easy to fall for a person.

yeap. that's me.

and i kinda hate that part of me.

it makes me fall for you,

even though i don't know you that well.

there are actually lots of difference that i should have thought before.

you're a lot older than me.

and the worst,

you've found your "soulmate" and marry her.

even though i don't really know your relationship with her now.

but to be honest, i'm afraid.

afraid of falling in love with you.

afraid you've been lying to me about her.

afraid all that i thought about you are wrong.

and if i was wrong,

it means i'm repeating my own mistake.

and i don't want that.

on the other side,

i can't lie that i've fallen for you.

i can't lie that i feel very comfortable with you.

and i can't lie that i actually don't want to lose you.

at least for now.

the busy big road and the simple small alley

here in this city lots of roads i can find

there are big boulevards that are neatly made

but other than that there are alleys too

alleys that are small and messy

the big roads might seemed secure and safe

but those roads are usually too crowded and it makes it stuck

while the alleys are small and unexpectedly smooth

because not many people know where it goes and are familiar with it

just like you are

you might be messy, unorganized and seemed like nothing

but for people that already knew you,

you have your own special value

and now i realized that i've found it

and it makes you be that dead end alley that i can't turn back from

always does, always will

my mind might says no...

but my heart always says yes..

my friends might forbid me to love you..

but i won't even bother to listen to any of their sayings..

the whole world might scold me

all people i know might leave me alone

but it doesn't matter for me

and you might be wondering and ask me why

so let me answer your question..

that's because i want no one but you

i need no one but you

having you in my life is all i ever wanted

i love you more than i've ever loved anyone else..

and i want you to stay for my whole life..

cuz you are my love..

always does, always will..

people ask when will i stop loving

i answer them without thinking

i will stop when the sun stops shining..

i will stop when the earth stop spinning..

dilemmatic letter for you..

a part of my heart says i should always be with you..

another part of me says i should stay away and listen to my friends..

you said i should listen to my heart and stop listening to the others..

you said i should follow my heart cuz it never lies..

but how can i follow it if i can't even hear it..

how can i decide when my heart is having a dilemma too..

i don't want to leave you..

but i can't stand this anymore..

i want to stand by you through this..

but i don't know when will my logics start to work..

and i know if it works,and you're not healed yet,

it means i won't be there for you anymore..

i'm sorry i can't fulfill my promises to you,

to always be with you in your hardest time..

i know i'm not a good girlfriend if i do that..

i'm mean and i don't deserve you..

but i can't handle this anymore..

dear RJ..

hey J..

how are you up there??

it's been 2 years now since we last met you here...

we all really miss you..

and personally, i still can't erase the memories i've had with you...

the fun things we've done together,

the ways you've done to cheer me up everytime i have problems,

and all the stuffs you've done for me...

even though i'm fine now, but still, i miss the jokes you've made and all the silly stuffs you've done...

well, i know that we weren't supposed to be sad right now cuz you're happy now..

but i bet you know how it feels to miss someone, especially when you know you won't see them anymore...

anyways, i believe that you're now watching us from up there..guarding each and every one of your best friends from the heaven..

we love you J...

this version of Wedding Dress (which was originally sang by Tae Yang) really sounds like the voice of my heart...it's saying the words that i want to say...

even though he's not married yet, but this is how i would feel when he gets married one day...

i really wish that i could get my second chance...

well anyways, here's a video from a youtube account called babyjennuine..hope she doesn't mind that i copied her video url and pasted it here..enjoy.. :)

url : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zh6fNiJS4xc&feature=related

Lyrics:

Should of never let you go
Should of told you how I felt
should of never let my pride get in our way
Should of kept you by my side
when I, I had the chance
But I let you slip away
My worst mistake was on that day
And it's been five years
since the day we grew apart
Though we have someone new
my heart just won't let go of you
And now it's too late
cause I'm tryna turn the pages back
when you're just skipping ahead of our story

baby do you still have a place in your heart for me
cause i've been thinking lately
that you're the one that makes my heart complete
and i don't wanna see you down the aisle with nobody else but me
Even though she's walking through that door
with my dreams and taking my place
with that wedding dress (dress dress)
in my wedding dress (dress dress)
with that wedding dress (dress dress)
in my wedding dress (dress dress)
in my wedding dress..

