you dear schatje..
and i'm not gonna leave...
i promise..

one last cry - brian mcknight

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands, standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess Im' down to my last cry

Cry......

I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on
And on.....

I'm gonna dry my eyes
Right after I had my
One last cry

Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you outta my mind for the very last time
Been living a lie
I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down...
To my last cry...

p.s even though i've stopped crying, i want you to remember that i'm still waiting for you..

even if it means i have to wait forever...

i promise...

I LOVE YOU SCHATJE

stupidness of me..

i has been almost a month since we end this thing..

but somehow my feeling towards you hasn't ended yet..

i know i did a stupid thing by ending it..

it's stupid how a girl who still loves a boy ended it just like a click..

i can't forget how you used to brought so much happiness for me..

i can't leave all the memories we have been through..

i can't get rid of my feelings towards you..

i can't let you get off my mind even just for a second..

i was stupid by breaking up with you..

and even i was more stupid by date someone who i didn't love..

even though it feels right at that time,

but now i know that it's not..

it's actually was never right..

i should have known it..

so i would have never have this regret and had this feeling of losing someone i love..

i wish you would love me back again..

i wish you would take me back again..

i swear i'll do ANYTHING so you'll take me back again..

even if i have to stop anything i love,

if that guarantees will make you get back to me again,

i'll absolutely do it...

cuz 1 thing i know for sure,

i love you and i never want to lose you...

please i beg you to take me back...

please get back..

PITBULL'S CONCERT LIVE IN JAKARTA!!! 12-05-2010

pitbull's concert rocked!!!

i didn't even realized that the crowd was sooooooo crowded..

i was at the front with dewi wulandari budiono, nadya nathan, and their friend, jenni..

it was really cool to watch him live..

for you guys who want to see the videos and pics,

here are the links:

How Low (Ludacris Remix) : http://bit.ly/dcqgin

Krazy (THIS IS A MUST-WATCH VIDEO!) : http://bit.ly/aJgiM0

picture of THE CROWD : http://tweetphoto.com/22189185

enjoy!

i want you back mein schatje..

i can't smile without you

i can't laugh without you

i can't enjoy my life without you

i can't even focus without you

my life suck without you

i feel so dumb that i broke up with you

i feel so stupid deciding to live my life without you

you are the one who makes me enjoy my life..

but now you're gone from my life

now i have to live my life on my own

you might be there to support me

you might be there to back me up

you might also be there to cheer me up

but at this time,before all this,

you made me cry and feel down so badly..

i know you didn't mean to

i know you never mean to make me feel like this

this is all my fault..

i know it is..

i'm so sorry but i want you back..

even when you won't take me back,

i will still love you and i wish you do too..

being single and just have fun with friends are sometimes the best ways to enjoy your life..

you don't have to think too much..

you don't have to focus on one person only..

you can flirt and play around..

i'm sorry for hurting you this way..

but i think it's better for us to stay this way..

at least for now,i can't focus on you..

and i don't want to hurt you more...

thanks for all you've done and given to me..

it all means a lot..

i miss being called "schat" or "schatje"...

cuz i miss you mein schatje!

Big Big World - Emilia

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*V1*
I can see the first leafs falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside

*Chorus*
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*V2*
Outside it's no raining
And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end

*Chorus*
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*V3*
I have your arms around me
Warm like fire
But when I open my eyes......
Your gone

*Chorus*
I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

*Chorus*

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing
If u leave me
But I do
Feel I will
Miss u much
miss u much

not 100% yours...

we start this in a very short term of time..

but it all feel pretty well..

then suddenly i realize that i'm not really sure about my feeling..

i'm not sure about how i feel deep inside my heart..

i know i love you..

but i realize that the love that i feel is pretty unsure..

now i realize,

i don't know whether i love you as my lover,my brother,or just a special friend...

this might be too late for you..

this might hurt you..

i've tried my best not to hurt you..

but i think i'm failing..

i can't lie to myself..

i can't lie that i'm still in love with him..

i can't lie that he's still in my heart..

i can't lie that he's almost impossible to be replaced..

no matter how hard i tried to forget him,

no matter how hard i tried to let him go,

i can't let this feeling disappear...

sorry for letting you down,

sorry for hurting you so much,

i've tried to love you and take you as my boy..

but to be honest,

my heart is not 100% yours...