my schatje.. :)

you understands me..

you care about me..

you are always honest to me..

and those three things are all i need..

you drop me home when you picked me up..

you hold my hand when i feel worry..

you never pretend to be someone else when you're with me..

and those three things are all i wanted for you to do..

you're such a gentleman..

you're a kind-hearted person..

you're a very easy-going person..

and the most important of all,

you love me with your whole heart and accept me the way i am..

those things has made me love you..

those things made me forget about all problems..

those things made me fall for you..

and i know you do too..

i love you my schatje..

and i hope this will stay forever,til death tear us apart... :)

Sahabat Sejati

Sahabat sejatiku, hilangkah dari ingatanmu

Di hari kita saling berbagi

Dengan kotak sejuta mimpi, aku datang menghampirimu

Kuperlihat semua hartaku 

Kita s’lalu berpendapat, kita ini yang terhebat

Kesombongan di masa muda yang indah 

Aku raja kaupun raja 

Aku hitam kaupun hitam 

Arti teman lebih dari sekedar materi   

Reff. Pegang pundakku, jangan pernah lepaskan 

Bila ku mulai lelah… lelah dan tak bersinar 

Remas sayapku, jangan pernah lepaskan 

Bila ku ingin terbang… terbang meninggalkanmu

Ku s’lalu membanggakanmu, kaupun s’lalu menyanjungku 

Aku dan kamu darah abadi 

Demi bermain bersama, kita duakan segalanya 

Merdeka kita, kita merdeka  

Tak pernah kita pikirkan ujung perjalanan ini            

Tak usah kita pikirkan akhir perjalanan ini

dedicated to My Besties... 

Love you guys... :)

things that make me love you

you just said little simple things to me..

just so I don't think about bad things about you..

you said I made you happy cuz I'm always nice to you..

and those are simple and just some ordinary words for you..

but for me those are very special..

why you ask?

because it came from you!

all you've said are just simple.

and you're kind, spontaneous, and pure,

those are just the things that make me love you!

love sick hurts more than any illness that exists..

happy valencia day ppl! :D

hey everyone!

i just wanna say happy valentine's day and happy lunar new year!!!

wish u guys will have a prosperous and happy year for this whole new year!!and because this lunar new year happens to be a valentine's day too,maybe this year would be full of love too! :D

i miss you RJ...

hey RJ...

how r u up there??

i miss you so much dude..there are lots of things that i wanna share with you...

about my family life,,our school,,even my love life...

i miss how we used to laugh together,how we feel angry to the school,how you calm us down...

all of them!

i miss how you used to eat the canteen's "mie goreng"...

i miss how you used to play soccer for the school....

i miss how you used to sing arsenal's anthem...

and i miss how you used to help me or even calm me down when i have problems...

you'll always be the best-est friend we all had ever have...

you'll always be the best "dad" for us...

you''ll always be the best class leader we had ever have..

you'll always be in our hearts..

you'll always be in our minds..

you'll always be the best person that everyone had ever known...

dad, i need you right now...

i need you to cheer me up..

i need you to help me in this kind of problem...

please come back and stay with me...

we all *especially me* need you...!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU RJ..! the daddy,the class leader,everyone's best friend...

i love you guys SO MUCH..

you're my friend

and one of the best

while he's my love

the one that i want

now he's in trouble and he needs someone

i wanted to help him but i can't..

he doesn't trust me as much as he does to you

it's okay for me...

i know he's sad or even mad right now

he might wanna be alone

and i won't ask him about anything

cuz i don't have the guts as much as you have, my friend..

i do love him..

i really do..

but it's okay if you do too..

cuz i think you're the one he needed..

you can make him smile, even laugh at these kinds of moment..

and i'm happy as long as you two are happy too..

cuz i love you both and i want you two to be happy..

however it is, whatever it costs me..

i LOVE february! :D

i february!!

even though lots of problems came this far,

the world still seemed so beautiful!

chinese new year is coming together with valentine day..

it means it will be celebrated full of love..ain't it?

