2nd of November :')

02.11.09

it's the date i would never forget..

the day that one of my bestfriends left this world and moved to the Lord's kingdom...

the day that made me really sad that i cried so loudly at the gym..

i remembered that day..

i was at the gym..

i just finished my combat class...

i was laughing loudly looking at the silliness of my friends..

then i suddenly felt so lonely and weird at that time..

and when i checked my cellphone,

there was a lot of missed calls from Tasha..

then suddenly she called me again..

crying so loudly and said, "RJ has left us..."

i thought she was joking..

but then she cried and cried and cried..

then i realized that she's serious..

without thinking, i screamed to Arlene and said what Tasha just said to me...

i suddenly felt empty, frozen, lonely..

i just realized that the best guy in the class, the best leader that had ever lived, the best daddy of the class, had left..

i can do nothing..

i only felt that the time suddenly stopped..

then suddenly i couldn't contain myself, and i cried...

i cried so loudly..

cuz the person i truly believed, the person who never judged me, the person who's very meaningful for me had to come back to the Almighty's kingdom..

and now, it's 02.11.10..

i'm sitting here alone at this coffee shop..

thinking about that silly guy that has left the world and moved to heaven...

missing him so much that i might cry in this very second..

craving for his matureness and his gentleness..

but i started to realize that God must have plans so that He pulled RJ in a such young age..

plans for him, plans for us, plans for everyone..

and i realize that i shouldn't cry for him anymore..

cuz he's happy now up there..

and i bet he doesn't want us to be sad all the time anymore..

Lord,

please take care of RJ up there..

and also open our eyes, God..

so that we won't cry for him anymore..

cuz i bet he doesn't want the people he loves keep crying for him..

that's all i want to ask from You, Lord..

p.s.

RJ, WE ALL MISS YOU SO MUCH! wait for us up there okayy...

then we can do silly things and have fun again up there..

love you "daddyy"!!!

Xs and Os,

the gembelers!