Baby just stop for a moment
Baby look into my eyes
Can't you see the lies behind this smile of mine
though I said congratulations
I I'm happy for you
Can't you see this love was only made just for you and I
Everytime that I try
something keeps pulling me back
From telling you the truth
That I never moved on from you
And now it's too late
Cause I'm still stuck here in our past
while you're moving ahead with your story

here comes the bride
all dressed in white
and it's a damn shame the bride isn't me

Happily ever after
that's how all fairytale ends with
So why am I with the crowd
Watching you devote your life
but not with me

Wedding Dress - Tae Yang

니가 그와 다투고
niga geuwa datugo
때론 그 땜에 울고
ttaeron geu ttaeme ulgo
힘들어 할 때면 난 희망을 느끼고
himdeureo hal ttaemyeon nan huimangeul neukkigo
아무도 모르게 맘 아-아-아프고
amudo moreuge mam a-a-apeugo
니작은 미소면 또 담담해지고
nijageun misomyeon tto damdamhaejigo

니가 혹시나 내 마음을 알게 될까봐
niga hoksina nae maeumeul alge doelkkabwa
알아버리면 우리 멀어지게 될까봐
arabeorimyeon uri meoreojige doelkkabwa
난 숨을 죽여
nan sumeul jug yeo
또 입술을 깨물어
tto ipsureul kkaemureo
제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길
jebal geureul tteona naege ogil

Baby 제발 그의 손을 잡지마
Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima
Cuz you should be my Lady
오랜 시간 기다려온 날 돌아봐줘
oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo

노래가 울리면 이제 너는
noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun
그와 평생을 함께하죠
geuwa pyeongsaengeul hamkkehajyo
오늘이 오지 않기를
oneuri oji ankireul
그렇게 나 매일 밤 기도했는데
geureoke na maeil bam gidohaenneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

내 맘을 몰라줬던
nae mameul mollajwotdeon
네가 너무 미워서
nega neomu miwoseo
가끔은 네가 불행하길 난 바랬어
gakkeumeun nega bulhaenghagil nan baraesseo
이미 내 눈물은 다 마 마 마르고
imi nae nunmureun da ma ma mareugo
버릇처럼 혼자 너에게 말하고
beoreutcheoreom honja neoege malhago

매일 밤 그렇게 불안했던걸 보면 난
maeil bam geureoke buranhaetdeongeol bomyeon nan
이렇게 될꺼란 건 알았는지도 몰라
ireoke doelkkeoran geon aranneunjido molla
난 눈을 감아
nan nuneul gama
끝이 없는 꿈을 꿔
kkeuchi eomneun kkumeul kkwo
제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길
jebal geureul tteona naege ogil

Baby 제발 그의 손을 잡지마
Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima
Cuz you should be my Lady
오랜 시간 기다려온 날 돌아봐줘
oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo

노래가 울리면 이제 너는
noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun
그와 평생을 함께하죠
geuwa pyeongsaengeul hamkkehajyo
오늘이 오지 않기를
oneuri oji ankireul
그렇게 나 매일 밤 기도했는데
geureoke na maeil bam gidohaenneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

부디 그와 행복해
budi geuwa haengbokhae
너를 잊을 수 있게
neoreul ijeul su itge
내 초라했던 모습들은 다 잊어줘
nae chorahaetdeon moseupdeureun da ijeojwo
비록 한동안은
birok handonganeun
 no oh
나 죽을 만큼 힘이 들겠지만
na jugeul mankeum himi deulgetjiman no oh

너무 오랜 시간을 착각 속에
neomu oraen siganeul chakgak soge
홀로 바보처럼 살았죠
hollo babocheoreom saratjyo
아직도 내 그녀는 날 보고
ajikdo nae geunyeoneun nal bogo
새 하얗게 웃고 있는데
sae hayake utgo inneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

TRANSLATIONS

I would argue
Then you would cry
As you’re struggling, I would only get stronger
My heartaches behind these shadows
My face brightens up as I see your smile
I worry that you might notice my feelings
And I get scared that the gap between us would widen
I hold my breath
Then I bite my lips
Then I pray that she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

You, who never understood my feelings
Because of that, I ended up despising you
Then I wished a misfortune upon you
But now, my eyes are dry
I try to talk to you but I realized that I’m alone
Every night, I would look back and think
If I already knew the results
Then I close my eyes
Then I dream an endless dream
Then I pray she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

By all means, be happy with him
So I can move on
Please erase me out of your heart
Although I tried my best but, no oh~

I’ve been living the lies for too long
Yet, she would look at me and smile.