well i hope so.. :D

and as far as this month go,this month is full of love already!

especially for me! LOL. :D

and i hope it does too for you guys.. :)

by the way,,

i wanna wish for AJ to get well soon!

i know this "typhoid symptoms" thingy is gonna be cured soon..and i hope so..

cuz we all miss you and your class so much dude! :)

and for the rest of you guys,,

ENJOY FEBRUARY!!!the month of love! :P

kuingin berhenti menyayangimu...

kuingin membencimu,tapi mengapa itu tak bisa kulakukan?

kuingin berhenti menyayangimu,tapi hal itu tampak tak mungkin bagiku..

kuingin mencari orang lain,tapi cuma kamu yang mengisi hatiku..

terlalu besar rasa sayangku padamu..

terlalu dalam perasaan ini telah tertanam..

terlalu indah kenangan yang kamu berikan selama ini..

walau kutahu mungkin kamu sama sekali tak ada maksud yang spesial..

kutahu yang kamu inginkan hanya berteman dengan semua orang..

menangis lagi yang bisa kulakukan saat ini..

terluka lagi hatiku karena harapanku terhadapmu..

sebab sesulit apapun aku berusaha melupakanmu,

bagaimanapun aku mencari cara untuk berhenti,

rasa sayang ini tetap tumbuh dalam hatiku..

rasa cinta ini tetap tertanam hanya untukmu..

Tuhan tolonglah aku untuk berhenti mencarinya..

tolonglah aku untuk berhenti menunggunya..

karena kutahu apa yang kutunggu tak akan tiba..

kutahu apa yang kuinginkan tak akan tersampaikan..

karena ia hanya menginginkan satu orang..

dan orang itu bukanlah diriku..

another poem for 'mr.incredible'

your words fill my days

your attitudes blow my mind

your friendliness makes me stay

and all your jokes kills my time

your silliness,your laughter,your smile

your patience,your thoughtfulness,your kindness

all of them fills my day..

even though you're not mine,

but i can't stop thinking about you...

all things about you keep running in my head..

circling like it has its' own track..

i want you to get out of my head

but i'm not really sure about wanting it..

i just want a certainty about your feelings to me..

even though i don't know if i'm ready for it..

feels like insomniaa

is it me,or the night time is always the best time of the day??

cuz i always feel so excited at night so that i can't sleep...

help meee!!!!insomnia attacks!!! 0_0

where can i find someone like you ??

Fireflies..

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep

'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems

'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance

A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell

But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

congratulations darlings!!! :D

it feels so good when looking at your best friends, dating each other, they both seemed real happy...

it just feels great..and it makes you happy too..

and that's what i'm feeling right now..

love grows between two of my best friends...

and now they can share that feeling to each other without any worries...

congratulations to MICHELLE PUTRI SALIM and STEVEN PHILIP SURYA !!!

wish you guys all the best...and hope your relationship will stay strong forever even grows stronger and stronger.. :D

love you guys!!! :)

love you my friends.. :D

1 thing i just realized now,,,

hanging out with your friends lighten your day!!!

even when we're sad or feeling bad or even we only can cry so bad, it will all floats away and replaced by happiness and laughter..cuz your friends are the angels that were sent by God to accompany us and make us happy..

ICHA IBRAHIM, NADYA NATHAN, DEWI WULANDARI BUDIONO, and KIKI ADITYA...and also LEVINA DOMINICA...!(too bad you're not here...)

and ARLENE CLARISSA, ABBIGAIL ELIZABETH, DEBBY CYNTHIA, FRANSISCA NATASHA SUTARNA, VERONICA CHANDRAWATI, and NA-RAE PARK... :D

LOVE YOU GUYS!!! *smooch*

tangisan hatiku.. *najis dangdut bgt dah judulnya...*

perasaan apa ini?

perasaanku untuk kamu..

perasaan yang belum pernah kurasakan..

saat muncul sakitnya hati ini saat memikirkan kamu..

saat memikirkan betapa tak mungkinnya ku mendapatkan kamu..

