we started as friends..

we had a lot of great times since then..

but then you left without saying anything to me..

now you suddenly show up again..

fill my life with all those happiness and laughs again..

my days seemed so clear and fun again..

now i have this "feeling" towards you..

but you have that girl that you've committed to..

and i can't force you to love me too..

it's okay for me..

cuz even by being your friend, i can still feel your love towards me..

even though not as your girl, but i believe you care and love me too..

thank God that i finally can find you again..

it makes my days mean a lot to me..

even physically i'm not yours,

but trust me dear, my heart is yours..

i might take other person as my boyfriend later on..

but you will always be the guy who fills my heart with all your love...

you are my friend, my special one, my everything..

i know this is wrong..

showing your love to someone that is already in a relationship..

but i can't lie to myself..

my heart can't deny it..

i can't tell myself to avoid you..

cause i love you too much to do that..

too bad the timing is not right..

it's always been like that since long ago..

i don't know what HE meant by reuniting us again like this..

especially in this condition..

when you have that special girl in your heart and life..

well now all i can do is just be your bestfriend..

all i can do is just not letting you go again..

i want to learn to love 100%..

i want to learn to be happy when you're happy..

cause i believe that love doesn't mean i have to have you..

By My Side - David Choi

I'm just listening to the clock go ticking,
I am waiting as the time goes by.
I think of you with every breath I take,
I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine.
You're all I see, in everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

All the fears you feel inside,
and all the tears you cry,
they're ending right here.
I'll heal your heart and soul;
I'll keep you oh so close.
Don't worry; I'll never let you go.
You're all I need, you're everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

No one else will ever do.
I got a stubborn heart for you.
Call me crazy, but its true; I love you.
I didn't think that it would be,
you have made it clear to me.
You're all I need.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

hanging out free your mind!! :D

everything that i thought won't go off my mind,

disappear in a snap when i'm hanging out with my pals..

so if you have this problem or anything bad you have in mind,

just hang out with your friends..

try to refresh you mind...

friends,cigs,coffee,laptop.

those things definitely free my mind. :D

second chance :)

second chance..

it's something you should earn.

it's not something that you an get in a click..

you have to fight for it..

just like i've fought for a second chance from him..

it's actually pretty hard to get..

but finally i can get it after a month of hard work..

for a month i've been trying to earn your trust and your love again..

and i finally did it..

thank you for this chance dear...

i promise not to disappoint you again..

i promise i won't let you down again..

love you dearr!!! :D

moving on

people say moving on is not as hard as it seems..

and i believed them..

but now i started to doubt it..

it as been 3 months..

and i still can't really move on from you..

it's so hard for me not to think about you anymore..

i can't distract my mind to other people most of the time..

all i can think about is only you...

maybe i can pretend in front of my friends..

i can pretend that i'm over you already..

but actually i'm wearing this thick mask so people wouldn't know..

i'm acting this way so people won't think that i'm weak..

i want them to see me as a tough girl..

but now i can't stand it anymore..

i love you..

i still do..

my immortal - evanescence

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me