You might not feel what i feel...

You might take me totally just as a friend…
But you have to know..
You have to know how I feel truly..
You have to be told about how I feel deep inside my heart..
I actually have fallen in love with you…
I actually really feel that you’re the one..
But I think you won’t care..
I think you would never feel the same…
I think you would think that all this are just a joke..
Or you might think that I would get over this feeling just as you count the days..
But even I don’t know when will I get over you…
Even I don’t know when will I start to take you as a friend only 100%..
You might not care about me..
But I really do care for you A LOT…
You might never think about me…
But I never stop remembering about you ALL THE TIME..
And now even the fireworks can’t totally cheer me up…
Being alone by the pool doesn’t help me anymore..
And now, maybe you’re having fun and being happy with the one you love..
While I type this thing over the sea…
I know I should never avoid you…
Cuz however you’re still a friend of mine…
But sorry….
I don’t know until when can I stand this…
I’m not strong enough to see you while knowing that you have no special feelings towards me…
I’ve drank and drank and drank…
But even when I got drunk, I still can’t let myself forget about you…
I know this is not your fault…
This is my own fault by falling in love with you…
The person who I haven’t known for too long…
But somehow I feel you’re the one…
I feel like you’re the person who’s gonna love me truly..
From the deepest part of your heart..
But I guess I’m wrong..
I guess you’re not the one..
I guess you won’t be the one who loves me truly…
And now I think a lot…
About my “love life”…
And I realizes, maybe I’m rejected because I’m so unimportant for everyone…
Maybe I’m rejected because people never need me truly…
Maybe I don’t deserved to be loved…
Well..
They’re just maybe’s..
But sometimes, those maybe’s can be right..
Those maybe’s might be the fact…
To be honest, I’m afraid they’re the facts…
I’m afraid those maybe’s are right…
But I afraid more for knowing that you’re not the one..
I’m more afraid when I imagine you’ll walk in front of me with other girl that you love more…
So what should I do now??
I really don’t have any idea..
Can anyone tell me???