banyak hal yang telah kulakukan untukmu..

bahkan sering ku menangis karena memikirkanmu...

sakit yang kurasakan tak mungkin kau bayangkan...

sebab semua itu terjadi karena ku terlalu menyayangimu...

mungkin deretan kalimat-kalimat ini membuatmu semakin jijik padaku..

karena kamu pasti merasa bahwa aku melebih-lebihkan..

namun cuma ini yang bisa kulakukan untuk menyatakan perasaanku padamu..

perasaan yang hanya bisa kupendam sendiri tanpa bisa mengharapkanmu tuk tertarik juga padaku...

karena ku tahu bahwa aku tak sepadan denganmu..

:'(

i don't know why,tapi hari ini mood gue ancur-ancuran...campur-campur gitu...

this morning as usual gue males-malesan ke sekolah..then nyampe di skolahpun gw langsung tidur lagi di meja gue cuz i was superbly sleepy...

and for the whole school time,i was totally bored to death dan sangat amat sangat ngantuk sampe-sampe gue tidur terus di tiap pelajaran.. *parah bukan?jangan di contoh..*

then pas pulang sekolah,gue k SMS *again* dan di BengSol ternyata ada Tiffany, Benaya, sama Lingga...jadi gue nunggu masuk gym barengan mereka..and when i spent my time with them, i feel pretty happy and somehow i can forget about all my problems..

and so does it waktu gue lagi ngegym...Body Combat makes my day...

but now,i'm back at home dan entah kenapa gue ngerasa bete, kesel, dan yang bikin gue paling bingung,, gue pengen nangis.. (lagi)

is it because of thinkin about him??do i think about him too much???or is it because i put too much hope???aaahh..i don't know but now i really wanted to cry... :'(

“Just because somebody flirts with you doesn’t mean they like you.

Just because somebody likes you doesn’t mean they want to go out with you.

Just because somebody goes out with you doesn’t mean they love you.

Just because somebody loves you doesn’t mean they won’t hurt you.

Because people lie and things change, boyfriends cheat, best friends leave and there are always those people that would kill to see you fall.”

re-post from http://crumpledlittlethoughts.blogspot.com/

love drunk

The top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit an run
An I still taste it on my tongue
The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you oh so bad it hurt
But girl, in case you haven’t heard

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
I’ll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye

Cause Just one thing would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We’re spinning on a roller coaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
You drove me crazy every time we touched
But now I’m so broken that I can’t get up
Oh girl, you make me such a lush

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
I’ll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now its just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye

Cause Just one thing would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
Checking into rehab is everything that we had
Didn’t mean a thing to you

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
I’ll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye

Cause Just one thing would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

Now it’s over
I still taste it on my tongue

girls want their guys to do these!

a letter to "mr.incredible"

hey there, my dear "mr. incredible"

how are you doing there??i'm fine here..and i wish so are you.. :)

you know how i can't stop dreaming about you these days?

and do you know how i keep wishing for you to be mine all these time?

my world seemed so dull and quiet when you are away..

and it always changes when you are around..

it's weird how i miss you this much..i even miss how annoying you are, how you swing my moods..

and i definitely miss your laugh, your silliness, your smile, even your scent...

now i wonder, have you ever thought about me this much?

have you ever miss me this much?

or do you even remember me when i'm not around?

i would love to hear the answer from you..

but i think i won't ever hear that from you..

cuz i know that i'm nothing for you...i'm not your dream-girl..i know that i'm just a friend for you..

and i'm actually pretty thankful that you still considered me as a friend..

cuz at least i can still talk and joke with you..

and for me, those things are one of the most precious moment between me and you..

maybe it's nothing for you and also for others..

but for me, those are special and really precious...

i know maybe you think that i'm a coward cuz i don't have the courage to say this to you face-to-face...

i don't even have the courage to say your name...

but hey, i'm a girl whose about to post this letter on my blog..

so i hope you'll understand..and if you read this, i bet you'll immediately know that i'm talking to you..yes, YOU!

but i hope this letter won't make you feel sorry for me..i also don't want you to avoid me..

it's just something that i want to say to you...

and i just want you to know that i really do love you this much... :)

huge Xs and Os,

ur admirer....

happiness?

i believe that everyone want to be happy all the time..can live their life with no problems..have happiness all around..who would ever resist that?

but now the question is,what is happiness?

is it getting whatever you want??is it getting everything goes just as you planned??is it when you win a lottery??or is it when you found that your enemies or rivals gotten into problem??

well,maybe for some people the things i've said might be their definition for happiness..even for me,sometimes those things are the definitions for happiness...but when i think again,i don't really think so...

i think happiness should be when you have achieved something in life..it doesn't have to be huge like winning lotteries or any competition..happiness might come only when you finished a task that you don't usually do..or when you can get rid of your bad habits..it doesn't have to be big..cuz when you're happy,it means you're thankful for what you've got or for what just had happened..so you can't only be thankful when something big just happened, right??

so,my conclusion is...

the only way for us to be happy all the time is just BE THANKFUL ALL THE TIME...

even when storm is ahead of you...when problems keep falling to your face...when you can't get what you want...cuz you have to believe,what God gave to you or what He doesn't give to you or whatever He has decided for us, it will always be the best for you..and all you have to do is just believe that everything happens for a reason..and that reason is always the best thing you can get.. :)

"The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere where they can be quiet, alone with the heavens, nature and God. Because only then does one feel that all is as it should be and that God wishes to see people happy, amidst the simple beauty of nature."

- Anne Frank

jocks,dancers,geeks

okay...so i can't sleep in this dark night...

the whole house is asleep..i've got nothing to do..

but this whole day has made me smile all along..i'm so happy to meet my friends again..to join body combat class again with great choice of songs made by belo...lots of fun! :D

and i'm glad belo likes the gift..it's such a tough choice about what to give him..and i decided to make him a collage picture of him and us then print it on a canvas..it's actually a pretty good idea,i admit.. :D

and now,in this dark and silent night,all i can think about are how happy today was and 'mr.incredible'...

(i know..i know..you guys might think how boring it is to read about me falling in love with 'mr.incredible' and how i keep talking about him..so yeah,i won't talk too much about him now..)

by the way, now i've just realized..the world is actually not as crowded as we all think...well it actually is..but it's weird how you can be so alone at night..everything seemed so quiet..and you might feel so alone..even though you know that it's actually time for people to have some rest,but when you can't do what people should do,like for example sleeping at night,you will feel alone..cuz there is a difference and it makes gaps between you and the world...weird huh?how people will only find friends or mates when you can do the same things with them..

like cheerleaders..they only hang out with cheerleaders..geeks hang out with geeks..football jocks hang out with football jocks...why can't people just blend in?

i just realized that when one of my friend told me how he doesn't hang a lot with others at school..he only hang out with the football jocks..well,if he wanted to,why can't he just blend in with the other kids?he has classmates..even though maybe his classmates are not football jocks,but i bet they can be fun too..

that's why i really thank God cuz i can have a class like my class now in SMIS...even though we have differences in how we think, our interests, but we can make ourselves to blend in with each and everyone in the class..it makes our friendship stays stronger between one and each other..boys and girls..jocks and dancers and smart geeks..

and i think people should start to follow that..so there might be no more wars..people can live in peace..and when one person in the environment had a problem, the others can help too without thinking about the profit for themselves... :)

"In good times, in bad times I'll be on your side forever more, that's what friends are for."

- "That's what friends are for"

i'm in love with you!

being with you is heaven for me

seeing you smile makes me happy too

joking and fooling around with you rocks my world

and when i try to forget you it makes me feel miserable..

cuz i'm in love with you..

too much til i sometimes hurt myself

too deep that i can't even stop it

it doesn't matter if you try to cut it off

i don't think it would be strong enough

for me to stop this feeling

for me to stay away from you

cuz i'm in love with your attitude,

i'm falling for those jokes and foolishness

i'm in love with your patience and kindness..

i'm in love with you!